i am embarresed.

[sienna.]

yesterday i got a feeding tube put into my stomach.
and i am horrified.
like it's disgusting. it's making me get fat!!!!!!!

but i am embarresed to let my boyfriend see me know.
because it's just wrong i think... this tube is making me fat!!!!!!

and like it's his 21st this week and stuff parties and everything so naturally we would have sex..

but i am finding myself repulsive.
and i don't want him to see or anything...

what if he gets put off???
what do i do??

[JoshDude]

part of anorexia is the feeling you have "of feeling fat". You're not fat. Instead you're too thin. The feeding tube is doing your job for you, eating. Obviously it's making you gain weight, like you should. And if your boyfriend can't accept this, fuck him. He should be helping you gain weight himself, and you should feel better by gaining weight, not worse.

[nick]

Well first off stick with the tube, its there for a reason and i hope that works out for you. If you dont want to be undressed & having sex while you got the tube you should be able explain that and any half decent guy would understand and not put any pressure on you. So what if it is his birthday, its just another day and your health and welbeing are more important.

[Triceratops]

First of all, part of anorexia nervosa is feeling fat. You are not even CLOSE to being fat. If they're feeding you with a tube then it's evident you're lacking in nutrition and it's restoring that. You're underweight and you need to gain weight, as it's going to benefit your health hugely.

Another thing, your boyfriend won't think you're disgusting, as you're still 100 miles away from being fat. He won't get put off, he should know this is what's best for you and he should be by your side 101% on this. So, go to the party and enjoy yourself. You deserve to take a break from this rough time you're going through. :)

[Donkey]

If your boyfriend is a good 'ne, he will only be happy to see you getting better. If he's a dick, as said above: fuck him.

Literally? Well. I don't think he will be put off. If he really is though, then just leave it until you're completely sorted out. If he is put off, it's not his fault so don't get angry with him. He doesn't choose what he's attracted to.

[sienna.]

but that's it.
i'm scared he is going to find me fat and repulsive,, like i do!!!
whta if he doesn't like what he sees any more???

[Cloud]

he should still love you even if you think you look fat yu dont it just a comparrison of you being unhealthily thin adn you now gettign towards the natural healthy mark.
if he doesnt then hes a shallow prick and doesnt deserve you. It should be fine your going to be healthy and thats what he'll want

[IAMWILL]

Okay 1) get over that fact that YOU ARE NOT FAT. Very very very far from it. You need to relax, stop worrying, and think. You're probably going out with your boyfriend for 1-3 reasons. 1) you TRUST each other a lot 2) he's attractive to you, and 3) it works out. So why not trust him now? There is no reason no to. If you trust this man enough to have sex with him, you can trust him with this.

[byee]

*Looks over at avatar*

Part of Anorexia is a distortion of body image. In simple English, it means you do not see or experience yourself clearly or accurately. What you see (or believe) to be true isn't. So, because you often don't see things as they are, it's quite probable that you're also misjudging your b/f's reaction, too.

Right now, your primary concern should be in getting well and addressing your current inability to see all sorts of things as they really are.