Poems

[BeautifulSilence]

For some reason, they seem better when I'm writing them. Apologies for they suck, but thought I'd get 'em typed up anyways.

**Note: These poems are related to self-harm.**

Poem One

Another bad day
Emotions running high

Resisting temptations never worked
The disease is too strong
Too powerful

Withdrawal symptoms
The cracks are showing

An airless inhale
Desperate for breath
Screaming pains
Cry in my head

My eyes fill up
My hand shakes
This stream is flowing
Determination breaks

On the floor
On the edge
On my own

Submission begins
I reach for my fate

Begging for some other way
I get my release
But for how long?

For come next week
I know I won't
I know I can't
Be so strong

Poem Two

The act is over - I've retired backstage
No need to pretend I'm okay - I'm alone
The make up - masking my hurt - falls from my face
It tries desperately to escape me - my tradgedy
It's time again - my tension to be released
I reach for my latest prop - a shiny new blade
I let it dance upon my arm - creating a show
Warm red tears flow from my flesh - from the eyes I have made
I cannot cry - my skin does that now
I smile - the sweetness of pain
Soon I'm ashamed - I promised my co-stars
My cuts are merely a persona - they're required
Not for me - for my managers
I hide my latest body art - I fake another smile
It's time to go on stage - an encore is demanded
Glitter - gloves - guilt
I'm ready - the final perfomance

[devilishangel]

umm...can i ask u sumthng..i duno wedr m supposed to here...:( ...bt r u realy into all dis..? self pain??? n hurt?? :( ...i mean d poems r good....d 1st one though..i started reading d poem...i dint read wat u wrote abt self harm...i thought it myt b on sumthing lyk..love n all..n i ws thinkng abt asking u wat it was..den i read abt dem being abt self harm... :|

[Cloud]

Laura the poems are very good but we should get a new topic for you to write about. But besides that there awesome








umm...can i ask u sumthng..i duno wedr m supposed to here...:( ...bt r u realy into all dis..? self pain??? n hurt?? :( ...i mean d poems r good....d 1st one though..i started reading d poem...i dint read wat u wrote abt self harm...i thought it myt b on sumthing lyk..love n all..n i ws thinkng abt asking u wat it was..den i read abt dem being abt self harm... :|
to devilishangel
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAh my eyes are melting ffs write properly geez that took me about 10 minutes to read omg.

[ShatteredWings]

Laura, maybe your thing with formatting is that it's so wide with the formatting than it is on MS word or paper.. VT messes up formatting

*hugs laura*

umm...can i ask u sumthng..i duno wedr m supposed to here...:( ...bt r u realy into all dis..? self pain??? n hurt?? :( ...i mean d poems r good....d 1st one though..i started reading d poem...i dint read wat u wrote abt self harm...i thought it myt b on sumthing lyk..love n all..n i ws thinkng abt asking u wat it was..den i read abt dem being abt self harm... :|
Wow. Um, if you read it, you'd know that it wasn't about love at all...
she did warn you on the topic before posting

[BeautifulSilence]

Yeah... The formatting was more effective on paper :mad: lol

My "good" poems are all negative in some way. I have no inspiration for a decent positive one - besides, those are the first in like a year.

I promise to make my next one happy. If there's a next one... Seriously, poems only get done when I feel a sudden rush of wordiness... Plus, we're studying them in English and my friend got all happy about hers [she likes to brag about being better than me, at everything. I proved her wrong] :P

EDIT: Ah. That seems better.

[devilishangel]

@ok in uk : i think orkut addiction made me write like that i ll try not to... :)

@flying star... i did read it but after reading the poem :P silly me :P

@ laura...great job :) waiting for more

[SingASadSong4408]

this was amazing. so deep and real. I deffinitley liked the last onem with all the drama references. amazing.

[BlackenedSilver]

They are amazing Laura.. I really related to poem 2.
Great job! :hug:

:D

[byee]

*reaches for box of tissues*

That was amazing, laura!

[BeautifulSilence]

I actually have a huge smile on my face after reading those comments :D

It's nice to know people "get" me... I carry my "special book" full of my poems and stuff everywhere and I've been so scared today because my friends kept trying to read through it.

Thanks to y'all :)