Suicide

[chelsay13]

Latly the smallest things are driving me crazy.
I keep getting caught in situations where I go insane, and I havn't cut in 2 months so i can't relieve myself.
I'm always dissappointing everyone.
I can't get my grades up, so my parents are yelling at me.
I have such horrible anxiety and panic attacks that I can't go a day without worrying.
Everyday theres some kind of drama that i get myself into and then i just barely get out of it.
Now, i'm sick of it all.
Plus, I really hate myself and can't forgive myself for the stupid things i've done.
I'm sick of drama, screwing up, pressure, everything.
The horrible thing is, I have noone I can truly trust.
I feel lost, and I really want out...

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

Please don't....I have thought about it myself but it's not worth it...It sounds like maybe if you just had someone to talk to...someone to just tell all your feelings..or something...then I think you might be fine...I'm here if you ever want to talk. :) Please just don't do it...I care...I am sick of life too....but just hang in there...things have to get better...things can't be this way forever...

[wavey]

mate, ive never cut so i dunno whats like but its probs not the answer. we all have our bad days as i am having this week. all you need to do is keep yourself away from problems, sit down, study, listen in school. ace your tests and suddenly your parents will applaud youre work, then the feeling of that will set you back on track.

[byee]

Chelsea, it's great that you're successfully resisting the urge to cut now for two months, keep up that good work!

I think you might need some help here, as you're seeing, you can resist the cutting (which is superfantastic!), but the stress is still there and still difficult to manage. You now have to learn those stress management skills.

I'm assuming your folks (and other adults like teachers/guidance counselors, etc.) know about your stress level and your prior cutting. If they don't, you might want to tell them, so instead of yelling at you or otherwise having unreasonable expectations, they can see some of these things as a reflection of that much larger problem, and get you the help you need to resolve it.

[cool person]

I would tend to agree with IAMSAM, Do your perants know about your anxiety and past cutting? Are you in therapy? I'm not a huge fan of meds, but anxiety is something that can be medically managed. I really suggest talknog to someone about your stress/etc.

Hang in there, and gratz on not cutting in 2 months, wish I could say that...

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

First of all, I know how hard it is to concentrate and get good grades in school. I know what it's like for people to have expectations for you that may just be too hard for you to actually reach. I know it's hard, but maybe you should tell your parents how your feeling. Tell them that you are having a hard time with things. Try to find other ways to deal with your stress too...get involved in something. Try a sport or an art class or something. I know that stress is not an easy thing to deal with...because I can not deal with stress myself.

[chelsay13]

I understand, but my parents don't. they think my cutting was for attention.

[Donkey]

Chelsea,

Your parents may not understand. Sometimes parents can be oblivious to the real meaning of these things as they are not educated on the subject enough to give you a reasonable answer. I know it sounds overwhelming to ask you to get help, but I seriously think it could help you a lot. It may also help your parents to understand just what you're going through.

Find a counsellor. Organise regular sessions. Tell them about how you feel. You then have someone in real life to talk to, and understands what's happening to you better than your parents do.

Also, congratulations on not cutting for so long! That is a real achievement and you should be proud of it. Carry on that way. Don't let yourself down by getting back. I can assure you, the longer you stop cutting the easier it will get to stay that way. When you get the urges, just take a step back from reality. Listen to music, lie down in bed or do something that relaxes you. Don't resort to cutting yourself to relive the pressure. A counsellor can help you with this too.

Hun, you're doing great. Don't worry about what the others think, this is about you. You're doing really really well with not cutting for so long, and with the right support and willingness I think you can get your life back on track very quickly.

All the best.