The64
March 12th, 2009, 06:27 PM
Be aware: this is a long story. 10,221 words, 25 pages in Word, and in shitty MSN convo format for the most part.
I apologize ahead of time.
HOWEVER, I've been told it's a very compelling story, so hopefully you'll make it through without getting too lost.
Here we go:
EDIT: Oh yeah, be warned there is some vulgar language ahead.
Greg says (12:47 AM):
So these two girls, Holly and Melissa, were (metaphorically) all over my nuts last semester
Greg says (12:47 AM):
They even came up with a game for which was attracting me more, a point system incorporated.
Greg says (12:48 AM):
Ended up, because she was more open, and I'm a very, VERY keep-to-myself kinda guy
Greg says (12:48 AM):
I was spending nights with Melissa.
Greg says (12:48 AM):
And I don't mean in the sexual way in the least
Greg says (12:49 AM):
I'm not trying to deceive you in any way; we seriously did not even make any contact in bed until like the 3rd night
Bill says (12:49 AM):
Okay
Greg says (12:49 AM):
Watched movies, talked, drank, spilled my mother fucking guts out and made the best effort to pay attention to her story and remember.
Greg says (12:49 AM):
I mean GUTS
Greg says (12:49 AM):
Stuff you don't tell anybody
Greg says (12:49 AM):
We know way more about each other than should be legal now
Greg says (12:50 AM):
After about the third night, I mentioned - a little inebriated - that my favorite thing in the world was CUDDLING.
Greg says (12:50 AM):
And I wasn't being smart/flirty/devious
Greg says (12:50 AM):
I was/am serious.
Greg says (12:50 AM):
Cuddling is AMAZING.
Greg says (12:50 AM):
Anyways.
Greg says (12:51 AM):
She immediately cuddled up next to me, and we spent the next 3-4 days like this
Greg says (12:51 AM):
Literally.
Greg says (12:51 AM):
I did not go to class for two weeks. She did not go to class.
Greg says (12:51 AM):
I did not sleep. She slept some.
Greg says (12:51 AM):
The only time we were apart was sleeping and eating.
Greg says (12:51 AM):
Even then it was a mix of things.
Greg says (12:52 AM):
After a week or so, things got sexual.
Greg says (12:52 AM):
Of course.
Greg says (12:52 AM):
I became the pursuer (sp?)
Greg says (12:53 AM):
I 'played' with her some
Greg says (12:53 AM):
Though she already wanted me.
Greg says (12:53 AM):
Shit she even told me.
Greg says (12:53 AM):
I wouldn't let her.
Greg says (12:54 AM):
A few days after I 'played' with her, she 'played ' with me, and I literally said "fuck it" and went for gold, if you know what I mean.
Bill says (12:54 AM):
You found her lucky charms
Greg says (12:54 AM):
It was amazing. It was awkward. It was amazingly awkward.
Greg says (12:54 AM):
It was horrible.
Greg says (12:54 AM):
I was sober as a judge, so was she.
Greg says (12:55 AM):
I was a virgin.
Greg says (12:55 AM):
She was a 3-time bet.
Greg says (12:55 AM):
*vet
Greg says (12:55 AM):
She didn't talk to me for a goddamn week and a half.
Greg says (12:56 AM):
Can you imagine going from spending almost two weeks with someone - every waking moment with that person, spilling everything you possibly can - to going to not seeing this person for a WEEK AND A HALF?
Greg says (12:56 AM):
Especially after losing your virginity.
Bill says (12:56 AM):
Damn
Greg says (12:57 AM):
Goddamn week and a half of not speaking to her or SEEING her.
Greg says (12:57 AM):
Thanksgiving break telling my cousins about it didnt' help
Greg says (12:57 AM):
*didn't
Greg says (12:57 AM):
Got back.
Greg says (12:57 AM):
Tried to spend some time with her.
Greg says (12:57 AM):
Let me introduce Michael.
Greg says (12:58 AM):
He was her muscular, fucked-up, kinda jock, kinda funny-guy, but not too smart, FUCK BUDDY.
