Loss...

[EverlostPoet]

Yeah, i lost my mom when i was 2 and a half...Well at least i thought i did. im 18 now and 2 months ago i found out i had a sister who was 17 and she is sleek as a fox. She told me my mom didnt die but went into a coma, then my sister told me that my mom never wanted me. Then my mom told me face to face. i have been depressed ever sence, i feel liked the whole world lied to me. Why Me?

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

Aww...that is hard...I don't know the answer to your why me question but it's all a part of God's master plan...Something good could come out of this...you never know.

[Littleman]

Indeed, Something is planned for you. Stay strong. keep going. and if you ever want to talk there are alot of people here that will do it in a heartbeat. Remember Life Will Go On

[byee]

Shocking news, huh Jake? I'm not sure what prompted your sister to share this but of nasty family history with you, did you ask? Or did she feel that you should 'just' know? It's an important distinction, b/c if you asked, then at least it was your idea and part of some process you might be going thru to figure some stuff out and you needed some info. If not, if she 'just' decided to tell you, then frankly it was truly mean spirited and nasty. The point was to (at best) just vent her own frustration at whatever went on within your family, and (at worst) to really hurt you. Let me know which one it was, it really matters.

Either way, it really doesn't matter a whole lot in the grand scheme of things (although it would affect your relationship with your sister). If you've been cared for and well loved by the people who had the good sense to take you in and appreciate you not so much because they 'just' had you, but actually wanted you and invested the time and energy amd resources, who cares about the body you came out of and what she thought or wanted?

You're defined by what you accomplish in this life, not the mistakes (or feelings or needs) of those who brought you into the world. Make the best of who you are, and forget about the biology. It's overrated anyway.

[EverlostPoet]

Shocking news, huh Jake? I'm not sure what prompted your sister to share this but of nasty family history with you, did you ask? Or did she feel that you should 'just' know? It's an important distinction, b/c if you asked, then at least it was your idea and part of some process you might be going thru to figure some stuff out and you needed some info. If not, if she 'just' decided to tell you, then frankly it was truly mean spirited and nasty. The point was to (at best) just vent her own frustration at whatever went on within your family, and (at worst) to really hurt you. Let me know which one it was, it really matters.

Either way, it really doesn't matter a whole lot in the grand scheme of things (although it would affect your relationship with your sister). If you've been cared for and well loved by the people who had the good sense to take you in and appreciate you not so much because they 'just' had you, but actually wanted you and invested the time and energy amd resources, who cares about the body you came out of and what she thought or wanted?

You're defined by what you accomplish in this life, not the mistakes (or feelings or needs) of those who brought you into the world. Make the best of who you are, and forget about the biology. It's overrated anyway.

well I think i kind of asked her... I said " how did Mom have you if she was dead before you were born?" then she said "oh, hell have i got to explain" so then she told me everything. and if it wasn't for one person i met on here i problay wouldn't be where I am today, Josh(Origami) helped me see the brighter side of things. He is also my best friend online.

[TigerLily]

Jake, that must be really tough for you. I agree with Sam entirely, try and keep positive and focus on those people who do love you, have raised you and only want the best for you. Feel free to pm me if you ever want to talk :)



You're defined by what you accomplish in this life, not the mistakes (or feelings or needs) of those who brought you into the world. Make the best of who you are, and forget about the biology. It's overrated anyway.

Also, just to say to Sam, what you said here has really struck a chord with me, and it has helped me a lot.. I know you don't know why... but just to say thanks anyway :)

[EverlostPoet]

Yea, i dont think ill ever fully recover, but eh.. life keeps moving with or without you. least it isnt as bad as last time i almost commited suicide over a girl, 2 monthes hospitalized. so like...yeah.

