Triceratops
March 24th, 2009, 01:45 PM
...but I'm perfectly okay with that.
Okay, I just need somewhere to rant, I'm sorry if this all sounds like a jumbled up mess, but it's hard to explain myself. Reply to this if you want.
I see so many girls desperate for a boyfriend, and I've never seen the big deal about it. Well I've never had loads of boys after me anyway, I know why because I come across as a weirdo who rarely speaks (I am very quiet around people I don't know or rarely talk to) and I'm not a whore.
It's not as if I actually HAVE much of a choice with all the boys in my area, loads of them are incredibly shallow and only go chasing after the "good looking" ones and if someone is a little bit less than extremely gorgeous then they're not interested. And the boys who aren't like that go for the incredibly smart ones and which I have NO CHANCE because my intelligence level is average and I'm ditzy as hell :P Again, I'm okay with that as none of them would ever understand or cope with me. I have never come across anyone who has the same interests as me, decent style, uniqueness or anything like that.
I'm afraid of commitment too, I don't know why. The thought of being attached to someone who you have a SERIOUS relationship with just makes me feel awkward. I can't explain it.
Whenever a friend points out "Oh that guy is cute." I agree with them but when they suggest we go talk to him or something like that I always exclude myself out of that. I have a horrible fear of strangers!
Besides, I've never worried about boys. I've always had my own problems to think about, nevermind worrying about them. I have too much to deal with rather than spend my time in a relationship which you must pay alot of attention to, it's just not for me right now. I'm always curious to see if that'll ever change anytime soon though.
Okay, I just need somewhere to rant, I'm sorry if this all sounds like a jumbled up mess, but it's hard to explain myself. Reply to this if you want.
I see so many girls desperate for a boyfriend, and I've never seen the big deal about it. Well I've never had loads of boys after me anyway, I know why because I come across as a weirdo who rarely speaks (I am very quiet around people I don't know or rarely talk to) and I'm not a whore.
It's not as if I actually HAVE much of a choice with all the boys in my area, loads of them are incredibly shallow and only go chasing after the "good looking" ones and if someone is a little bit less than extremely gorgeous then they're not interested. And the boys who aren't like that go for the incredibly smart ones and which I have NO CHANCE because my intelligence level is average and I'm ditzy as hell :P Again, I'm okay with that as none of them would ever understand or cope with me. I have never come across anyone who has the same interests as me, decent style, uniqueness or anything like that.
I'm afraid of commitment too, I don't know why. The thought of being attached to someone who you have a SERIOUS relationship with just makes me feel awkward. I can't explain it.
Whenever a friend points out "Oh that guy is cute." I agree with them but when they suggest we go talk to him or something like that I always exclude myself out of that. I have a horrible fear of strangers!
Besides, I've never worried about boys. I've always had my own problems to think about, nevermind worrying about them. I have too much to deal with rather than spend my time in a relationship which you must pay alot of attention to, it's just not for me right now. I'm always curious to see if that'll ever change anytime soon though.