Greg says (12:58 AM):
She told me the day we saw each other for the first time in so long, that she was 'pretty much done with him'
Greg says (12:59 AM):
"he's acting like an asshole, fucked up all the time, and I don't want to have anything to do with him."
Greg says (12:59 AM):
I spent the next hour or so with her, before I went to go eat
Greg says (12:59 AM):
Came back, we popped in a movie I hadn't seen and she loved
Greg says (12:59 AM):
She was really apprehensive about everything
Greg says (1:00 AM):
I figured she was still just feeling weird about what we did
Greg says (1:00 AM):
Considering it really was too early
Greg says (1:00 AM):
About 3/4ths through the movie, Michael calls her and wants to come up
Greg says (1:00 AM):
She lets him.
Greg says (1:00 AM):
She tells me, "Michael's coming up. OKAY???"
Greg says (1:01 AM):
I just shrugged and tried to focus on the movie.
Greg says (1:01 AM):
He got up there, he was fucked up as hell.
Greg says (1:01 AM):
And this is ME saying this; he was FUCKED. UP.
Greg says (1:01 AM):
Started kissing on her and everything.
Greg says (1:01 AM):
WITH ME THERE
Greg says (1:01 AM):
I can hear smooching behind me for the rest of the movie
Greg says (1:01 AM):
I'm steaming.
Greg says (1:02 AM):
The movie's over - because it kicked ass and I had to see the ending - and I get my shoes on as fast as possible and get the fuck out of there.
Bill says (1:02 AM):
Wait
Bill says (1:02 AM):
She started kissing on him, too?
Greg says (1:02 AM):
Yes.
Bill says (1:02 AM):
wtf
Greg says (1:03 AM):
I freak out and proceed to break my hand on the elevator wall.
Greg says (1:03 AM):
That's enough for now.
Greg says (1:03 AM):
I need a break.
Bill says (1:03 AM):
While you take a break, I'll post all this
Greg says (1:04 AM):
Hilaroius.
Greg says (1:04 AM):
*Hilarious
Greg says (1:05 AM):
No comments?
Greg says (1:06 AM):
Fuck if I'm going to tell you any more
Bill says (1:08 AM):
Oh, I was doing something else
Bill says (1:08 AM):
There's not much to comment on since everything's straightforward
Greg says (1:09 AM):
Sorry
Bill says (1:09 AM):
For what?
Greg says (1:09 AM):
For "Greg says (1:05 AM):
No comments?
Greg says (1:06 AM):
Fuck if I'm going to tell you any more"
Bill says (1:09 AM):
oh, s'ok
Greg says (1:10 AM):
Anyways
Greg says (1:10 AM):
So the next day
Greg says (1:10 AM):
She texts me or I text her, I don't remember
Greg says (1:10 AM):
In the ensuing text-convo
Greg says (1:10 AM):
She blames me for 'cockblocking'
Greg says (1:10 AM):
Insinuates I 'know how she is with boys'
Greg says (1:11 AM):
And basically cuts me down about the night before
Greg says (1:11 AM):
Not sure about the rest of the semester
Greg says (1:11 AM):
Things were kinda in a middle ground
Greg says (1:12 AM):
I was in hella bad shape, with my seizures and sleep disorders
Greg says (1:13 AM):
Didn't help about a week before Halloween when I was in particularly bad shape and needed to stay with her, and my seizures and ticks were freaking her out and she went and stayed with Michael
Greg says (1:13 AM):
Not sure how long later
Greg says (1:13 AM):
Oh
Greg says (1:14 AM):
It was Finals Week, and I was up on her floor for some goddamn reason
Greg says (1:14 AM):
Ended up just me and her in the community room, she had been drinking - you have to understand that this girl is ridiculous when she drinks; we've had to pull her off many random guys when drunk. Never sex, but making out.
Greg says (1:14 AM):
Anyways
Greg says (1:15 AM):
We were in the communiy room watching the Tenaicious D movie
Greg says (1:15 AM):
And she was getting frisky.