[TigerLily]

Maybe you won't ever fully recover (although I sincerely hope you do), but I'm sure that the future may hold brighter prospects for you, that you will learn to cope better with your depression as time progresses (as hard though it is), and remember you always have so many people here on vt willing to help :)

:hug:

[EverlostPoet]

Maybe you won't ever fully recover (although I sincerely hope you do), but I'm sure that the future may hold brighter prospects for you, that you will learn to cope better with your depression as time progresses (as hard though it is), and remember you always have so many people here on vt willing to help :)

:hug:

thanx, i hope i do to and yeah this place is very friendly and stuff so yeah ik ill be here for a long time to come.

[TigerLily]

I'm sure you will Jake, and I'm glad you're enjoying vt so much :)

[suffer_deeply]

In our lives, we suffer a lot.. We walk through on several trials, that causes us to give up. Sometimes we think life is so unfair because of the hindrance we've been through. We struggle a lot to survive, but when things went wrong and everything is gone, we find someone to blame on and ask "why me?"..But things are just not constant, things may come and go, if not today, tommorrow, or never. But we need to value things that comes along our way, looking back the past may serve as our guidance to a new and better path forward..

“Every problem has a gift inside. We seek problems because we want their gifts.”
www.thankgodforebooks.com/mom-died.htm
www.thankgodforebooks.com/mom-died.htm

[EverlostPoet]

i like that, its sounded cool xD, but the links dont work. T-T

[Jman35]

Listen man, honestly, don't even be upset by this. Would you really want those 2 sick twisted bitches as your mother and sister? Think of it that way. If they were that mean and stupid to give you up, then, if i were in your posisition, would think I deserve better.

[EverlostPoet]

my sister was looking for me, she wanted to see me. she loves me its my mom who didnt give. T-T

[Jman35]

my sister was looking for me, she wanted to see me. she loves me its my mom who didnt give. T-T


Oh sorry, well anyway, have some communication with your sis, and tell your mom to fuck off.

Like I said, don't get upset about it, if she was dumb enough to give you up, she's obviously too dumb to take care of a child.

[EverlostPoet]

yea...she wont even come near me. she treats e like a monster. But my sis is nice and forgiving and stuff. so much for like mom like Daughter

[ErykaInspire.]

Jake.. I know how hard it is to be told that by your own mom :/
Take it day by day. Don't let her get to you.. she doesn't know you. She doesn't know what an amazing kid she's passing up. Live for the ones that love you. She may have brought you into this world, but she doesn't deserve to be a part of it. She doesn't deserve you. I'm glad she had you though. I'd be lost without the Jake-peice in my puzzle of a life(:
I'll be here for you through the end. I'm stuck with you anyways ;) Seems like every website we go on, we find eachother.

Anyways.. i love you, Jake. and You know that.
Josh is one amazing guy.. we're both extremely lucky, eh?(:


How come you never told me that you tried to commit suicide over a girl?):

[EverlostPoet]

yeah..i did almost die over a girl, and you knew her xD ask josh who it was. xD and yeah i blame josh for us always finding each other online, cause he told me about this site and then the same day he told you and you joined xD

[ErykaInspire.]

Josh isn't on so can't you just tell meh? D:
and eh. Didn't we know eachother before REL? lmao

[EverlostPoet]

yeah we did this happened right after REL Crashed and you quitted. but i dont like talking about it so yeah...

[ErykaInspire.]

ok. I'm sorry..

[EverlostPoet]

its ok just not a topic i take very lightly... but Josh will tell you. sorry :/ oh and my sister is here :D

[ErykaInspire.]

It's okay, Jake.
and yay! :D
I hope you guys have fun(:

[EverlostPoet]

lol i havent seen y mo for 2 weeks, aybe thats a good sign that she is gone?

[ErykaInspire.]

Depends on your perspective,
But in my eyes, yes.
If she was making you miserable, it's good she's gone :/

[EverlostPoet]

xP thanks... i might just get off a whilefound out soething and im kinda startingto get very depressed

[ErykaInspire.]

wanna talk about it?

[EverlostPoet]

i wont even tell Josh...so sorry but no.

[ErykaInspire.]

ok, I respect that..