JCake
April 13th, 2009, 03:57 PM
Err, no clue how to start so: I've been cutting for 3 years. I started in sixth grade by just stabbing myself (with things like pens) and noticing how amazing it felt. I started going home and making small cuts on my arm - easy to be passed off as cat scratches. I cut almost everyday especially when I drank for around 2 years. Over the summer my parents caught me cutting and made me wear short sleeve shirts for the rest of the summer and I pretty much had to stop cutting. They stopped making me wear short sleeve shirts and I still didn't cut. I got back at school and I don't know what caused it, but the first day of school I saw a paperclip on the ground, picked it up and used it to cut. Since then I've been cutting everyday even if I have no reason to.
I've tried to stop cutting multiple times, but I couldn't, the longest I've gone without cutting in the past year is a week which felt like an eternity. It seems like an addiction even though that might sound stupid. Does anyone else get this effect from self-injuring in any way? Also, what could cause it to feel like an addiction?
I've tried to stop cutting multiple times, but I couldn't, the longest I've gone without cutting in the past year is a week which felt like an eternity. It seems like an addiction even though that might sound stupid. Does anyone else get this effect from self-injuring in any way? Also, what could cause it to feel like an addiction?