Viral Death
April 28th, 2009, 07:15 PM
Everything is just going backwards.
First of all I have been doing things I can't remember doing. I get in trouble then I can't remember after 2-10 mins. People just get ruder and ruder. Today people were talking crap like how my friend is a good person and I am the bad person. To tell you the truth he is the bad person he gets me in trouble and he always talks nasty. They kept saying that I am stupid and retarded because I have a hard time with math. Also today I told one people in my class in front of the teacher that "I was going to kick her ass if she did not shut the fuck up". I got in trouble and had to stay after school till 5.
3 days ago my grandparents go into a fight. I was sick with a sore throat so I ate soup and my grandmother made corned beef and cabbage. My grandfather asked me what I had for dinner and I said soup. He freaked he said I am a waster and I can buy and eat my own food. So I told him fine then I went to empty the dish washer and he thought I broke a plate and go pissed. We got into an argument and I told him if he hates me so much send me to Child Services and get rid of me. My grand mother said he is the reason I am so down all the time and I have nothing to look up to. He got pissed at here and we left for an hour and we drove through Sheep Creek Canyon because it cheers up my grandmother.
A week ago my grandparents got told by the kids at my school that I was cutting. I got home where my knives, pain pills, and guns were gone. They talked to me about how if I wanted to commit suicide they would help me and give me the gun. They also told me they were going to send me to a psyco ward if I continued to cut. I got lectured by all the kids at school not to cut and I was stupid if I cut.
Also when I got in the car my grandfather said he had thought about sending me to Child Services. I told go ahead and send me I don't care. I told him if he sends me he will have a hole in his head. When I got home my grandmother asked me why I was grumpy I told her the usual fucking people and my grandfather she just told me to grow up. I told her I was going to do something that was going to make her sad. She said I am acting like my dad.
Today I thought about committing suicide and I am still. I want to cut to make me forget this.
First of all I have been doing things I can't remember doing. I get in trouble then I can't remember after 2-10 mins. People just get ruder and ruder. Today people were talking crap like how my friend is a good person and I am the bad person. To tell you the truth he is the bad person he gets me in trouble and he always talks nasty. They kept saying that I am stupid and retarded because I have a hard time with math. Also today I told one people in my class in front of the teacher that "I was going to kick her ass if she did not shut the fuck up". I got in trouble and had to stay after school till 5.
3 days ago my grandparents go into a fight. I was sick with a sore throat so I ate soup and my grandmother made corned beef and cabbage. My grandfather asked me what I had for dinner and I said soup. He freaked he said I am a waster and I can buy and eat my own food. So I told him fine then I went to empty the dish washer and he thought I broke a plate and go pissed. We got into an argument and I told him if he hates me so much send me to Child Services and get rid of me. My grand mother said he is the reason I am so down all the time and I have nothing to look up to. He got pissed at here and we left for an hour and we drove through Sheep Creek Canyon because it cheers up my grandmother.
A week ago my grandparents got told by the kids at my school that I was cutting. I got home where my knives, pain pills, and guns were gone. They talked to me about how if I wanted to commit suicide they would help me and give me the gun. They also told me they were going to send me to a psyco ward if I continued to cut. I got lectured by all the kids at school not to cut and I was stupid if I cut.
Also when I got in the car my grandfather said he had thought about sending me to Child Services. I told go ahead and send me I don't care. I told him if he sends me he will have a hole in his head. When I got home my grandmother asked me why I was grumpy I told her the usual fucking people and my grandfather she just told me to grow up. I told her I was going to do something that was going to make her sad. She said I am acting like my dad.
Today I thought about committing suicide and I am still. I want to cut to make me forget this.