Comfortably Numb

[Zephyr]

tkJNyQfAprY

I always find myself feeling this way when I'm down,
Just like the man in the video,
Zoned out and lost one moment,
Then destructively psychotic the next.
Why do I love and hate feeling this way?
I just don't understand,
And it literally makes me sick.
One minute everything seems like an illusion,
Then the next I want to destroy something to feel real,
Usually destroying myself to feel real.
Ever since I was 12 years old,
I've always listened to this track repeatedly,
Every time my mood takes a violent turn.
Sometimes I'll walk for hours on end listening to it,
Sometimes I cry myself to sleep listening to it,
Sometimes I would thrash my body around to it.
But the one thing that I can never do when I listen to it,
Is hurt myself, and I have no idea why.

[theOperaGhost]

Wow, Steph...that is a great song.

I understand the feeling of zoning out completely because that's what I do when I'm really low, but I've never experienced the destructive part yet.

[cool person]

good song....I don't like the opening scene with the EMTs but that is just be being obbsessed with accuracy

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

tkJNyQfAprY

I always find myself feeling this way when I'm down,
Just like the man in the video,
Zoned out and lost one moment,
Then destructively psychotic the next.
Why do I love and hate feeling this way?
I just don't understand,
And it literally makes me sick.
One minute everything seems like an illusion,
Then the next I want to destroy something to feel real,
Usually destroying myself to feel real.
Ever since I was 12 years old,
I've always listened to this track repeatedly,
Every time my mood takes a violent turn.
Sometimes I'll walk for hours on end listening to it,
Sometimes I cry myself to sleep listening to it,
Sometimes I would thrash my body around to it.
But the one thing that I can never do when I listen to it,
Is hurt myself, and I have no idea why.

I definately know what you mean...I completely zone out sometimes....and the pain that I feel...makes me sick....