i can't see things getting better

[Gumleaf]

i hate this! i hate myself! and most of all i just wish i wasn't here. i just can't see anything changing. i must be the most annoying, frustrating and selfish person ever. i have people who love me, yet i feel so alone, so worthless and so stupid. people like me should be normal, because i have nothing to be depressed about. i'm surrounded by people who care, but then that all gets clouded and i just feel like i'm just a waste of space and time to everyone. all i am is a burden to everyone and thats never going to change. people pretend to like me and i guess that makes me feel better for a while until i realise that i'm unlikable. the one thing i'm happy about is that i'm hiding this pretty well from everyone which is good because everyone would hate me more if i went on about this more. saying i'm shy is a good excuse to use for not having many friends, but i know the real reason is that i'm the type of person that nobody likes or wants anything to do with. i wouldn't want to be friends with me, but i'm stuck with me. i wish things would change and get better, but i know they won't. i'm stuck being like this forever, i know it!

[Truth]

Who says nobody likes you? I'm the exactly the same as you, but then later on i realize, why would my freinds keep trying to make me feel better if they really didnt care, why would they get upset about me, etc. It's because they do care, i hate me and everyone around me thinks im an awesome person, even though i'd never believe it. Just like i see nothing wrong with you, and no one else should dis like you, or theyre too vein. ;o

[Gumleaf]

^thanks. i know you are right but still find it hard to believe that people care sometimes because i see myself as such a horrible person. mehh, i'm so messed up!

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Steven you are such a lovely person, you are kind, helpful and good fun. You shouldnt be thinking that you are horrible and worthless because that is totally untrue. You should just keep telling yourself this. We all love you here on VT, because you are such a lovely and helpful person. Im sorry if this didnt help, but im here if you need to talk. Xx

[MysticalBurrito]

You are NOT a horrible person
you are a nice sensable person who sometimes need someone to pick you up and dust you off!
Depression doesnt go away as easy as most people think you just have to think positive even if it gets hard on some days!
In order to beat this you need to get up dust yourself off and go through the rest of the day even though it gets hard we know you can do it :hug:
If you kill yourself the world would be lacking great awesomly cool guy
And we would seriously miss you:yes:

[Cloud]

Stephen you are a kind and awesome person if theres people who dont like you then thats their loss. anyone with half a brain would see how nice you are. Your a great person so dont let yourself think otherwise. There are so many reasons for people to like you. I cannot find one thing i dont like about you apart from that dam time difference. Your awesome and EVERYONE on vt will agree with me.


Stay positive buddy were all backing you. and one more thing
I LOVE YOU STEPHEN, incase you were wondering

[griffince]

hang in there gumleaf not worthless u help me 2 not 2 kill myself. ur got to seek help lke pmin me ill help u coz u saved me

[Ryans A Laxer]

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I've been where you are right now. I was for 2 years and still sort of am...It's not fun and theres really nothing anyone can say to make it better. I would suggest talking to a shrink to figure out if you really are depressed. Then get on some anti-depressants if you are. I'm on some right now. They take about a month to really kick in but they help.

Stay strong and if you need someone to talk to I'm here for ya bro.

[Gumleaf]

hmmm, this is so stupid, i'm starting to feel crappy again. i hate it all, i hate my brain, i want it all to end, right now!!! i had been going so well, i had been feeling better and now all this crap again. i know i shouldn't feel like this but i do. why? i'm just not supposed to be happy, i don't deserve to be happy!

[Maverick]

Why don't you deserve to be happy?

Stephen, if you talk yourself down, then you are going to be down. You need to look at your life and realize how lucky you are for everything you have, and appreciate it and enjoy it. You don't want to look back and realize how much valuable time you wasted feeling that way... especially over nothing.

Not everybody has a perfect situation in life but either you can mope and cry about it, or suck it up and make the best of it. The sooner you have more confidence in yourself the more friends you will make.

[Gumleaf]

Why don't you deserve to be happy?

Stephen, if you talk yourself down, then you are going to be down. You need to look at your life and realize how lucky you are for everything you have, and appreciate it and enjoy it. You don't want to look back and realize how much valuable time you wasted feeling that way... especially over nothing.

Not everybody has a perfect situation in life but either you can mope and cry about it, or suck it up and make the best of it. The sooner you have more confidence in yourself the more friends you will make.

^all that i do know. i'm getting help and i'm figuring some things out with my therapist. but it doesn't stop my down times though. when i feel neglected, rejected and alone, which is actually quite selfish, i know, i get like this and don't think clearly and as you rightly point out, i guess i feel sorry for myself. i know i deserve to be happy, everyone deserves to be happy, but sometimes i'm so caught up in the negativity i don't see that.

[Unown]

Hang in their bro, life gets better.
The part below has the 2 saying i use to keep me going.

[Fiction]

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