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Stega
April 13th, 2009, 12:41 AM
hi my name is James and there this wierd thing happing to me. i can sense hate and fear. and i when ever i did some thing wrong i flet worthless like all the happieness in the world just disapeared and i wished i was dead. like when people exclude me from groups i can snes that they hate me

last year me and 2 of my friends were walking around the school yard ( i was misrable at the time) they asked wat was wrong. i said nothing but there was.then i asked both of them what was there goal in life they said to be sucsesful. then tristan aks me wats urs i said. tristan said "why would u want to die when u have ur who life ahead of u." i Said i have screwed up my life. then darrion says no u havent. then i told them to leave me alone, but they stayed by my side. so we along some more. darrion asked why do u react when u get mad ? I said i dont know its like there is some thing in side of me. most people lose focus when they get mad. i get more precice and a lot stronger. example: i couldnt match one kids strength. but i got mad i was stronger then him and i could have killed him my other friend steped in when he did. it flet like i had the instinc to kill anyting or any one. my firend even said my eyes looked way diffrent.he said he had never seen those eyes before.

DrkZ90
April 14th, 2009, 08:33 PM
Hi James

What happens to you is quite normal... under extreme situations the human body reacts differently... just like what you said, giving extra strength, speed or something like that, it's just the way the body acts...

I would say that your main problem might be that you don't vent enough... I mean, by what you said, you have two wonderful friends by your side, try trusting them more and telling them your problems, fears, etc.... I know by first hand experience that just leaving all your problems, worries,etc. to yourself just causes a lot more harm, and it's like a bubble that sooner or later bursts, and it could end up badly... I ended up hitting someone I love a lot, my best friend, I hit him quite hard in the face, yet he did all he could to calm me down...

Try to vent more, let your friends help you with your problems, and you'll avoid such situations of extreme anger...

Stega
June 18th, 2009, 07:49 AM
ok thanx

BuryYourFlame
June 18th, 2009, 08:20 AM
It sounds as though your friends really do care mate, and any times that you think they hate you, are just over analysing...i encourage you to continue talking to your friends, and letting them know how you feel...

about the behaviour/strength change, it is caused by a hormone called adrenaline, when it is released, the body can do amazing things :D

Number02
June 18th, 2009, 09:27 AM
Your friends appear to care a lot about you...

Although I'm not too sure about the 'sensing fear and hatred' thing.. Perhaps just paranoid depression? I can see a lot of trademarks of depression in the account you've given:

You hide problems from your (probably) closest friends;
Extremes of thinking e.g. 'I've screwed up my WHOLE life';
and sweeping generalisations (probably from a past experience?) of other people 'when people exclude me I can sense that they hate me'

We're all here to help, and I don't meant to offend or scare you..

YourFriend
June 21st, 2009, 06:37 PM
You have great friends mate and by all the information you gave us, you dont need us at all, talk to them and clear out the thing