I'm on the line.

[nachtspiegel]

I'm on the verge of losing it.
I'm trying so hard to hold myself up, but my efforts are quickly becoming less than enough.
I dialed the crisis line this morning to take the steps to be readmitted, but before an operator came on the line, I hung up.
This up and down, back and forth, left and right, yes and no roller coaster is just too much for me to keep riding.

I've managed to go a little while without self-harming, but that isn't going to last much longer.
I'm going to cave soon.
When I do, it's going to be bad.

I just can't accept that I have a reason to feel this way.
That makes it that much harder to deal with.
You can't deal with a problem that you don't accept.

"Can't you cast me aside? Just this one time?
Because your demand for living on this planet,
Is stronger than my will to go on."

I don't remember where I got that from, but it speaks to me.

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Aw David, i know from your previous posts that you are having a rough time at the moment but im glad that you are TRYING to get help. The next time you can you should ring that helpline again and talk to someone who can help you.
Also its not your fault you are feeling like this and it is way more important to try and fix it before it gets out of hand than wondering why you feel this way. I hope this helped. Pm me if you need to talk.

[cheetin]

Ah but all men are shining stars who's path leads brightly to the future. Surrounded in darkness we must create the light ourselves to see the path we should take.

I don't need to say anymore

[nachtspiegel]

OnlyByTheNight... thank you.
Feel free to PM me or ask for contact info if you need.
:)

sulack, I like that quote. :)

I wish I could sign myself in somewhere, but there's no way I can do that.

[ShinigamiMaiden]

Awws T_T Please Don't Do Anything Too Bad. I Know What It Feels Like. Everytime I Ask For Help I End Up Crying Because I Just Can't Face Up To It.

[Beautiful Obsession]

ok, dont give up, if your cave your goin to regret it straight away. your doin good, please it wouldnt be in your interest to cave, you can do it, dont let yourself down. we all believe in you. Good luck bbe xx pm me if you need to xx