Greg says (1:15 AM):
And God knows I half wanted her
Greg says (1:15 AM):
After the movie she started kissing me and I said 'not here, let's go to your room'
Greg says (1:15 AM):
Gathered up all the stuff
Greg says (1:15 AM):
Went to her room
Greg says (1:16 AM):
Started making out
Greg says (1:16 AM):
And I just... couldn't.
Greg says (1:16 AM):
I was too hurt.
Greg says (1:16 AM):
I shook her off me and said I can't and left.
Greg says (1:16 AM):
I went up to the top floor to walk around and she txt'ed me to come back because she would behave if I did.
Greg says (1:16 AM):
We popped in Zoolander and talked some.
Greg says (1:17 AM):
I got back up in bed with her and cuddled somewhat like before... what I wanted to do.
Greg says (1:17 AM):
We fell asleep, apart from each other, after some awkward conversation about what had happenened
Greg says (1:18 AM):
*happened.
Greg says (1:18 AM):
Okay
Greg says (1:18 AM):
Break.
Greg says (1:18 AM):
Questions? Comments?
Bill says (1:18 AM):
Fuckkk, suspense
Bill says (1:22 AM):
Don't leave me hangin' bro
Greg says (1:23 AM):
M'kay
Greg says (1:23 AM):
Actually, that's about what's gone down with Melissa
Greg says (1:23 AM):
Since then
Greg says (1:23 AM):
I've tried to text her and talk to her on facebook, wanting to be AT LEAST friends
Greg says (1:24 AM):
Over Christmas break
Bill says (1:24 AM):
Is this the girl you sent chocolates to?
Greg says (1:24 AM):
No.
Greg says (1:24 AM):
WAAAAAAAAAAIT.
Greg says (1:24 AM):
OVER CHRISTMAS BREAK
Bill says (1:24 AM):
OKAY
Greg says (1:24 AM):
Me and Holly started talking a lot more on the internet.
Greg says (1:25 AM):
Remember, this is Melissa that all this previous shit happened. And Holly and Melissa had a POINT SYSTEM based on my INTEREST going.
Greg says (1:25 AM):
There's certainly more I'm leaving out, but yeah.
Greg says (1:25 AM):
OVER CHRISTMAS BREAK
Greg says (1:25 AM):
Me and Holly start talking. A LOT.
Greg says (1:26 AM):
I'm sure you remember crazy tons o' comments on my status' and such.
Bill says (1:26 AM):
yeah
Greg says (1:26 AM):
Ridiculous, flirty things.
Greg says (1:26 AM):
It was getting crazy.
Bill says (1:26 AM):
"I THINK THERE'S A WORD FOR THAT Greg"
Bill says (1:27 AM):
Anyway, continue
Greg says (1:27 AM):
Haha
Greg says (1:27 AM):
That was actually waaaaaaaaay before ANY of this happened.
Greg says (1:27 AM):
Seriously.
Greg says (1:27 AM):
I was up there watching movies with both of them
Greg says (1:27 AM):
I've always felt more attracted to Holly.
Greg says (1:28 AM):
But she goes to bed so early and she's so... I don't want to say secretive... but more reserved.
Greg says (1:28 AM):
And it's hard for me to be the one to open up.
Greg says (1:28 AM):
Anyways
Greg says (1:28 AM):
Christmas break.
Greg says (1:28 AM):
Me and Holly, online, flirting at a ridiculous level.
Greg says (1:29 AM):
She's amazingly funny.
Greg says (1:29 AM):
Melissa pops in now and then, I try to ignore her.
Greg says (1:29 AM):
I get pissed off one night near the end of winter break and go see The Unborn with her
Greg says (1:30 AM):
Turns out, it's a 'going away... NOT' party for her
Greg says (1:30 AM):
Since she failed all her classes (partly because of me) and isn't actually going back to WKU
Greg says (1:30 AM):
*)\
Greg says (1:30 AM):
FUCK
Greg says (1:30 AM):
*)
Greg says (1:30 AM):
And it's a bunch of her friends. Including her first, and ex, JD.
