A happy face

[themanwhoneverwould]

I find i always have to put on a happy face. When really i feel terible inside...

.My life is meeningless - there is nothing im good at
.Been bullied all my secondry school life pretty much
. Have very friends who want to do anything with me
.Life just seems pointless
.No matter how hard ive tried i never make friends
.i feel like there is somthing wrong with me as all my friends and people at school are happy, but im not.
.I put on a happy face when inside i feel horrible
.people just dont want to know about me and even give me a chnace as a friend...

and i have felt like this for a long long time, and i feel really sad.

[DrkZ90]

sorry you feel like that, I can tell you than I've been (and still sort of am) in the same situation...

I would say that always wearing a happy face is a plus, and a big one... that's something I learnt from myself, and just looking in the mirror and seeing myself smiling despite how bad I felt inside helped a lot, as well as compliments from other about, no matter what, I looked happy....

Life might, and at some point, can look pointless... but there's always something you can find to make it worth living... as I said, having been there, I hit a point where I just couldn't find any more reasons to stay alive... I looked for other things to be interested in, and just kind of got, maybe not reasons, but excuses to stay alive...

About friends, I'm in the same situation... I have "friends", just no one I could call a real friend...

if you need to talk, I'm here for you, I always try to be there to help, so don't be shy to talk n.n