He cheated on me.. :(

[sienna.]

argghhh!!!!
i don't know what is happening, just when things were getting better, it goes worse again.
yesterday i ate something, and i was okay with it, i was happy that i did it!
and today i have made myself throw up and i have crashed, and it's all matt's fault.

today my girl best friend sage came and saw me, and she was upset and crying and she said she had something to tell me.
she said that her and matt (MY BOYFRINED) have slept with eachother TWICE! first a drunken mistake and then again last week WHEN I WAS I HOSPITAL!
i can't believe it my boy friend and my best friend.
i told her to leave.

i got so mad!!

but then i ended up being just as bad as him!!

i called matt's best friend coop and he came and visited me.
he said that he knew nothing about it.
and i don't know, maybe because i was so mad and upset!
I HAD SEX WITH COOP!!!
i am just as bad as matt!!!

ohhh i can't believe this!!
i am so mad at matt and sage, but at the same time mortified with myself.

WHY DID I DO IT?????
do you think that maybe a part of me called coop hoping that something would happen between us???

just when things were good, it goes bad again!!!!!!!
my life can never be good!!!

how will i ever trust matt and sage again????
:( *crys*

[INFERNO]

argghhh!!!!
i don't know what is happening, just when things were getting better, it goes worse again.
yesterday i ate something, and i was okay with it, i was happy that i did it!
and today i have made myself throw up and i have crashed, and it's all matt's fault.

today my girl best friend sage came and saw me, and she was upset and crying and she said she had something to tell me.
she said that her and matt (MY BOYFRINED) have slept with eachother TWICE! first a drunken mistake and then again last week WHEN I WAS I HOSPITAL!
i can't believe it my boy friend and my best friend.
i told her to leave.

i got so mad!!

but then i ended up being just as bad as him!!

i called matt's best friend coop and he came and visited me.
he said that he knew nothing about it.
and i don't know, maybe because i was so mad and upset!
I HAD SEX WITH COOP!!!
i am just as bad as matt!!!

ohhh i can't believe this!!
i am so mad at matt and sage, but at the same time mortified with myself.

WHY DID I DO IT?????
do you think that maybe a part of me called coop hoping that something would happen between us???

just when things were good, it goes bad again!!!!!!!
my life can never be good!!!

how will i ever trust matt and sage again????
:( *crys*

You can trust them by telling them, just as they told you. Everyone screws up, we're human and human are notorious for screwing up. Forgive them and hopefully, they'll forgive you then you all move on from this chaos and continue being friends. As for Coop, it depends if you wish to have a stronger relationship with him (i.e. boyfriend) or simply a friend, or no relationship at all. Seeing as how you and him talked it out, I assume you're friends already on some level, so why not continue being friends, along with Matt and Sage?

[sienna.]

yeahhh me and coop are just friends.
that's it.
we both agreeded that it was just a heat of the moment thing.

i just..
if they slept together that one drunken night, i wouldn't be so upset.
but they did it again last week sober!!!!

i know i am just as bad as them... i know.
i will never forgive myself.

i talked to matt and he said that it will never happen again.
but they already had sex twice.
and that he will never do it again.

but i don't know...

[Truth]

yeahhh me and coop are just friends.
that's it.
we both agreeded that it was just a heat of the moment thing.

i just..
if they slept together that one drunken night, i wouldn't be so upset.
but they did it again last week sober!!!!

i know i am just as bad as them... i know.
i will never forgive myself.

i talked to matt and he said that it will never happen again.
but they already had sex twice.
and that he will never do it again.

but i don't know... Sienna, Matt is lying to you. Why can't you see that?! He's been abusing you, and now he's cheating on you; Where in those two things does he prove he loves you. Dump him and move on, there's better men out there. Your not as bad, you only did it because you felt it was revenge. Forgive yourself or you'll just have wasted your life..

[MysticalBurrito]

You have to leave him hes abusive and slept with your best friend if he loves you he wouldnt do that!
I suggest leaving him
Get better from what your going through and find yourself a boy who loves you doesnt hit you sleep with your friends...
I am really sorry about what is happening stay strong if you loose that asshole you will do so much better
He doesnt love you he is just using you he hits you! is that some type of love that i never heard of!?!

“Love is patient; love is kind
and envies no one.
Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude;
never selfish, not quick to take offense.
There is nothing love cannot face;
there is no limit to its faith,
its hope, and endurance.
In a word, there are three things
that last forever: faith, hope, and love;
but the greatest of them all is love.”

if he really loved you he would be nice...

[byee]

There's entirely too much drama in your life right now. I'm not sure how Sage coming over and telling you she and Matt betrayed you was helpful, and I'm not sure how having sex with Coop (which just seems vindictive) helps, either. Call me old fashioned, but I always thought friends help eachother and support eachother and are true to eachother, otherwise they're frankly worthless, certainly not worth hurting yourself over or otherwise doing things to yourself that aren't good.

There's enough you're dealing with right now, frankly I think you should zero in on those issues and just leave all this teen drama for another time. Or better yet, jettison the whole lot of them and find some friends out there who function on a higher level.

[Cloud]

well thats his second chance gone. Hes causing you so much stress and trouble right now you jsut need to get away from him jsut leave him now and forget about it, you managed to eat not him so you can do it without him.
i think its best that you jsut try adn forget about them and jsut find some new friends because its clear to me that the ones you got now are not supporting you or helping you in anyway

[Specter]

I can’t believe your good friend would do that too you, I would seriously consider hanging around with a different group of people. To be honest I’m getting the feeling that your “Friend” was jealous of you and couldn’t take it anymore. So she came onto your boyfriend.

