Why bother resisting?

[cool person]

Sometimes, like right now, I wonder what is really the point of trying not to cut? I know I'll probably give in sooner or later and really what difference does another small scare or two on my already scared wrist really make?
Which is really the worst choice? Sitting around feeling miserable, for no reason that I really know of, or cutting? It's not like I really ever cut that deep. and when I'm in a state (for lack of a better word), I feel miserable, and can't focus on school work etc.

So, fellow VTers, What is the point of trying not to cut? If there is any....

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

Here are just some of my thoughts okay?: well first of all, do you really want to cut yourself for the rest of your life? Is it really solving anything? If your still feeling miserable it obviously is not really getting rid of the emotional pain that your feeling. So why then do we turn to it if it only begins the cycle all over again? I know personally that God does not want me to be hurting myself. He sent His son so I didn't have to die that slow, painful death. Not only do you hurt yourself when you cut, you hurt those around you too. There are people that care about you! Trust me I have been on both sides. It really hurt me when my boyfriend started cutting...Well those are just a few reasons...just a few questions to think about okay?

[Miss Punk]

I know exactly what you mean! Today I gave in and did it because I couldn't stand not to and it felt so good. Two hours disappeared just like that.
But there are moments when I look at the state of my arm and it's a scabby mess and I wish I could erase all those scars, or at least stop cutting long enough to let them heal, and I think about how nice it would be to be able to wear t-shirts again. That's one reason.
Another reason is, and I think we all know this in a way, we can't keep doing it for the rest of our lives, it has to stop somewhere or it will just get worse. I don't know about you, but my cuts get deeper every time I have a bad day, and it's nothing serious but I'm scared that it will end up really bad because I don't want to have to go to A&E.
Another reason, is how guilty it makes me feel to lie to people about it, a few people have seen cuts and asked me how they got there, and every time I have to come up with some lame story, but they seem to buy it and that just makes me feel worse.
There we go, a few reasons, hope that helps... ^^
You have no idea how many times I've asked myself this question.

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

I found myself asking the same question this morning actually.

[cool person]

Yeah, I know it isn't really helping, just suppressing my feelings. But I don't know what else to do. Besides therapy or something like that, I don't know what will stop the pattern. I'm trying to resist sarting worse coping mechs, like Alchohol and drugs...I can't get help because I know that that means admiting I got problems, that I'm weak etc...and that would disappoint my perants. I don't want to make them have to deal with yet another illness in the family ( I won't go into them now, but there have been alot). I don't want to be burrden on my perants. So its easier just to silantly suffer.

I know I will have to stop at some point, or just go over the deep end and end up killing myself or in a Spych ward...But I think I can keep going for a while. Mabye things will get better when I leave for college in a few years. So far, I have managed to keep all my cuts on the part of my wrist that is covered by my watch...which I wear obsessively.

I'm sorry if this is rambling, or a stupid or a waste of your time or anything...I can't be bothered to proof this right now...

[cool person]

STAYING_STRONG4HIM, You haven't cut yet. There is still hope for you lol. Trust me, fight now. Once you have started it becomes way harder to resist.

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

Why do you think I haven't made that first cut yet? It's because I know once I start I know I will not be able to stop. I feel the same way you do...I don't want to be a burden to my parents right now...they have enough of their own troubles going on right now. My parents have been fighting and things are tense between them. I don't want to add to that. So I do understand how that is.

However, you need to turn to other things besides drugs and alcohol...I think the only reason why I do not turn to drugs or alcohol is because I have seen so many people killed by it. You need to find a different outlet that helps you deal with things. Whether it be talking to someone, playing video games, listening to music, drawing, painting, reading, working out at the gym, running, etc. you just need to find some positive outlets...something else you can turn to instead of drugs or alcohol or cutting.

Please whatever you do, do NOT kill yourself. God has a purpose for your life. If He didn't have a purpose for you He would not have put you on this Earth...just think about it. Your purpose may have been to keep me from doing something I would regret doing, like cutting

[cool person]

Why do you think I haven't made that first cut yet? It's because I know once I start I know I will not be able to stop. I feel the same way you do...I don't want to be a burden to my parents right now...they have enough of their own troubles going on right now. My parents have been fighting and things are tense between them. I don't want to add to that. So I do understand how that is.

However, you need to turn to other things besides drugs and alcohol...I think the only reason why I do not turn to drugs or alcohol is because I have seen so many people killed by it. You need to find a different outlet that helps you deal with things. Whether it be talking to someone, playing video games, listening to music, drawing, painting, reading, working out at the gym, running, etc. you just need to find some positive outlets...something else you can turn to instead of drugs or alcohol or cutting.

Please whatever you do, do NOT kill yourself. God has a purpose for your life. If He didn't have a purpose for you He would not have put you on this Earth...just think about it. Your purpose may have been to keep me from doing something I would regret doing, like cutting


Yes..I try all of those distractions, and they work most of the time. Just sometimes, especially when myself and/or my perants have a big fight, or I'm really stressed over school...they stop working. I have managed to keep myself from doing drugs, just because I know that that WILL destroy my life...and I'm really limiting how often I drink, and trying to keep it to social drinking instead of using it to drown my feelings...


Don't worry I won't kill myself...who would be there to reply to all your posts ? :yes:


Woo hoo, 6 days without any major break downs or cutting!