so i finally got him...

[cjdude]

:D
so, if any of you remember me, im that guy who struggled with his sexuality on here last summer.
and i had this real close friend who randomly stopped liking me.
and i had a breakdown i guess.
and i got real depressed.
well, he was thee first boy i had ever looked at sexually.
like, i was really into this kidd.
he came out to me.
so i questioned myself.
and i went with bi-curious for awhile.
i think i still need to change my sig.
lol
anyway.
i got into high school and went to a different one than him.
and i felt disconnected.
all my friends went to the same school as him.
and i was outcasted.
so, i switched at semester change.
and now i go there with everybody.
and we tlk now.
and he's not interested in me as a person, necessarily...
but we've done stuff.
like a month ago we kissed for a second. :yeah:
and then this morning, we made out.
like hxc. :P
hehe.
so yeahh. i dunno.
i have a feeling its gonna end up badly, but i want all i can get from him before he dumps me again.
he's really good at kissing and such.
and i just feel complete in those moments..

***
sorry for the length. i really apologize. :eek:

[cjdude]

wow.
no scolding/congrats/similar stories?
lol
:/

[laxgoalie182]

good job =] i wish i was as lucky as you to have a boyfriend nobody in 7th grade is bi or gay tho ="(

[cjdude]

awww.
im sorry dude =/

[awkward silence]

congratulations. im happy for you and hope everything works out for you. good luck ^_^

[Schon]

how do you tell if you gay, bi, straight? cause i have a girlfriend and all, but sometimes i find myself thinking about intimate relationships with other guys, or even looking at gay porn. I'm just confused right now.

[Cloud Spinner]

do your best.. : ) break a leg!

[byee]

Hey Chris! It has been a while!

I'm not sure what your question here is, but never being at a loss for words, let me just share an observation: Be careful about fooling around with this friend, b/c it seems that you're feelings get pretty stirred up and intense when you enter into these relationships, it's not just a physical thing for you. It's easy to feel the excitement now about 'doing stuff', but try to remember that if/when it ends, you seem to feel pretty bad ('Depressed' is the word you used!) for some time. You might sither exercise some self control (even if that means not doing things you seem to want to), or at the very least, do something inside with all those other feelings that get stirred up so you don't get so emotionally dependent on him.

[guacamole24]

good job =] i wish i was as lucky as you to have a boyfriend nobody in 7th grade is bi or gay tho ="(

Exactly my thoughts. Except, you have to keep in mind, nobody SAYS they are bi or gay in 7th grade. I'm in 7th grade, and I could swear some people who say they are straight are actually gay. I'm always hopeful :).

[confusedboy]

All I can say is if he does dump you again (again?!?) keep in mind there are millions of other guys out there and you should'nt get too upset over it.

Hope everything works out though! :)

[Sceneboy612]

Oh my god, good for you, i hope that this works out for you, i know how hard it is to find another guy in HS, and have it work out for you.

But dont let him break you again, you seem nice, and you dont deserve to be broken again =]

PM me if you need someone to talk to =]

[jeforey3]

i agree with IAMSAM
becareful with what you are doing. especially with you feelings being invlved.

[Huskyboy132]

Wow! Awesome! Gd Job. I wish I had that much luck.

[miusha]

im so glad for just stay on the rife for as long as u can and have fun with him the best memories are the ones u know wont last

[Moneyjr]

kid your 15 just as i .. why do you care.. im sorry but i've had sex with 2 guys and 3 girls and yet never have i once been scared that they would break up with me.. i only enjoyed of what would last.. some times it was long.. 6 months or more.. and some short fact is..
never cry over petty little break ups.. your 15 trust me you'll find someone soon when your older and you feel more compatible like maybe 20 or 22 or 18 19 but not 15 .. soo you real lize this the sooner you see alot of doors opening :P

[Gumleaf]

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