I Don't Want To Stop

[Rette Mich]

i know this is a thread area for people to get help but since my mother is forcing me to post on here so she doesn't have to spend her precious money on anything other then herself i might as well tell the truth
i am a cutter
my mother knows i am a cutter
i don't want to stop, i feel better when i do
i know that right now my mother is watching me type this i can here her muttering how i need help but i don't need it, this has made me far happier then anything in my life.
to me the blood is proof i'm still alive and with every single cut i'm closer to the end where i can finally be at peace

[RaeNose]

Dang. That really sucks.
If your mom reads this, tell here that this isn't going to help nearly as much as a professional that she's GOING to have to spend money on. I'm sorry, but everyone who posts on this thread are still getting over their own cutting addictions and are only teenagers.
The closest person to a doctor around here is IAMSAM.
He'll probably post on this sometime soon, if you ever hear from him. And knowing him, he'll tell you that you need to see a counselor or therapist along with having friends around you that support you and are seeing that you're getting help.
Yeah, money may be tight, but would a mother really value her riches over the life of her child?
Plus, it's understandable that you feel better after cutting. We all do, that's why we're addicted. It helps coping with every emotion and all the problems we have to deal with. It's not right, it's just understandable.
It's a bit unnerving that your mother won't take you to see anyone. Are you sure it's just because she's selfish? Or is it because you keep protesting that you don't need help? If you would accept that you need help, professional help, I would think that she'd be willing to get it for you.
If you need anything, just PM me. Trust me, I just told my mother that I needed help a little over a week ago because the last time she completely avoided the fact when I told her the time before. I have some idea what you might be going through.

[Truth]

Your mom, does not deserve a child. You deserve a better mother. But, trust me, if you make freinds you will not need cutting. I cut myself some times.. but it doesnt make me happy, compared to what friends can do. And yes, you might need help. Talk to the school councilor if your moms that dumb.

[ShinigamiMaiden]

Oh My God. Your Mum May Be Worse Than Mine And That Is A Big Step. I Havent Seen My Mum In A Year. I Don't Want To. But I Feel For You. Get Help.

[Beautiful Obsession]

Ok, this is awful, but you need help, your mum clearly doesnt respect the value of her own child and doesnt know how lucky she is to have you. But we cant make you stop, i mean we can give you advice and talk to you when you need us, but were only teenagers who cut ourselves. We all want to quit but we can only quit with people helpin us. You need to talk to your mum and put her straight. your worth more than whatever she spends her money on. and she needs to help you, she needs to put you first! Please try and stop cutting, go to your GP or doctor, they will transfer you to a councler via the NHS. It wont be in anyones interest if you ended up killing youself, especially yours, you'v got your whole life ahead of you and when you old enough to move out you can start a fresh withou your mum!!

xxxxx

[Beautiful Obsession]

sorry to double post.. but seriously, if you need to talk to anyone dont hesitate to pm me xx

[Destiny&Desire]

Hey

It's understandable that you don't want to stop, but maybe you could consider the long-term damage it's causing rather than the short-term "release"?

VirtualTeen is a great website for receiving support from other members and getting advice, but it shouldn't be used in place of a real counsellor. If your mum reads this (and the other reponses), then hopefully she understands that it might be beneficial for you to get help (not saying that the forums here aren't help, because they certainly are!) from professional advisors and counsellors who can talk through things with you step-by-step.

If you do actually have financial/money problems in your home, then I can see why your mum might have sent you here. But online forums cannot replace professional help (which is kinda what I've repeated it a bit here).

Talk to your mum, show her the responses. She needs to understand that it takes her support as well to get through this because she is your mum, after all.
x x x

[fifi]

are you absolutely sure that cutting is making you happy sometimes people (including me) do things that they think are helping but they actually arent it just gives immediate relief it doesnt solve your problems or truly make it better otherwise we wouldn't keep doing it it just gives the illusion of helping. sorry i dont mean to sound patronizing hahaha (laughs nervously) XxXx

[Rette Mich]

las tweek i found out my dad committed suicide just after he left, thats why i havn't seen him in years, it made me realise i don't want to end up like that
i'm scared

[Truth]

las tweek i found out my dad committed suicide just after he left, thats why i havn't seen him in years, it made me realise i don't want to end up like that
i'm scared Aww, im sorry to hear. My dad commited suicide to, although i was the one who found him.

[Beautiful Obsession]

wow that must make you feel even worse babee. sorry about your dad. exactly, you dont want to end up like him, so you need to stop cutting and get help bbe xx

[RaeNose]

She falls along the steps that lead her...
if jealousy was knife, we'd all be dead.
Oh, Unfaithful, when will you find what you're looking for?

Anyway, it's hard to find out about things that have been hidden from you for so long like that. It can make people really hard to trust, but you need someone to talk to now more than ever.

I know you know what's going on,
I know you know what's going on, girl.
This is me without you.
Breathe easy, the doctors are about to arrive.

I know it's really hard right now. It's going to be scary, it's going to be scary, and it's certainly not going to be fun; however, struggling to escape the hole of addictions we get ourselves trapped inside never is. Get help, and hold onto your friends for dear life. If you ever need someone to talk to, PM me or anyone else who has said those infamous words.