In The Bath..

[Beautiful Obsession]

I Cudnt Fink Of A Title Soo..

To The Point..
i can just about control not cutting everytime i feel down.
But everytime i have a bath i cut. I dont know why. I think i know
its because the razor is just next to me.
Everytime i cut it gives me a sense of control in my body.
and it makes me feel great. but after that i feel shit.

I Dont know why i do it and even though i know i will regret it
i still do it anyway.

Just seeing the blood makes me feeel good.
does that make me sound like a freak?

I was with my m8s earlier and they were talking about someone that carves in the year below us and saying how they dont know how they cud do that and all this stuff.. so i know i cant talk to them about it.

they dont understand what its like. they just call people who do it emo's.
I feel like just shouting sayin they dont understand but i know it will giv it away.

Any advice guys?

XXX

[Triceratops]

Hun, you don't sound like a freak at all.
Seeing blood on me makes me feel good too.

The whole "anyone who cuts their wrists is an emo" is so old. It doesn't bother me.
Well if you can't talk to your friends (don't worry, I can't either these days) then you could try talking to a school counsillor, if you have one that is. Or even a teacher.

So many people these days find it so hard to understand WHY we cut, and just jump to conclusions and judge us. I know we understand perfectly into why we do it, but maybe we just can't find the right words to explain it, well I can't.

I suggest you keep all razors and sharp objects away from the bathtub, it will take a lot of willpower to do this, but you need to do it. Even just locking them in a box and throwing away the key or something like that. You can do this. Just remember how bad and regretful you feel after you cut, which will encourage you not to cut next time.

Take care hun :) xxx

[Toilet Water.]

Different people cut for different reasons.
To see the blood, perhaps?
To feel the pain on the body instead of inside?
No matter what it always comes back to you.
Some people don't know how to quit, some people don't want to.
Either way, you need to get help.
I know how it feels -- like feeling so alone, no one to talk to.
My friends make jokes about people who cut, they say they're emo and they have serious problems and shit. My friends call me emo, but they still love me. The true friends will want to help you, not ignore you or make insults towards you for doing this.
It's kind of like an addiction for me, cutting.
Whatever I do, I find myself doing it. I know it's wrong and it's ruining my body and my life, but I still do it because I don't know how to stop.
But recently I just had this feeling, a feeling of being stupid. I always knew it was stupid to cut, but I kept on cutting. But right now, I -feel- the stupidity.
That's holding me back from cutting even more. I have gone without cutting for a few weeks, other than the normal couple days.
I don't know if this will help any, but whatever. :p

[byee]

Hollie, Hollie, Hollie. Guess what I'm about to recommend?

Before I do that, let me say that although everyone has a reason for cutting, none of them are 'good' reasons b/c they all hurt. People who cut are in immense pain. it's illogical to cause more pain, and then somehow feel 'good' about it. It's something that needs to stop, you need some help here!

I suspect that you cut in the bath because you are naked and vulnerable, and in that state are reminded of the sexual abuse you experienced (which I also suspect is at the root of your cutting). As Marcie suggests, at the very least, you shouldn't have razors with you in the tub. And, as you might have guessed, my very strong recommendation to you is to tell someone already so you can get to a better place in your head and finally feel better.

[RaeNose]

Wow, my advice...
1. Listen to IAMSAM. He sounds like he knows what he's doing. :)
2. Idk, see if it's different with showers? Just kidding, I'm not that retarded. Although, it might actually work. You see, in the bath, you sit there and have more leisure time. A shower should only take about 10 minutes, really. You wouldn't have much time to exploit the observation that there may be a razor next to you. You clean yourself and you're done. You know?
I don't know, that's just my opinion. I thought it might make sense. Hope you get better. :)