The Final Straw

[Viral Death]

Well these will probaly be my final words. I am sad of the guilt and hatred inside me. Everything I do is wrong in everyone's eyes. I hate the fealing where I go to school and I feal like a gun is pointed at my head. People would not care if I was gone I would make them happy then they dont have to deal with me. No one cares if I would shoot myself in the head with my 22. I lost all my friends and all the people that care for me. I am tired of being treated like I am stupid. So tonight I am going to put that one round into my 22 sit in the chair and think about all the good times I have had in my 13 years of being on this hell hole. Then I will pull the handle back set the gun on the ground and put the barrel under my chin put my toe on the trigger and just pull it. I dont care I am just letting myself go out of this life. I dont care if I go to hell for it it will be my decision.

[Toasty]

Whoa! Hey, dude, don't do this!! Look, we all go through our bad patches. Bad things happen, and in the end it's all okay... I've said this to someone before, and this might help you:

"For every tunnel in life, there's a light at the end. We may trip and fall along the way. We may get thirsty and hungry and tired along the way. It's at these times that we want to give up. But we have to press forward. The light is never as far as it seems."

Do you really want to give it up now? You'll never live again. Ever. The second you pull that trigger, you've lost everything that could've been. And the light isn't far. So, please, don't do it!! Keep going!! After all, hell is definitely a worse place than Earth... So if you're feeling depression here, don't you think it's going to be ten times worse there...? Do you really want to go to a place like that? Where things are worse than they are now, and you can't kill yourself to get out of it?

[Viral Death]

It would be better in hell people wont be ass holes. I am tired to the people that were so nice but then just change to total fuck heads. I am tired of this shit where I am the fuck up in everything. I will never get the chance to go out with the girl I like. I will never have any friends so it would not make a diffrence

[Narwhale343]

Okay. Talk to a counsler, friends, parents whoever will listein. Who gives a damn what a girl thinks about you? She is just one girl and you are very young. YOu haveyet to experience greater things in life. Suicide is never the answer. If you're friends are mean to you it's time to find new friends. If that girl doesn't like you fuck her she doesn't deserve you anyway. Just find a hobby, talk to your therapist(If you have one) most importantly find a brighter outlook on life.

[Viral Death]

Well me and her are somewhat friends we dont talk much. I am sure she thinks I am too young for her. I have no one to make friends all my friends are graduating and moving so I am just left in a hole like normal.


All the people up here hate me. There is no one to make friends with they have such great friends the would just want to piss on my grave.

[Toasty]

The world is full of @$$holes... We have to suck it up and move on. Believe me, they'll get what's coming to them. Also, anyone who acts like they're nice, then up and decides to be a jerk, probably was really a jerk all along. Sometimes, though, people make mistakes. They be mean when they don't truly mean it. Talk it over with these said "@$$holes", they just might feel as bad as you do about what happened between you. If it turns out they they're still a jerk about it, then they weren't worth your time, and you should move on. They'll be the losing something in all of it, not you.

And about being the "f**k up in everything" - If someone can't accept the mistakes you make, then they're the problem. Because whether you see it or not, they've probably made just as many mistakes as you. Maybe they're just not as sensitive about their mistakes as you? Again, talk it over with the people that bring you to this conclusion. They may not understand that they're hurting you.

And as for the girl problem... Don't be blind! There are plenty of women out there, and I believe that everyone has someone that they're destined to be with. But if this is one of those situations in which you can't really talk to this girl, don't be shy! What's the worst that could happen? You could say something a little stupid or awkward, and she could be a bit freaked at worst. But think about the times people have said something stupid to you - I'm sure it didn't change your opinion of them forever, did it? So even if the worst happens, all hope isn't lost. Don't chicken out on talking to this girl, and have to wonder for the rest of your life - "What could have been?"

Friends will grow together, friends will grow apart. You just have to keep going and make new ones. There are opportunities for friends all the time, and while some may slip by, do your best to catch all of them. So, trust me, you can make some friends, just seize the opportunity when you see it. =) And be patient, things will fall into place.

That's my advice to you... I often fall short of following it myself, but it happens. Don't give up hope... There's always a light at the end of the tunnel, no matter how you cut it.

[Viral Death]

Well I am sad because I lost my last friend on the weekend we got into a fight at my house so I told him to get his shit and get out. I am just sick of this shit where everything I do is wrong. I mean I am a straight A student in science and I get teased about it. I try to help others out in getting an A. They say fuck off and tell me to work alone. And to make this worse is I dont even have a lab partner. I have been doing everything alone no help. So I have to put it in overhaul and get the assigment. And when I got home I got my ass torn appart because my grades are shitty. I had 4 F's and a D, C, A-, B.