Greg says (1:31 AM):
I meet the one goofy fuck she's been talking about this ENTIRE time.
Greg says (1:31 AM):
Like, you have no idea.
Greg says (1:31 AM):
I know that one time he wanted so badly to put an ice cube in her vajayjay, and she let him, and it hurt badly.
Greg says (1:31 AM):
I know far too much about Melissa.
Bill says (1:32 AM):
what the fuck
Greg says (1:32 AM):
I know that all their sex was goofy and light-hearted, and ours was very passionate.
Greg says (1:32 AM):
And she hasn't had anything like that.
Greg says (1:32 AM):
ANYWAYS
Greg says (1:33 AM):
So I meet the dude, and he's this short-dude-with-a-deep-voice dude.
Greg says (1:33 AM):
Kinda cool.
Greg says (1:33 AM):
I actually connect with him decently, and I can tell he's far more jealous about what he's heard about me than what I've heard about him
Greg says (1:33 AM):
Maybe it's just that I had been up for 36 hours at the time, maybe not... who knows?
Greg says (1:34 AM):
Anyways
Greg says (1:35 AM):
Movie sucks, I connect more with her bestie Jessa than her (Melissa) and I go get fucked up in my parent's office that one time I posted on [REMOVED] about breaking my awakeness-record
Greg says (1:35 AM):
I get notice from Holly after that at some time, that her parents aren't letting her come back, because she failed one class.
Greg says (1:35 AM):
One mother fucking class.
Greg says (1:36 AM):
I want to beat her parents into a pulp.
Greg says (1:36 AM):
I feel this seriously emotional about Holly.
Greg says (1:36 AM):
I guarantee we would be in a serious relationship, the bane of all other realtionships, had her parents let her come back.
Greg says (1:37 AM):
I'm falling for this girl away from her, right?
Greg says (1:37 AM):
Anyways.
Greg says (1:37 AM):
So I get back THIS semester, finding my room decorated with Chuckie Cheese - which is where Melissa works - ball pit balls
Greg says (1:38 AM):
I hang out with Melissa and Holly for the night, while they're packing up their stuff to leave for the semester. (THEY'RE ''''BOTH'''' GONE, HAVE YOU REALIZED THAT?!?!)
Greg says (1:39 AM):
And we play, God forbid, Never Have I Ever.
Greg says (1:39 AM):
Melissa gets personal.
Greg says (1:39 AM):
"Never have I ever lost my virginity to someone I didn't LOVE"
Greg says (1:39 AM):
I kept my fingers up.
Greg says (1:40 AM):
Otherwise, though she's been drinking, Holly stays generally apart from me, though I moved up on the bed with her.
Greg says (1:40 AM):
She knows what happened with Melissa and I, for sure.
Greg says (1:40 AM):
If not the details, just the most condemning parts.
Greg says (1:41 AM):
More of Melissa's evil shenanigans pursue, I hate her more, feel more ashamed.
Greg says (1:41 AM):
They both leave.
Greg says (1:41 AM):
Without a word.
Greg says (1:41 AM):
I was supposed to help them move things out.
Greg says (1:42 AM):
I texted Melissa - Holly doesn't get texts, otherwise I would, endlessely - about calling me to help her move shit out.
Greg says (1:42 AM):
Fire alarms go off early morning, and midday.
Greg says (1:42 AM):
I get four hours of sleep in 72 hours.
Greg says (1:42 AM):
They never call me.
Greg says (1:43 AM):
I even see Melissa in the lobby after the first fire alarm, walking right past me, ignoring me completely, and leaving to get breakfast.
Greg says (1:44 AM):
Since then, it's been a mixture of hate and longing for the physical closeness of Melissa, and the emotional closeness of Holly, that's been tormenting, and what's inspired the few topic on [REMOVED] about my health.
Greg says (1:44 AM):
That's it.
Greg says (1:44 AM):
That's all I can tell now.
Greg says (1:44 AM):
I'm glad as hell it's out.
