I said it.

[RowanVer.3.0]

Rowan says:
Are you still grounded or what?
ºOº™ €мїlŷ ™ºOº says:
no i dont think so
Rowan says:
Oh
Rowan says:
So.. You had a fist fight with your mom? Somehow I have trouble believing that
ºOº™ €мїlŷ ™ºOº says:
well not fist fight..like wrangleing around the living room
Rowan says:
lol
Rowan says:
Sorry, that's funny.
ºOº™ €мїlŷ ™ºOº says:
lmao
Rowan says:
Lol, I can beat you in an arm wrestle now =D I'm so proud, I can beat a 5ft 90some pound girl, finally.
Rowan says:
I'm so macho.
ºOº™ €мїlŷ ™ºOº says:
lmao
ºOº™ €мїlŷ ™ºOº says:
you bet
Rowan says:
You talking to Dylan?
ºOº™ €мїlŷ ™ºOº says:
yup
Rowan says:
Angry?
ºOº™ €мїlŷ ™ºOº says:
i dont know..
ºOº™ €мїlŷ ™ºOº says:
i just hate it!
Rowan says:
Hmm.. Thought you'd be used to it by now.
Rowan says:
:p
ºOº™ €мїlŷ ™ºOº says:
hmm..
ºOº™ €мїlŷ ™ºOº says:
soo0 who you liken now/
Rowan says:
I don't know.
Rowan says:
Sometimes I like you, but I don't know. Sometimes I like Amber. It's weird.
ºOº™ €мїlŷ ™ºOº says:
uh?
Rowan says:
*shrug*
ºOº™ €мїlŷ ™ºOº says:
im lost?
Rowan says:
Yeah, I figured.
Rowan says:
I didn't flirt with you or anything, made it like I wasn't interested at all. Because, Dylan's my friend, you know?
ºOº™ €мїlŷ ™ºOº says:
so you are?
Rowan says:
I am?
ºOº™ €мїlŷ ™ºOº says:
i dont know..
ºOº™ €мїlŷ ™ºOº says:
im lost!!! tell me plzz
Rowan says:
Well, whatever then. Here goes nothing. I've liked you for a while, probably since Chad B was going out with you last year. But, as you've probably guessed from how I still act, I'm a pretty shy kid. So, naturally, I didn't say anything. I convinced myself I was going to ask you out this september, but, old habbits died hard. As soon as I was around you again I was dead quiet. So I started trying
Rowan says:
to get to know you a bit better. That's when I realized we're very very different, and also when you were going out with Dylan. So I just told myself not to act on anything or something. But yeah, it's ok if you don't like me back. I don't care that much really. I'm not really that deep, I won't be offended or anything. It's life, I understand ;)

I finally said it. I'll tell you all how it turns out.

[RowanVer.3.0]

No dice, ah well. She still likes her old boyfriend, I understand. Guess I'll be single for a while longer. Who said setting yourself up for rejection wasn't fun? Well, they were right :)

I'll be ok, not the end of the world. I kind of hope they get back together and everything goes back to normal, or as normal as it was before anyway.

[Kiros]

Sorry Rowan, but at least ya know now...

:hug: Though you guys are still friends, right, so it's all good!

[RowanVer.3.0]

yeah.. School tomorrow is going to be akward though. I don't know if I wanna go. I'm thinking of jigging. Something I don't wanna do a lot. But I did it with a friend already this week.. So I don't want to.. But man.. I don't know. I have a really bad feeling in my upper stomach... Like where my ribcage starts...

Whatever.. I'll just say I'm sick then to lessen the guilt. I should be able to pull it off because I don't really feel to great, not sick either though.

Whatever.

[Kiros]

Nah, you should go. I'm betting the feelings are mutual for her, although she's still likes someone else. Feelings don't just disappear. Just try and treat tomorrow like any other day :)

[r0x0row3nd]

ya man srry not every1 is as good lokking as me 8) lol no ur get som1 soon maybe her maybe "amber" or som1 else lol :D

[RowanVer.3.0]

Heh. We didn't talk today. She talked to me once, all she did was ask me what I'm doing my speech on and I told her. I guess I was feeling too insecure. Yeah..

In other news I cut the tips of my two bottom fingers in shop. Fun. I was using the router(the machine that cuts the bottoms of wood off) and my piece of wood jerked from my hand and since I had a grip on it my fingers hit the blade. It was weird. When it happened I was like "woah... Is this happening?" and I looked at my finger then I looked at Coleen who was behind me and she gave me a grimace... It was bleeding real bad(like dripping with warm blood, it made me get sick from the feeling) until my shop teacher got some snow for me to put it in so it would slow down. Then he cleaned it up and put some band-aides on it. I was creeped out because he was like "oh.. damn.. It's cut pretty bad... "Right when he saw me.

That best friend I speak of from time to time told me that Emily said she likes me a little bit.... But I think she just feels bad because I put it out there like that and she doesn't like me back.

Life sucks, I'm glad I masturbate a lot. Those semen are getting a good deal, life is clearly overrated.