Oops, shouldn't have done that.

[Shattered Soul]

Hi,
Today, I managed to pluck up the courage to tell my mum that I want to see a psychologist to help me sort out my head as my councellor isn't working. She agreed with me and said she'd come with me to the doctors to help me ask for help - I had told her that my friend had told me he was going to force me to get help through our college, if i didn't do it myself and i also said if she didn't agree with me I was going to go behind her back and do it anyway.
I told my mum about my cutting again, she was slightly angry (but i told her quietly in the middle of a busy restaurant coz i knew she couldn't yell at me) and is going to tell my dad which i'm not happy about coz he's gonna go mental - he's neither the most mature, understanding or calm person.
Argh, this is gonna be aweful, my mum thinks im proud that i hurt myself, when i'm really not, quite ashamed actually.
Currently trying extremely hard not to let my 13 days of no SH slip, it's difficult today.

xxCathyxx

[Destiny&Desire]

Heyyy, it's good to hear that your mum's willing to help you, but I guess it doesn't help that she has a misunderstanding of what self harm is about and why you do it. I have that problem with my mum, too ¬¬'.

Have you tried explaining to your mum that you're not proud of your self harm? It may be difficult to explain, but if you don't say anything to her then she'll carry on assuming that she's right. As for your dad, he may be angry (like your mum was), but hopefully he will be more interested in trying to help you than getting frustrated over what he can't control.

Things may seem like they're just getting worse but hopefully, with the help of a psychologist, things will get better. With things like self harm it just takes time to recover, but no-one knows how long it will take.

Keep going, 13 days is really good =]
x x x

[cool person]

I think instead of just telling her about SH, mabye you could direct her towards some website on the topic. I know the National phycolgy association has a blerb on their website regarding SH.
Us males can be rather immiture at time, but we mean well. I obviously don't know your dad. But I would suggest rather the same thing as I did for your mom. Give him something to read about SH. He might be mad at first, but once he calms down and realizes what really is going on..

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

I am proud of you! You had the courage to tell your mom...I can't even do that! I really think you can get through this! Keep on staying strong! Today has been a tough day for me too...I know it's hard but it's worth it to not do it.

[cool person]

Yes i left that out.
It takes great courage to tell your mother. You should feel very proud of yourself. Telling a perant is probably the biggest thing one can do to help themselves stop cutting.

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

I don't think I'll ever be able to tell one of my parents...so you have way more courage than me

[Shattered Soul]

Thank you, guys, I really appreciate it.
I'm sure you'll be able to tell your parents, one day. You don't necessarily have to tell them face to face, you could try texting one of them, or telling one of them quietly in a public place where they cant yell at you. I think it's really unfair when people get angry about this instead of helping, it's hardly the best thing to do.
xxCathyxx

[cool person]

Mabye, I'm hoping I can stop on my own so they will have no reason to find out, as long as I never take off my watch. ever.

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

Well I don't think i could tell them at all...in any shape or form...