Greg says (1:44 AM):
I need input.
Bill says (1:44 AM):
Hmmmm
Greg says (1:45 AM):
I have Holly calling me today, and chocolates for her bought, and Melissa calling me on Super Bowl Sunday and talking to me on MSN a few days ago about financial bullshit
Greg says (1:45 AM):
Endless nights spent wakeful on these two.,
Bill says (1:45 AM):
What do they look like?
Greg says (1:45 AM):
Aha.
Greg says (1:45 AM):
Ahahahhahahahahahahahahhahahahaha.
Greg says (1:45 AM):
You asshole.
Bill says (1:45 AM):
Greg says (1:46 AM):
Women are illogicl creatures.
Greg says (1:46 AM):
Men, naturally logical.
Greg says (1:46 AM):
It's not fair.
Greg says (1:46 AM):
*illogical
Greg says (1:46 AM):
I've had about 8 shots by now
Greg says (1:46 AM):
Otherwise I wouldn't let all this go.
Greg says (1:46 AM):
Better save this.
Greg says (1:47 AM):
I NEED input, too.
Greg says (1:47 AM):
Fuck. I might post it.
Bill says (1:47 AM):
Maybe you should drive out to her place every weekend?
Greg says (1:47 AM):
Am I just a fucking emotionally retarded fuck?
Greg says (1:48 AM):
Or have I really been through something fucked up?
Bill says (1:48 AM):
Well, her having sex with you there after you've already done it with her if pretty fucked up
Greg says (1:48 AM):
Something that justifies these feelings... these discrepincies...
Greg says (1:48 AM):
WAIT
Greg says (1:48 AM):
What?
Bill says (1:48 AM):
=/
Bill says (1:49 AM):
I don't even know what I said, LET ME REPHRASE
Bill says (1:49 AM):
Her having sex with that Michael guy in front of you was pretty fucked up
Greg says (1:49 AM):
She didn't.
Greg says (1:49 AM):
Well
Greg says (1:50 AM):
As far as she told me
Bill says (1:50 AM):
Well, you know
Greg says (1:50 AM):
She felt shit enough about how I left that she shoved him off her
Greg says (1:50 AM):
BUT SHE DIDN'T TRY THAT HARD WHILE I WAS THERE
Greg says (1:50 AM):
Gotta piss
Bill says (1:50 AM):
k
Greg says (1:52 AM):
Apparently
Greg says (1:52 AM):
I've forgotten some.
Greg says (1:52 AM):
It was unprotected.
Bill says (1:52 AM):
hm?
Greg says (1:52 AM):
Me and Melissa.
Greg says (1:52 AM):
And after, she was bringing up her missing her period for a few days every chance she got
Greg says (1:53 AM):
In the elevator, just me and her, and in her bedroom, with lots of our friends I guarantee we - at least I - didn't want to know
Greg says (1:54 AM):
Later, finally, "I got my period! Finally! RIGHT Greg!?!?" In front of a bunch of friends who already think she's a whore because of how she acts when drunk
Greg says (1:54 AM):
Did I mention she's a gemini?
Bill says (1:55 AM):
Does that matter?
Greg says (1:55 AM):
A two-faced CUNT
Bill says (1:55 AM):
lol
Greg says (1:55 AM):
As soon as she got what she wanted, she turned personalities and didn't want anything to do with me
Greg says (1:55 AM):
Two-faced BITCH.
Greg says (1:55 AM):
Fuck it.
Greg says (1:55 AM):
Fuck her.
Greg says (1:56 AM):
I was manipluated to the worst degree and suffer from it hardcore. Don't lol.
Bill says (1:56 AM):
I'm laughing at the Gemini and Two-faced connection
Greg says (1:56 AM):
I became emotionally attached. AS A GUY. And she left me hanging.
Greg says (1:57 AM):
So now.
Greg says (1:57 AM):
That's the end of the 'story'.
Greg says (1:57 AM):
Now is present time.
