poem

[ackmedsgirl666]

i still love her
like the air i breath everyday
i see her everwhere i go
at school
after school
or whenever i possibly can
she thinks im over her
but really i never will be
i love her so much
i hate when she talks about *her*
the girl she now loves
it breaks my heart to hear her say it
i wish that she would stop
i know that she dumped me for a reason
and i think that was becuz i went psycho and wound up in a psyche ward
i still really love her
and i want her back
i still have dreams of u s together
and the stuff we used to do
but when i open my eyes the good feelings go away
i know she loves someone else
and i would never get the chance
to look into her eyes again
i miss her so much when shes gone
thats why i wish she was still mine
and if she was ever to be mine again
i wud let her be herself
i wud not change a thing
i wouldn't be super clingy like i was
i would change for her and do whatever she we're to request me to
i wud let her go freely as she pleases and talk2 whoever she wants to and not try and control her life and ruin her relationship with her family
i wudn't mind it at all
but this is all an image painted in my mind
i will never get her back
shes already moved on..........:wub::(

[ShatteredWings]

As this is in r&d, not open book, you want advice, no?

I think that she might have left for more reasons than just the psych ward thing.
If someone doesn't love the other person, it's just not gonna work.
Does NOT matter if there IS someone else involved.
If you weren't quite so possisive(or jealous, or saying you're over it when you're CLEARLY not), maybe you two could still have a REAL friendship.

I'm half tempted to catch you two BOTH online at the same time and bashing your heads together.
No, not kidding.
STOP FIGHTING

And no kenzie, you may not shoot me thankyouverymuch.


if this was just a poem misplaced..ignore this post

[ackmedsgirl666]

i wasn't going to gwyn
but thanks for the advice i guess

[ackmedsgirl666]

a recent new poem that i sent to my love(not ex love brandon)
i still cry whenever i read it
enjoy!!!!!

today the person who i thought was my number 1
who loved me and cared about me so much
surprised me
i was to take a three hour CV at central library
he (brandon) had callled and said he's wanted his ring back
the 10 k gold ring that i treasured
that in a delicate handwritten wau had his B carved into the center
the ring i almost never took off
i loved that ring to pieces
it always made it feel like he was with me whenever i wore it
now its gone
as we were driving up to the library
i saw his big brothers truck parked infront of the door
i couldnlt move
i was soo nervous
as i gently fondled the ring inbetween my fingers
i tried to hide
but he outsmarted me
and it all ended
my world came crashing down
as i neared the stairs
there he was looking as handsome as ever
giving me that look as if to say i'm sorry hun
i wannted to run away
with the ring still in hand
but his look stopped me
i took one last look into the everlasting blue eyes
threw the ring aat you
and ran
i watched u walk away
as you proudly put the ring to your finger with a smile on your face
you hads gotten what you wanted
you just left me
just standing there
crying, blaming myself for eveything
saying im the reason you left
and done what you had done
wishing i cud have done better
instead i just watched u walk away
and didn't even dare to utter a word
our relationship ended on bad notes
but also ended 2 days short of our 1month
i loved him to pieces
and sadly still do
but he doesn't care anymore
this always happens
every relationship i've had ends badly
i was hoping that if anything happened
i'd get outta this one easier
i guess that i can never take love seriously
theres only one thing i wish for right now
i wish to hear him say i love you one more time
to feel his warm embrace
to taste his kisses
to stare into his liquid blue eyes
hear his voice
hear him say" your beautiful" like he used to
but this is all but a dream
i've given up
i have no more hope
i had faith in someone who is no longer there
i thought maybe.. just maybe
this guy will be the one
that i coukld put aside my differences
i gave it all
i put aside time to call him everyday
to go and see him
i would tell him all of my problems
and i'd hope he'd understand
but i over did it
i put too much on his plate
i overpowered him
i underdstand my wrongs
and i have learned from my mistakes
i lost everything i treasured
every night when i close my eyes
i see his face
hes holding me
and looking me into the eyes
he softly kisses my hand
and whispers in my ear
"kenzie i love you, you mean the world to me babe"
every night he says this
and it seems so real
but when i open my eyes
the voice is gone'
and so is he
all thats there is his picture on the wall
anyways this has got to end
brandon i'm sorry
i love u babe i caqn;t get you outta my head
your love is special to me
i appre4ciated everything about you
i di9dnblt care that you were different
younger, and quite charming
i didnlt care what people said or did or thought
because your love for me
was more important
babe i love you