shadow_moses
April 10th, 2009, 04:37 PM
So almost a year since I last slipped, and just being alone for 10 hours with no outside contact, or ability to see friends for help I made a cut into the old scar and then later that night when I finally see people I'm completely ignored and make another one 4 hours later. Well I have been pretty good today until my best friend in my mom's area decides to stop talking to me, and just straight up tells me to never attempt contact with her again. I'm 100 miles from anyone I can call close to friend and she knows how much I gave up to be her friend due to her reputation. Everyones left me it seems and the cold steel is so tempting.
Marijuana used to be my coping tool, and drinking was my depression avoidance mechanism, but now i have no drugs, no alcohol, and the closest thing to me is my knife and phone. I don't think she knows that all I want to hear is an explanation or a sorry, but silence is driving me crazy.
Marijuana used to be my coping tool, and drinking was my depression avoidance mechanism, but now i have no drugs, no alcohol, and the closest thing to me is my knife and phone. I don't think she knows that all I want to hear is an explanation or a sorry, but silence is driving me crazy.