Help me? I need answers.

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Okay, right now I'm just really confused.

For about a month and a half, I was worried that I was going to kill someone because I was having these disturbing thought, etc., after seeing The Uninvited. Anyway, I had a lot of anxiety. Somewhere during that, I thought I was hearing things (I heard something in my head, but then it went away after repeating itself in my psyche for like a couple of days. So it was probably my imagination). I obviously wasn't, because after a couple of days, that anxiety went away. Anyway, about a week and a half later I was reading Maximum Ride and they mentioned someone who had schizo for like a chapter. Yes, the anxiety came back (at the time, I didn't know of the other symptoms that you needed in order to be schizo). Anyway, so then I started hearing some sort of demonic voice in my brain telling me to hurt someone. After about a week, I started hearing whispers too. A few days ago, I did what my psychologist told me to do to block out unreal thoughts (which is to say STOP in your mind and then focus on reality). That made the demonic sound in my head go away, but the whispers stayed. Sometimes it almost sounds like I'm hearing it, but that's when my anxiety and stress are at a peak. I noticed that sometimes if I focus on something else, it goes away.

So is it my anxiety or something? Can anxiety make things seem more real?

Edit 2: Sometimes I also sometimes have garbled stuff repeating in my head. It's really annoying, but that didn't happen till after I read about the fact that when you hear things, it doesn't have to be clear. Also, sometimes when the whisper is repeating over and over again, I start thinking in that whisper, and it drives me even more nuts. Also, I Google intensely. Like really intensely. I know everyone is going to tell me to stop google-ing. On a side note, I have a very healthy imagination. >.<

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Your 'healthy imagination' might be a little too vivid for you! Maybe you should recognize this about yourself and avoid those types of over stimulating things, like suspenseful books and horror movies. People who are over anxious and have an active imagination don't need any more fuel on their fire. Anxiety can interfere with the logical part of the brain's abilityto accurately understand incoming info.

You might want to talk with your psychologist about where this comes from and what it means for you. It's also good you're working on techniques to modulate these thoughts and feeling, too.

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Your 'healthy imagination' might be a little too vivid for you! Maybe you should recognize this about yourself and avoid those types of over stimulating things, like suspenseful books and horror movies. People who are over anxious and have an active imagination don't need any more fuel on their fire. Anxiety can interfere with the logical part of the brain's abilityto accurately understand incoming info.

You might want to talk with your psychologist about where this comes from and what it means for you. It's also good you're working on techniques to modulate these thoughts and feeling, too.

Well yeah, it was only a 4 week thing because the anxiety came out of nowhere, so I'm obviously not seeing him anymore. But at least I know hypnosis and other stuff to help me relax (it helps to tune out everything).

EDIT: Okay, yeah. I definitely know it was my anxiety now. See, with all my googling I read that auditory hallucinations (even though I definitely know that that's not what I'm getting, but I wasn't sure at first) could be accompanied by visual stuff too, etc. Stupid Googling. Anyway, I started getting worried that I was going to start seeing things. So now I have that anxiety now. The 'hearing' things anxiety has kind of faded away, and the whole thing that I thought I was hearing is going away now (it'll stop halfway through in my brain, it won't stick, and it definitely affects me less during the day). Bad news, I now have seeing things anxiety! Joy! And I keep imagining it's going to be like in that one horror series I watched where these 2 girls had a marker and this kid thought it was a needle...yeah, bad stuff. So now I think I'm seeing stuff sometimes, but I realize that most of it is just eye tricks (ie: You look at something really fast and you think it was something else, you see an object out of the corner of your eye but it appears differently when you look at it, seeing shadows out of the corners of your eyes SOMETIMES, not often). You know, normal tricks that I'm probably just noticing more than I used to.