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STAYING_STRONG4HIM
May 9th, 2009, 12:42 AM
I'm having a tough night and it's so tempting just to cut right now just to let all that I feel out, but I don't want to cut myself again. I WILL NOT cut myself again...please I need help...
RaeNose
May 9th, 2009, 12:50 AM
If you need to, just PM me, k? If you need to just rant and let it all out, I'll be here.
alexpop
May 9th, 2009, 01:04 AM
omg plzz dnt cut yourself if u need help here my msg me and will give u my messgenger okay but plzz dnt cut yourself tht wount make difference
Shattered Soul
May 9th, 2009, 12:45 PM
Hey, hun, are you feeling better now? Sorry I wasn't online to help earlier.
xxCathyxx
RaeNose
May 9th, 2009, 02:25 PM
I don't think that anyone was online to help her. :(
STAYING_STRONG4HIM
May 9th, 2009, 08:43 PM
I'm ok, still fighting it but ok...I might just need someone to talk me through the weekend here...I know I have the will power to fight this...but I know I am not going to be able to do this on my own. I'm trying to just keep myself busy...and keep myself away from the razor. Things at home have not been so great either so that just makes me want to cut more...but I am really trying to fight this.
RaeNose
May 9th, 2009, 08:59 PM
That's very good, hun. Keep yourself away from that razor. I'm still here, and I've been here all day, and I'm pretty sure that it's going to stay that way. If you need anyone to talk to, I'm still here.
STAYING_STRONG4HIM
May 9th, 2009, 09:11 PM
That's good to know. Tonight is going to be a long night...I have a feeling.
RaeNose
May 9th, 2009, 09:57 PM
Yeah. I'll keep looking for the gameboy advanced... I wanted to finish beating the Elite Four. Although, talking to Calum works, too. lol.
However, going to Sam's would've been ideal. Whatever, though, I'm good. :)
dstnyisurs
May 9th, 2009, 11:54 PM
Darling,
aim; celery3133
yahoo; kassiekassie3133

Feel free to PM or email the yahoo. I'm always here to listen.

You're better then the.. bloodlust. You can survive without it. In the morning everything will be better, and there will be sunlight, I promise. Please don't cut.. please don't. The pain will only fester and grow worse and worse. .. It's only a temporary high. Please remember that... you're cared about and hurting yourself isn't the way to go....
STAYING_STRONG4HIM
May 10th, 2009, 10:02 PM
guys...I am having a hard night...I don't know if i can make it through without cutting.
Miss Punk
May 11th, 2009, 03:59 PM
Hey, I hope you're okay *hugs* Lots of love, take care xx
Char_x
May 11th, 2009, 04:27 PM
Darling,
aim; celery3133
yahoo; kassiekassie3133

Feel free to PM or email the yahoo. I'm always here to listen.

You're better then the.. bloodlust. You can survive without it. In the morning everything will be better, and there will be sunlight, I promise. Please don't cut.. please don't. The pain will only fester and grow worse and worse. .. It's only a temporary high. Please remember that... you're cared about and hurting yourself isn't the way to go....

I 2nd this. Just think how good you'll feel tommorow if you dont do it. Just stay strong and maybe distract yourself with something like a book or listen to some music. Try anything like maybe punch your pillows or something. Stay strong anyways, we are all here for you. *Hugs*. Feel free to pm me anytime. If you feel like it will work then send me a long message about whats bothering you, maybe letting it all out will help and be a distraction. Keep your chin up anyways :-). x
STAYING_STRONG4HIM
May 11th, 2009, 11:29 PM
I made it guys...I made it through last night...now I just have to make it through tonight. It's really tempting right now to just go cut because I have been having a horrible day...but I know I'll probably feel even worse if I cut...
RaeNose
May 12th, 2009, 12:05 AM
Yes you will, just find that release, hun. Find that replacement release, and you should be ok. :) We're all praying for you, Heidi. Please don't give up.
STAYING_STRONG4HIM
May 12th, 2009, 05:50 AM
Maybe a counselor knows a good way for me to release things...we'll see...I meet a new counselor at my school today. I let you know how it goes.
Miss Punk
May 12th, 2009, 06:32 AM
Maybe a counselor knows a good way for me to release things...we'll see...I meet a new counselor at my school today. I let you know how it goes.
Good luck, I hope it goes well for you, let us know :)
STAYING_STRONG4HIM
May 12th, 2009, 10:49 PM
Well the counseling thing went great. The counselor is very nice and I find it much easier to connect with her than the other school counselor I was talking to before. She understands a lot of what's going and she understands why I would think the way I do even if it's not the right way to think. So things went pretty well today. I talked a few things through and she has given me a few ideas, but she doesn't force them on me which I like. I'm on my way to healing though. things will get better . They have to.
Axellance
May 13th, 2009, 12:46 AM
I'm on my way to healing though. things will get better . They have to.

good to hear, the positiveness shows me that you actually are ready to get better, you just have to make sure not to give up...try your very hardest but if you slip up don't think of it as the end its just a mistake it doesn't mean you are done you can keep going. its like tripping or falling in the a race yes its a setback but don't start walking backwards just keep trying you will make it to the finish line.
STAYING_STRONG4HIM
May 13th, 2009, 02:54 PM
I had a really bad day today. Cutting is on my mind right now. It's like unavoidable when something goes wrong. Whenever something goes wrong now I think about it. I need to talk to someone right now. I need a distraction because if I don't find a distraction soon I am going to give in...I'm tired and I just don't feel like I have the strength to fight it anymore
TigerLily
May 13th, 2009, 03:23 PM
Heidi, please please don't cut.
You have the strength to do this, I promise you.
You said you needed to talk, if you want you can always PM me for my msn, ok?
I'm here if you want to talk, as are soo many other people here.
All the best Heidi, you can do this...
My thoughts and prayers,
Rachel
STAYING_STRONG4HIM
May 13th, 2009, 04:45 PM
I just can't take it anymore
RaeNose
May 14th, 2009, 12:18 AM
No one can.
*begins her satire, for those who didn't take AP Comp*
I'm a hypocrite. I cut myself If you want to cut, go ahead. I can't stop you. We only live once, so one must experience every aspect of life, no matter if it kills them. Don't try to fight this, give up, that's what your body wants you to do. You'll be able to hide the scars, and it makes you feel good, if only for a little while. Sure, there can be complications, such as infections and such, but what can they do to you? They're just little cuts, they don't really mean anything. They just mean that you're hurting, not that you're losing a battle for control over your body with this sickness of addiction.
*end of satire*
I hope you realize what I'm saying through this. You cannot give up because some punk girl decided that it would give her an ego boost to kick you while you're down. Yeah she's a stupid little ho who needs to get over herself. But no matter what the circumstances are, SHE CANNOT RUIN YOUR LIFE. SHE HAS NO CONTROL OVER YOUR DREAMS, ONLY YOU DO.
Cutting is not the answer, it only causes more problems. I would know. I had to tell my bf that I cut again last night. It honestly and truly sucked.
Hope this gives you a bit of encouragement, hun. Please feel better.
STAYING_STRONG4HIM
May 14th, 2009, 05:53 AM
I really feel like crap right now. I'm moments away from tears. I'm dizzy. I'm stressed. I just want to rest.

I didn't even get all my homework done. Luckily my teachers are pretty flexible...my biology teacher is letting me take my test on monday and he let me turn in my homework later today...So that I didn't fail at everything. That was incredibly nice. He understands what is going on though and he doesn't want to add anymore stress on me.