Firstly I’d brake up with the guy and tell your “Friend” to leave you alone from now on.

[sienna.]

my group of friends, we arn't the best group.
we are all fucked in some way.
criminal record, drug fucked..
we are all like that.
and that's why we are friends.

i got a visit from ryan my best best friend last night.
and he is really what i needed, ho comforted me and everything.
but then he told me that matt knows about coop.
and they got into a big argument and fight.
aparently matts got a broken nose and coops got a black eye, other than that they are just all bruised and banged up.
aparently coop was saying that none of this would have happened if matt treated me right and blah blah blah.
what have i done???
i have caused bestfriends to do this to each other.

how am i going to live with myself??
i got a text from matt saying he is coming to visit me today.
so i am so nervous!!

i just don't know what i am going to do.
what if he doesn't forgive me????

[Truth]

my group of friends, we arn't the best group.
we are all fucked in some way.
criminal record, drug fucked..
we are all like that.
and that's why we are friends.

i got a visit from ryan my best best friend last night.
and he is really what i needed, ho comforted me and everything.
but then he told me that matt knows about coop.
and they got into a big argument and fight.
aparently matts got a broken nose and coops got a black eye, other than that they are just all bruised and banged up.
aparently coop was saying that none of this would have happened if matt treated me right and blah blah blah.
what have i done???
i have caused bestfriends to do this to each other.

how am i going to live with myself??
i got a text from matt saying he is coming to visit me today.
so i am so nervous!!

i just don't know what i am going to do.
what if he doesn't forgive me???? You dump him. Really sienna, you need to forget about matt. You need to tell him to leave you alone, because he isnt helping. See all the drama he is causing? Dont you ever want to be better, at all?! If so, lose matt. (Forget about the part i removed if you want, but cmon sienna, listen to people! We all just want you to feel better.)

[Specter]

my group of friends, we arn't the best group.
we are all fucked in some way.
criminal record, drug fucked..
we are all like that.
and that's why we are friends.

i got a visit from ryan my best best friend last night.
and he is really what i needed, ho comforted me and everything.
but then he told me that matt knows about coop.
and they got into a big argument and fight.
aparently matts got a broken nose and coops got a black eye, other than that they are just all bruised and banged up.
aparently coop was saying that none of this would have happened if matt treated me right and blah blah blah.
what have i done???
i have caused bestfriends to do this to each other.

how am i going to live with myself??
i got a text from matt saying he is coming to visit me today.
so i am so nervous!!

i just don't know what i am going to do.
what if he doesn't forgive me????

!!!! Your kidding me right?!!!!??? Dumb the stupid bum, why do you need his forgiveness? Get your shit straight… He needs you, it’s not the other way around…

[Specter]

Alright I'm off to bed, sienna I pmed you just an F.Y.I

Night everyone.

[AllThatIsLeft]

Sienna, he started it! he doesn't need to forgive you, he should be begging for your forgiveness!!
he's not worth all this trouble.
he is hurting you, and if you want to get better, matt has to go from your life.
you have friends like Ryan that care about you truly, unlike matt who goes sleeping with your best friend.

DUMP HIM! you may be fucked in some ways, but we all are at some level.
Matt is doing nothing to help you get better though, he only causes you problems!

[sienna.]

i saw matt.
he was so hurt.
but he wasn't mad at me, he was mad at coop.
but i don't know why??

he was so upset by what he had done, he truely felt sorry for everything.
an i tried to be strong, i did, but i am not that strong.
i cried..
and he held me.

i have no energy.. none.
so i fell asleep... in his arms.

it was not the way i wanted things to go.. but they did.

as soon as i woke up, he left.
he said he would give me time to think.
and now i am thinking and i don't know what to do.

it's been a while since i have seen that side of matt, but he said he would change..

i don't know who to believe.

[Gahg]

think about this...if it took all of this just to get matt to show you a diffrent side of him and to remind you of why you liked him in the first place..do you think that once everything goes back to normall that matt will be is old self agian...or do you think that he is being serious....in my thoughts no one changes for a short period they may act diffrent but they will always be them selfs and no matter what you cant change that...i wish you could but it wont happen

[MysticalBurrito]

Gahg has a point all we want is for you to feel better and not be sick anymore You HAVE to get rid of matt he doesnt love you =[ please try to understand that

[sienna.]

last night matt had a sleep over at the hospital.
it was really nice.
we didn't have sex, we just talked.
it was soo good.
we talked about everything, i cried, we laughed.
i stayed up til about 11.00 (which is the longest i have ever had the strength to stay up for)
and he held me, and cuddled me.
it was so nice.

we talked for a long time..
he told me that he is going to change, and go back to the way he was.
and i believe him.
he is deeply sorrry for having sex with sage, and i believe him.
the look on his face and the way he said it, you could tell he was ashamed.

i don't know, i think this could be that start of something eally good.
but this is his last chance!!
and i swear on that!!

i do feel horible for causing this big fight between matt and his best friend coop.
i don't know why matt isn't mad at my, but why he is mad at coop.
i really do hope they patch things up real soon.
those two are like brothers.

and for sage on the other hand.
i don't know about her.
sometimes i get the feeling that she enjooys watching me get soo hurt.
espically when she is the one causing the pain.
i need to think hard about my friendship with her...

[Viral Death]

If love Matt and he loves you, you guys are going to fix this bump in your relationship. Hope things go well with you 2.