Benadryl and the like

[Cap'nCrunch]

OK, I started a topic in the Drug Abuse forum, but I don't think I phrased my topic correctly. I have a fucking problem with Diphenhydramine. I can't stop thinking about it. Its screwing with my vision, my face, my memory, and my motivation. I see shit out of the corner of my eyes, I rarely have very clear visuals, and hear non-existent sounds. I am usually pretty paranoid and can NOT stop thinking about Diphenhydramine for more than 20 seconds. After I dose on it, I feel so crappy (depressed, no appetite, irritable, feel like there's nothing I'll ever like). I tell myself that I'm swearing that stuff off, but a week later, I take it again. Its an awful cycle. I don't know what to do. Any help?

[Cap'nCrunch]

Fuck, I hope it doesn't come to that. Its been about 8 days since my last dosage. What I think is the withdrawal has eased up. I just hope I can keep off for more than a month. Originally I told myself I was only going to try it twice a year, but after the first time, I ditched that plan. I did it the week after, then the week after that and the week after that. Each time I increased the dosage and felt increasingly shitty the following day. There is NO way I'm going to a professional; either I die on this or I solve it myself.

[dying lullaby]

i'm moving this to the Drug Abuse forum