Am i Bi? Gay? or do i have HOCD?

[jkme]

Hey everyone, i am an 18 year old male college student and i am just looking for some input on some sexuality issues that i have recently been having. Ok, so up until about 2 months ago, i never even wondered whether i was gay or not, i have always been sexually attracted to girls. Although i have never had a girlfriend because i am pretty shy(because of low self esteem because up until recently i used to have some pretty bad acne), i have fooled around with girls and i have always wanted a girlfriend. All my sexual dreams have only involved girls. But recently, i have this thing where a recognize a good looking guy and then i think that i might be gay. And then all these different sexual thoughts come into my head and really worry me. I cant seem to get them out of my head either, which makes me think it might be HOCD. I have a small history of obsessive worrying and hypochondriasis. For example i have these stages where one little symptom or thing seems out of place and all of the sudden i think i have cancer, or that i am going crazy. These obsessive worrying fits come and go, but i have never had one that has lasted this long. It is really starting to get to me. I just wish i could go back to not questioning and worrying myself all the time. To deal with the anxiety, i think i have convinced myself that i might be bisexual or
bicurious. At least with bisexuality i can choose what sexual impulses to act on....
On the other hand, what if this is just me really needing a girlfriend, or really needing a close, intimate relationship? Or just needing to exercise my masculinity? When i think about where i want to be in the future, it always involves a girl.....

[RandomChick242]

Well I think that you may be going through a phase (I know that most people hate to hear that but whatev.) and then once you get a girlfriend that your thoughts about other guys will disapear, but if they don't then you might be bi. My advice is to get a girlfriend, and after awhile if you thoughts about other guys don't disapear, exparament (sp?) a little, with a trusted friend whose willing.

[jkme]

Thanks a lot! I really appreciate the reply

[Furn_93]

Lots of other people have had this.

Mainly before fifteen.

But i've talked to several people before, and they've had it the same age as you have done.

It seems to be a phase. I wouldn't worry about it.

Your hormones are still a little active at this age, so some that may have been dormant might've just started kicking up a little trouble.

If the feelings don't go away, then act on it (is my advice) then if it doesn't appeal, don't do it. If it does, you're bisexual.