Thought I was done ..

[Toilet Water.]

I thought I was done cutting for good, unfortunately I thought wrong ..
I hate doing it, but I do anyway.
It feels good, but I don't want the scars.
My friends say I shouldn't do it, I agree with them - but it seems I can't stop.
What else can I do?
I don't want to continue this.
I'm extremely emotional and very sensitive, I cry over any little thing; I get hurt from any little thing.
It helps to cut, but it also ruins me.
Are there any other ways to get out the anger, frustration, sadness?
I can't live my life like this.
I can't have my children ask what the scars are from.
Thinking in the future, I'll regret every scar, as I regret them now.
It's like an addiction though.
Cutting.
The pain bring me power.
Regains me.
I feel --happy-- again.
But then I have to hide the cuts, I have to wait until they heal; when they heal, atleast I can put cover up on them.
But I don't want to keep up this cycle.
Cut, hide, heal, cover up; cut, hide, heal, cover up.
For every little thing that happens I take it out--on my wrist.

Please help? :[

[shadow_moses]

To stop is completly different from improving, to slip is completely different than to to relapse. I hate smoking, but every once and a while i may slip, but i see that as time progresses so do i. to stop and not change the life you're living rather it be the music you listen to, the shows you watch, the people you hang out with, or in my case my sleep habits, won't get you out of the mental place in mind.

I'm not a complete expert on cutting, but mental addictions as result of self medication applies to many fields.

[Triceratops]

To completely STOP takes a lot of time.

Making mistakes is all part of recovering. You can do it because you are aware of the negative outcomes through cutting, and want to quit. Therefore I believe you WILL eventually overcome this. Remind yourself of the negative outcomes the next time you're tempted to hurt yourself, and if you do cave, start again clean straight away and promise yourself to stay strong.
You know what they say, tomorrow is a whole new day. :daisy:

If you ever need to talk, I'm here. :)

[bunsy]

you cant just stop like that its too difficult even i know that and i know what you mean about the regrets, but dont give up. there ARE other ways.

i cant say to you dont do it - because it dosnt work. im jsut a stranger, you dont know who i am, but i know how you feel and i know how difficult is to stop doing something that youve known for a long time i want you to get better so think about all those ambitions you have - children, future - you dont need to throw that away because of this.

i know you dont want to cover it up, then rubber bands and snap them against your wrist, or any other body part (thats not your eye becuase ive had rubber bands flicked into my eye before - it is soo not cool) its not the best option on its own, but add some red coloured water - add even the tiniest bit of flour it gives a slightly thicker consistency and theres pain and blood. you dont need the real thing when youve got that

you cant just suddenly stop, but you can make it easier to do it less until you just dont NEED it anymore
you can stop this and so can i but its going to take time

bunsy x