i can't do it any more.

[sienna.]

today i got weighed again.
but this time i got to see how much i weigh..
and i now weigh 34.2 kilos.
i thought it would be easier knowing how much i weigh insted of doing a blind weigh in.
but it's not, it's harder.

soo i have made myself throw up a few times today...
i don't feel good doing it and lying to everyone.
but i have to.

and to top everything off.
since mine and matt's last fight where the doctor made him leave my room because i was very distressed and all that.
the doctors have called the police and they wont let matt come and see me!!
i need to see him.

if i can't see matt.
i will leave this hospital!!

they can't not let him see me can they???

:(

[PrincessSarey]

Yes, they can. They are authorities.

You don't have to do it. I know it feels like you do, but you don't. You could get help. You should take advantage of this help, others would love to be in your position where they are recieving help. So, take advantage of it.

I do know that you need to make that choice. That step. No one can force you.

I hope you choose before it's too late.

Goodluck.