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March 29th, 2009, 08:57 PM
I'm not depressed .. but ..
I have moved every year since I was 6 (from what I remmeber). I had to go through a new environment, new friends, new schools. I guess I'm just scared. Scared of change. I've bcome very shy. I don't know how to get rid of my shyness. I don't want to be shy, but I can't help it. Once I move, I have to get used to where I have become. And I'm often very shy, and people talk to me a lot. I get used to it and it wears off, until I move again. I can't stand moving. I want to stay still, stay here. I have to break up with my boyfriends, say goodbye to my friends just because my parents decide to move. I don't want to go through that anymore. But every year I feel I'm going to move, I have been correct. But this year my parents told me we're not moving antmore, but anything can happen. Right? Every year I'm either too shy to become closer to friends or they just don't think I'm 'normal'. So, I never really have friends. I've met some bullies on the way, though. My only best friends live in my home town, Iqaluit. I can't move up there. My sister wants me to, I want to. But if I move, I'd have to break up with my boy friend (I hate long distant relationships) and I'd have to convince my parents. But I never feel complete. Some part of me is missing. I miss my sister and the people I've grown up with. The only close people I have are my dad, mom, brother. Everyone else lives at other places in Canada. I can only see family/friends from Iqaluit every one/two years. I can't even see the rest of my friends from where I have lived before. I'm very emotional and very shy. I'm sensitive. It is extremely hard for me to go through all of this. I isn't much, but it does damage to me.
I have moved every year since I was 6 (from what I remmeber). I had to go through a new environment, new friends, new schools. I guess I'm just scared. Scared of change. I've bcome very shy. I don't know how to get rid of my shyness. I don't want to be shy, but I can't help it. Once I move, I have to get used to where I have become. And I'm often very shy, and people talk to me a lot. I get used to it and it wears off, until I move again. I can't stand moving. I want to stay still, stay here. I have to break up with my boyfriends, say goodbye to my friends just because my parents decide to move. I don't want to go through that anymore. But every year I feel I'm going to move, I have been correct. But this year my parents told me we're not moving antmore, but anything can happen. Right? Every year I'm either too shy to become closer to friends or they just don't think I'm 'normal'. So, I never really have friends. I've met some bullies on the way, though. My only best friends live in my home town, Iqaluit. I can't move up there. My sister wants me to, I want to. But if I move, I'd have to break up with my boy friend (I hate long distant relationships) and I'd have to convince my parents. But I never feel complete. Some part of me is missing. I miss my sister and the people I've grown up with. The only close people I have are my dad, mom, brother. Everyone else lives at other places in Canada. I can only see family/friends from Iqaluit every one/two years. I can't even see the rest of my friends from where I have lived before. I'm very emotional and very shy. I'm sensitive. It is extremely hard for me to go through all of this. I isn't much, but it does damage to me.