[Narwhale343]

I think it is best for you and this girl to be friends. Might as well. I've been in that situation before. You'l pull through. Make up to your friend. I think he might forgive. About your grades. Mine weren't so good. Just listein, and do the work and ask the teacher for help. I hope you find your way out of this hole. Just PM if you have any other questions.

[Viral Death]

I just guess I will have to try somthing else. And I dont want to be friends with him.

1. He talks about drugs constantly!
2. He is really perverted!
3. He follows me around everywhere!
4. He is really weird!
5. He gets me in trouble!

[Toasty]

The best thing to do about your friend is to apologize, tell him that you want to drop whatever the fight was about, and call for a truce. If he disagrees, then convince him to just drop it. Tell him that he's not going to have a friendship last by being that way. As for your grades, that seems much different than my school. Everybody wants to partner up the "A" student so they can breeze by with an easy grade. Anyone who teases you is obviously an idiot for both not realizing that an education is important and making bad grades to the point to where they can teasr you about your good ones. And anybody who brushes you off when you want to help them, just tell them, "Your loss." About not having a lab partner, this you could tell your teacher that you're having trouble without a partner, and surely arrangements could be made to get you one. This could even be an opportunity for friends! Get someone to be your lab partner, and maybe you'll end up making a friend out of them, who knows? If not, move on. And about the grades, just do your best, and tell your parents/guardians that you're doing the best you can. Everyone's not equally smart/academically able, so they shouldn't set expectations that you can't achieve. But, if you think that you can achieve those expectations, then by all means, go for it!

EDIT: Eek. An annoying friend is a tough situation... Maybe you should kindly tell him that you don't like this talk about drugs and perviness. And tell him that you need personal space, it's getting a little irritating. About getting in trouble... Just avoid any of his mischief that might be getting you two in trouble. Tell him, when he does something to get you in trouble, to stop. Make sure he knows that you don't mean to offend through all of that, though... If it helps, tell him to name something he finds annoying about you, and then you'll be equal (And don't take what he says to heart, just try and fix it, if it's something you think needs changing as well!). =D And... Don't judge! Everyone's weird in their own special way. XD

And if you really don't think you're fit to be friends, maybe you should just stop hanging with him, the friendship would eventually grow apart. I'm sorry, but I don't really have an effective solution there... But give him a chance, he could prove to be a true friend.

[Narwhale343]

Then he was never a friend...

[Viral Death]

Well we were friends when he moved here but eventually we stoped hanging out

[Θάνατος]

Hey Colten, I know you feel here I have told you that I am always here if you need to talk. If I am not online i get messages on my phone from MSN. Please don't feel that you don't have any friends b/c I told you I will be here for you.

[Viral Death]

Ok I am just really down right now. I am getting yelled at all the time and everything I do is wrong

[Toasty]

Hey, come on. =( You just make mistakes, like all of us, and apparently, you take them as a harder hit than others do. Just relax. Maybe you should go listen to music, take a shower, or even go outside and walk? Those are usually the things that help me sort my mind.

[Viral Death]

Ok I am fealing alittle better but I still feal like crap

[northskater110]

Hey, that's progress, and that always good. Even though you may not think it, I bet that you do have some friends, you just don't consider them friends. Everybody needs someone to help them out at times, you can always count on the people here to help you.

[Θάνατος]

Well Colton I am here for you if you want to talk. Anytime OK because that is what friends are for.

[Φρανκομβριτ]

hey man. The world sucks sometimes, but there's some good in it too. Just take a few deep breaths.
There are a lot fo people who would miss you. Ever think about your parents? Suicide isn't the answer!
If you ened to talk abotu anything, Jared and I are here.

[Viral Death]

Why would I care what my parents think they abandon me when I was little and I had to live with my grandparents

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

I am having a lot of the same problems colton....and it's tough...i feel for ya....and they are right..there's light at the end of the tunnel..please don't give up...if you find no other reason..live for me...i haven't given up yet and i have suffered greatly...PM anytime! I would be glad to talk to you !

[BeautifulTragedy]

Please,please dont do what Im thinking your gonna do. Thats very rational beyond reasoning. Life may seem not worth living right now but trust me, it WILL get better. Ive felt the same way you have in many different times in my life.

Taking your on life or giving up on life to the point where you eventually die isnt the answer.