Greg says (1:57 AM):
She hasn't talked to me since she saw me for that
Greg says (1:57 AM):
*'never have I ever' game where she got bitchy and personal
Greg says (1:58 AM):
Except for calling me on the fucking Super Bowl, asking if I'd return something for Michael.
Greg says (1:58 AM):
Since then, nothing.
Greg says (1:58 AM):
Other than that, it's been all Holly.
Greg says (1:58 AM):
Except for the stray comment on Facebook I purposely ignor.
Greg says (1:58 AM):
*ignore.
Greg says (1:58 AM):
Cunt.
Greg says (1:59 AM):
Now I'm trying to keep things up with Holly because I REALLY LIKE her (aka, might be 'The One')
Greg says (2:00 AM):
And things are shaky partly because her parents won't let her come back, and she knows what's happened (physically) between me and Melissa.
Greg says (2:00 AM):
That.
Greg says (2:00 AM):
Is.
Greg says (2:00 AM):
IT.
Greg says (2:00 AM):
Good enough.
Greg says (2:00 AM):
?
Bill says (2:00 AM):
Yes
Greg says (2:00 AM):
Have fun?
Greg says (2:00 AM):
Entertaining?
Greg says (2:00 AM):
It will be a novel some day.
Bill says (2:00 AM):
It was like a big wtf with all that Melissa shit
Greg says (2:00 AM):
Different characters.
Greg says (2:01 AM):
Finished story. Since all this isn't exactly 'resolved' right now.
Bill says (2:01 AM):
Based on a true story. Only the names of the charactes, places, and events have changed.
Greg says (2:01 AM):
But this is why I'm so GODDAMN FUCKED UP right now.
Greg says (2:01 AM):
Cut me some Goddamn SLACK>
Greg says (2:01 AM):
Goddamnit Miguel.
Bill says (2:01 AM):
I think you should do what the Eagles did.
Bill says (2:01 AM):
Take it easy
Greg says (2:02 AM):
I've seriously considered suicide.
Bill says (2:02 AM):
Whooooooooooa
Greg says (2:02 AM):
Seriously.
Bill says (2:02 AM):
Because of a girl?
Greg says (2:02 AM):
NO.
Greg says (2:02 AM):
Not just because of that.
Greg says (2:02 AM):
Because of everything compounded on this.
Greg says (2:02 AM):
I
Greg says (2:02 AM):
*I've thought of the ways it would all end.
Greg says (2:03 AM):
How insanely easy and impulsive it would be to slit my throat. But also how I KNOW I could not do it.,
Greg says (2:03 AM):
No matter how much I drink.
Greg says (2:03 AM):
It's certainly not because of this.
Greg says (2:04 AM):
Things aren't going so hot at home.
Greg says (2:04 AM):
My dad might be getting laid off, the ice storm butt-fucked that part of the state, I fucked up last semester and there's basically no chace of scholarship
Greg says (2:04 AM):
You have no idea how easy it would be to end all of it.
Greg says (2:05 AM):
I've been there with the knife, considering everything. And closed it.
Greg says (2:05 AM):
I have it now.
Greg says (2:05 AM):
Life it so precious.
Greg says (2:05 AM):
You have no idea.
Bill says (2:07 AM):
How would your parents deal with you being dead and shit?
Greg says (2:08 AM):
That's part of what kept me from doing 'it'.
Greg says (2:08 AM):
Thinking of how my family/closest friends woudl react.
Greg says (2:08 AM):
I've been SO close, though.
2/18/2009 2:58:30 AM Greg *red+u Bill About Melissa
2/18/2009 2:58:42 AM Greg *red+u Bill I worry sometimes, because maybe I've made the wrong judgement here and there?
2/18/2009 2:59:07 AM Greg *red+u Bill Maybe she didn't talk to me for that week or so after because she was confused about what she wanted.
2/18/2009 2:59:10 AM Greg *red+u Bill Don't talk right now.
2/18/2009 2:59:27 AM Greg *red+u Bill To be honest, I never did look back at Melissa and Michael.
