Shattered Soul
April 24th, 2009, 05:25 PM
ok. This is difficult, i've only just recently told one person.
When I was 10 yrs old, my 16 yr old uncle tried to rape me on 4 different occassions. The first 2 times, my little brother walked in and my uncle panicked, my bro (coz he's disabled) thought it was a game and never mentioned what he saw to anyone. The second 2 times, I managed to escape and lock myself in the bathroom until i was told it was time to go home. Each time my mum had gone to the shop and left me and my brother with my uncle.
Afterwards, I still went round the house, very reluctantly, and refused to leave my mum's side. When I was old enough to use homework as an excuse not to go, I did.
Even though this happened 8 yrs ago, it is still affecting me. When walking down the street on my own, i worry that the people in cars that slow down near me will kidnap and rape me, and I can't go out at night with my friends coz I worry that i'll have my drink spiked and the same thing would happen. It even stretches to planning ecape routes from my friends houses, to the bus stops and memorising the bus timetables just in case it happens there. I'm 18 now, going to uni in a few months and living in student accomodation which is mixed gender 5-6 bedroom flats, and i worry it'll happen there and I wont be able to get home.
My friend was worried bout me, so i summonded up all my courage and told him what happened, the first person i'd ever told. He told me I should tell my councellor and go to the police, coz (and i quote from a police investigator 'Every child matters and those who decide to abuse children will be pursued by police, no matter how long ago those crimes were committed.'). But i'm worried if I did that my parents wouldn't believe me and my bro would have to stand up in court. I'm studying A-Level Law and it appears that the law should be on my side, even though he never managed to rape me, the stuff that led up to it certainly would have been. In fact, any sexual act with a child under 13, consentual or unconsentual, is always illegal.
I'm so confused, dunno what to do. Plz help, it took a lot for me to post this.
xxCathyxx
When I was 10 yrs old, my 16 yr old uncle tried to rape me on 4 different occassions. The first 2 times, my little brother walked in and my uncle panicked, my bro (coz he's disabled) thought it was a game and never mentioned what he saw to anyone. The second 2 times, I managed to escape and lock myself in the bathroom until i was told it was time to go home. Each time my mum had gone to the shop and left me and my brother with my uncle.
Afterwards, I still went round the house, very reluctantly, and refused to leave my mum's side. When I was old enough to use homework as an excuse not to go, I did.
Even though this happened 8 yrs ago, it is still affecting me. When walking down the street on my own, i worry that the people in cars that slow down near me will kidnap and rape me, and I can't go out at night with my friends coz I worry that i'll have my drink spiked and the same thing would happen. It even stretches to planning ecape routes from my friends houses, to the bus stops and memorising the bus timetables just in case it happens there. I'm 18 now, going to uni in a few months and living in student accomodation which is mixed gender 5-6 bedroom flats, and i worry it'll happen there and I wont be able to get home.
My friend was worried bout me, so i summonded up all my courage and told him what happened, the first person i'd ever told. He told me I should tell my councellor and go to the police, coz (and i quote from a police investigator 'Every child matters and those who decide to abuse children will be pursued by police, no matter how long ago those crimes were committed.'). But i'm worried if I did that my parents wouldn't believe me and my bro would have to stand up in court. I'm studying A-Level Law and it appears that the law should be on my side, even though he never managed to rape me, the stuff that led up to it certainly would have been. In fact, any sexual act with a child under 13, consentual or unconsentual, is always illegal.
I'm so confused, dunno what to do. Plz help, it took a lot for me to post this.
xxCathyxx