skhuaban
April 29th, 2009, 08:57 PM
So for the past few years life really seems to be tryin to get me down. when things go good its short and everything bad seems to happen to me. (venting a bit) i have an a-hole of a step dad who i regularly get in fights with, and just the sight of him makes me angry. i want to get out of the house more than anything... i cant live with my dad because he live in another country. i have no true friends, no one i love and honestley think love me back; only fake people and liers. it seems as though one of the only things i really liked, my sport, im loosing interest because my coach is under stress and taking it out on the team. School is a b****, and constantly having to prove myself to stay at the top is driving me insane; not to mention the workload. i think i might be bi but am way to scared to admit it to anyone who might actually give a s*** . and I never seem to be good enough in the eyes of anyone especially myself, i am just fed up with life. sometimes it just seems as though theres no reason to live on. (im not suicidal, i could never drive myself to do it, but sometimes i wounder) im just really going crazy right now and writing it down sometimes helps me chillax... soo yea