I'm just so fed up right now.

[Destiny&Desire]

I've felt like absolute sh** for months now, and I've not done anything about it.

I've sat here, trying to ignore it, trying to make it go away. And now comes the time when I'm so pissed off with my life that I've not done any of my set homework for three weeks, and it's in for tomorrow/this week. I just can't be bothered doing anything anymore; I don't want to live.

It's gotten to the point where I don't even know what I'm depressed about anymore - I just hate life. I want to tell someone what's wrong, I want someone to notice that something's not right but that's only gonna happen if I tell someone, which I'm not particularly capable of. I just don't know who I'd go to, or where I'd start, or anything. I feel like my self harm has just gone from doing it to help myself, to doing it for attention. It doesn't give me anything anymore.

I don't know what to do, I'm sitting here wasting my life away because nothing matters to me. I know I'd rather be off somewhere else, but I know that's never gonna happen, either. I'm stuck, and there's absolutely nothing left to do.

[wavey]

Heya Destiny&Desire.

I know how its like to be depressed and anxious about things.. maybe this link might be a nice chill out.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G_A5VEuQxbo
I found it helpful the other day when i was stressed.

try to do things that occupy yourself. some listen to insperational music or rock / pop whatever is your taste.
As for the homework id come straight and say i cant be arsed, just claim your having a bad time. also, if the home situation is well, talk to your parents theyll understand but they may be a bit over worried. Talk to a school concelour if you can, or a member of staff you feel comfortable talking too, maybe a afterschools group such as a youthclub will be open ears for you. they can help.

Dont self harm, its not right.

Just think positive.

[Hyper]

So You've hit a wall. But all walls can be climbed.

As cynical and annoying as it might sound, but You need to think over things try to figure out why or where it began but most of all make a decision; do You want to get better and be happy again or are You going to give up on everything You have or had.

Also how did the homework go?... I've had the pleasure of going to school with 2 months homework due and having nothing to present..

[Destiny&Desire]

I'll try and kick myself to get it done soon (the homework). I know it's not right to just leave it like this and then expect there to be no last-minute panic =[

My mum found out that I was SH-ing again, and rang our local advisory service, so now they're going to have a meeting with me in a few hours. I'm nervous; I keep going on about how I want help, and what I want to do, but when I get help and stuff I totally panic! I don't want my mum to be there when I'm talking, but I think she will be.

I don't know =s
x x x

[Hyper]

I'll try and kick myself to get it done soon (the homework). I know it's not right to just leave it like this and then expect there to be no last-minute panic =[

My mum found out that I was SH-ing again, and rang our local advisory service, so now they're going to have a meeting with me in a few hours. I'm nervous; I keep going on about how I want help, and what I want to do, but when I get help and stuff I totally panic! I don't want my mum to be there when I'm talking, but I think she will be.

I don't know =s
x x x

If you arent comfortable with her being there and if you cant fully open up if she is

Tell the advisory service people... They should respect your wishes as their goal is to help you

And same goes for your mother

[Destiny&Desire]

I think the advisory service people might be able to help me... =]

[kangaskan240]

when i feel bad like this, i go fight. i LOVE fighting, but you probably don't so just do what you like.