Not sure what to do..

[InControl]

Yeah, im new on this so i dont really know what im doing in that sense.

Might sound a bit wierd i dont know, but i feel depressed. Really depressed.
Havent been to a doctor about it, im scared theyell do what my mum did and just brush it off and tell me to "Stop being emo". (Im not even "emo".)
I have old scars and fresh cuts resulting from this feeling of depression, but i have no idea if i should just go to the doctor, i have no idea what id say because i have trouble telling people anything because theyed probably spread it round and in no time everyone would know or theyell think im attention seeking.
What does anyone think? What would be a wise thing to do?

(Sorry if this is done wrong or something, like i said, im new to this)

[katytruthteller]

hey i know its hard to tell people how u feel and everything so if u dnt wanna tell ne one yet my advice wud be to put it all in a journal rite all ur feelins down and if that dont help then talk to a doctor and take the journal so they know ur feelins they wudnt pass it on to everyone as it is meant to be stricly confisdential all they wud do if nefin is refer u to a counsellor if it is really bad but try the journal and hopefully things will get better

[InControl]

Thank you for the reply and advice, i already have been doing that and its not helping anything really, but i have no idea what i would say to the doctor, or how to tell my mum about it or anything

[katytruthteller]

i know its hard but dont rush yourself into doing it talk to them when your ready and when u r the words will come wether ur sat in silence for 5 seconds or 5 hours u will talk to them only wen ur good and ready :)

[InControl]

(: thank you, yeah ill wait until i feel able to talk to someone

[katytruthteller]

its always good to do it when you feel ready ive recently been asked a load of questions about my self harm and i just turn around and say dont ask and my true friends and family say ok and leave it as they know ill talk when im good and ready :) hope it all goes good for you soon

[InControl]

my college phoned up today about me not going in since last week and my mum asked me what was wrong and i decided that im going to just tell her today (:

[katytruthteller]

hope all goes well for u good luck :)

[InControl]

looks like ill be off to the doctors tomorrow, my mum thinks its clinical depression
and thank you very much :]

[katytruthteller]

oh thats good how did she take it was she ok about it all? and its ok im here to help message me anytime u wanna tlk :)

[InControl]

Yeah she was fine, shes had it as well so she knows what its like,
got anti-depressants for depression and anxiety now, got to go back to the doctors at some point to see how its all going and such
Thank you for the help, much appreciated

[katytruthteller]

no problem its what im here for :) as long as it is getting better now :) i'm still thinkin of tellin my mum sum stuff but i put her thru it once i dnt wanna do it again :(