it's here again

[aka-me_myself_and_i]

ive been cutting for a few months now. ive got some scars, but i havent yet made any very deep cuts. every few days, it's like something takes over my mind, and all the hurt inside me starts to scream inside my head. i cut to try to release the screams, to replace the mental pain with a physical, to discipline myself when i do something wrong. i know i should stop, but there's nothing else that makes me feel better, at least nothing ive found yet. i know i should probably see someone, but i couldnt handle talking about this face to face with anyone- especially not my family. only one of my friends knows about the cutting, but several know about the depression that i suffer from, which is becoming more and more regular.

sorry to be such a moaning idiot, i just had to let it out.