randomguy
May 7th, 2009, 09:41 PM
ok hi i'm new and let me start out by saying that i am just finishing my freshmen year in high school, i'm asian and don't consider myself "attractive" or anything at all. i wouldn't consider myself popular, but i have a fair amount of friends, some "nerds", some skaters, jocks, and average joes. if i had to pick i'd say i'm closer to a dork then a nerd because people know that i'm by far the biggest slacker and procrastinator in any honors classes. around girls i am pretty dang shy as in if a girl randomly goes up and talks to me (for any reason) i usually get tong tied and usually end up grunting some short reply. after talking with that girl a few times though, i can act normal and hold a civil conversation. but if i approach a girl (for any reason) then it is DEATH. that being said, its painfully obvious that i have never had a girl friend or even any close friends who are girls. so this is basically the pathetic story of my love life to date.....
back in eighth grade, i was in a class of 24 students (8 girls, the rest guys), most of us have know each other for 7-8 years, and in eighth grade, there is exactly one new kid, who happened to be a girl. it was really weird, because i was under the impression that she wasn't pretty at all, but i still found her attractive. i think she has a pretty good personality to, at least based on the little i know. well half way through the year, i have this sleepover with my friends who are what you might call dorks. so, for basically the first time ever, we talk about girls and turns out they actually think shes hot to. and whats more, one of them tells me that he heard from a friend of a friend of that girl that she likes me. so even though i know hes not the person who would have the most accurate "gossip" if you will, i obviously started getting giddy and stuff. i know this sounds like some 90s disney movie, but please bear with me.
so graduation comes around the corner, and of course, theres a dance that we have to go to. so for the entire year, i recall a total of two times that i've talked with her at all, once when i was just asking what school she came from, etc, while we were running an errand for a teacher, and once when we was the designated leader of this project we had to do. thats pretty sad, considering i see her 7 hours a day on week days. anyway, so theres the dance, and since i didn't anticipate having to dance, i was sitting with the other rejects and kids who were to cool to dance while eating my 12 piece bucket of KFC. (and no, i'm not fat, i actually weighed like 95 pounds at the time)
so as i'm sitting there, i notice she gets asked by two people to dance, then strangely she asks my best friend (the type of jock who could get a girl if he wants) to dance. as far as i knew he hasn't talked to her much more then i have. being pretty layed back and a good friend, i don't even get jealous or anything. but then, she actually comes and asks me for a dance! and it was a slow song too. of course, i had to blow it by mentioning i didn't want to throw up on her dress cuz the swaying was unsettling my friend chicken, but it was fun while it lasted.
that night, seeing as the KFC wouldn't let me sleep, i spent the night turning around in my bed thinking about her. and during the summer while i was bored i would think about her too. it wasn't like a crazy crush or anything, but just something that floated around in the back of my mind. then highschool comes, and i'm pretty much amazed by the almost 150 girls in the freshmen class alone. but after the initial shock sinks in, my assigned seat in my english class happens to be right besides hers and i start thinking again.
even nearly after a year in highschool, i've only talked to her a little bit. i remember at the beginning of the year where neither of us knew anyone else, she would walk by me and smile whiling staring straight ahead so i have no idea if who she was smiling at. that really bugged. what sux is that shes also the quiet type (probably not as bad as me) but still. two of her friends are the more outgoing and also happen to sit by me so i actually talk to them, which could count for something.
so yeah, that basically sums up the story. congrats i've you've made it this far. anything, i repeat ANYTHING that you have to say would be much appreciated. advice, analysis, comments about me being a dumb losers, anything. thanks for reading.
back in eighth grade, i was in a class of 24 students (8 girls, the rest guys), most of us have know each other for 7-8 years, and in eighth grade, there is exactly one new kid, who happened to be a girl. it was really weird, because i was under the impression that she wasn't pretty at all, but i still found her attractive. i think she has a pretty good personality to, at least based on the little i know. well half way through the year, i have this sleepover with my friends who are what you might call dorks. so, for basically the first time ever, we talk about girls and turns out they actually think shes hot to. and whats more, one of them tells me that he heard from a friend of a friend of that girl that she likes me. so even though i know hes not the person who would have the most accurate "gossip" if you will, i obviously started getting giddy and stuff. i know this sounds like some 90s disney movie, but please bear with me.
so graduation comes around the corner, and of course, theres a dance that we have to go to. so for the entire year, i recall a total of two times that i've talked with her at all, once when i was just asking what school she came from, etc, while we were running an errand for a teacher, and once when we was the designated leader of this project we had to do. thats pretty sad, considering i see her 7 hours a day on week days. anyway, so theres the dance, and since i didn't anticipate having to dance, i was sitting with the other rejects and kids who were to cool to dance while eating my 12 piece bucket of KFC. (and no, i'm not fat, i actually weighed like 95 pounds at the time)
so as i'm sitting there, i notice she gets asked by two people to dance, then strangely she asks my best friend (the type of jock who could get a girl if he wants) to dance. as far as i knew he hasn't talked to her much more then i have. being pretty layed back and a good friend, i don't even get jealous or anything. but then, she actually comes and asks me for a dance! and it was a slow song too. of course, i had to blow it by mentioning i didn't want to throw up on her dress cuz the swaying was unsettling my friend chicken, but it was fun while it lasted.
that night, seeing as the KFC wouldn't let me sleep, i spent the night turning around in my bed thinking about her. and during the summer while i was bored i would think about her too. it wasn't like a crazy crush or anything, but just something that floated around in the back of my mind. then highschool comes, and i'm pretty much amazed by the almost 150 girls in the freshmen class alone. but after the initial shock sinks in, my assigned seat in my english class happens to be right besides hers and i start thinking again.
even nearly after a year in highschool, i've only talked to her a little bit. i remember at the beginning of the year where neither of us knew anyone else, she would walk by me and smile whiling staring straight ahead so i have no idea if who she was smiling at. that really bugged. what sux is that shes also the quiet type (probably not as bad as me) but still. two of her friends are the more outgoing and also happen to sit by me so i actually talk to them, which could count for something.
so yeah, that basically sums up the story. congrats i've you've made it this far. anything, i repeat ANYTHING that you have to say would be much appreciated. advice, analysis, comments about me being a dumb losers, anything. thanks for reading.