2/18/2009 2:59:59 AM Greg *red+u Bill She did try to stop him. He was drunk as hell. Of course, it was "stop, not right now, I've got company, c'mon... please?"
2/18/2009 3:00:08 AM Greg *red+u Bill He wasn't getting violent or anything, just wouldn't stop smooching.
2/18/2009 3:00:14 AM Greg *red+u Bill Eventually she stopped trying.
2/18/2009 3:00:37 AM Greg *red+u Bill I don't know if she ever was kissing him back, and I'm still not sure what happened after I left.
2/18/2009 3:00:44 AM Greg *red+u Bill All I know is that I was pissed.
2/18/2009 3:01:04 AM Greg *red+u Bill But later, a few days, maybe the next day
2/18/2009 3:01:14 AM Greg *red+u Bill She told me that her and Michael were done completely.
2/18/2009 3:01:25 AM Greg *red+u Bill That they got in a fight over what happened then.
2/18/2009 3:01:47 AM Greg *red+u Bill Oh, and when she said that she kicked him out after I left, it was because she felt guilty about me.
2/18/2009 3:02:52 AM Greg *red+u Bill See, I can understand why she'd be confused and want time alone. I mean, I won't go over her entire relationship history - though I really could :/ - I'll just say she hasn't exactly had a real relationship since her first fell through kind-of dramatically.
2/18/2009 3:03:12 AM Greg *red+u Bill Not done.
2/18/2009 3:03:50 AM Greg *red+u Bill This Michael character was her 'friend with benefits' after all. And I think they did have a kind-of emotional bond.
2/18/2009 3:04:10 AM Greg *red+u Bill I remember her telling me a few times that she thought the reason she liked him so much is because he is so much like her first boyfriend.
2/18/2009 3:04:59 AM Greg *red+u Bill And that they had an agreement since they met that both would be there for each other if they were ever lonely, because they'd both just gotten out of bad relationships.
2/18/2009 3:05:41 AM Greg *red+u Bill There was once I remember her saying that I was a catch.
2/18/2009 3:05:54 AM Greg *red+u Bill I was next door, with two of my better friends up here, and she was in the doorway.
2/18/2009 3:06:09 AM Greg *red+u Bill She said something like 'Joe, you're not a catch. Greg, now, he's a catch.'
2/18/2009 3:06:27 AM Greg *red+u Bill She was always flirting. But then again it seemed like a running joke at the time.
2/18/2009 3:06:33 AM Greg *red+u Bill This was way before anything happened.
2/18/2009 3:07:23 AM Greg *red+u Bill Every chance they got - both Holly and Melissa - the running joke with our little posse - think roughly one similar to That '70s Show - was that I was the only one they liked any more.
2/18/2009 3:07:46 AM Greg *red+u Bill It's still a secret from everyone else.
2/18/2009 3:08:00 AM Greg *red+u Bill I've even been asked by them and had to lie to their faces.
2/18/2009 3:08:05 AM Greg *red+u Bill At Melissa's request.
2/18/2009 3:08:15 AM Greg *red+u Bill Though I don't really want them to know, either.
2/18/2009 3:08:16 AM Greg *red+u Bill However.
2/18/2009 3:08:25 AM Greg *red+u Bill After this, after I've already had to lie
2/18/2009 3:09:17 AM Greg *red+u Bill One of her friends up on her floor blurts out in Michael's company something like "...[regarding me] he's probably just acting weird because Melissa was his first"
2/18/2009 3:09:45 AM Greg *red+u Bill Melissa was so embarrassed, she tells me, she had to run to her room and lock herself in. She'd never been so embarrassed in her life.
2/18/2009 3:10:23 AM Greg *red+u Bill A while later she let Michael in and told him all about it. He didn't really care. He was actually pretty nonchalant and even today tries to say '
2/18/2009 3:10:33 AM Greg *red+u Bill *tries to say 'hey' every time he sees me.
2/18/2009 3:10:59 AM Greg *red+u Bill I forced myself to talk to him for the first time ever - after seeing him around plenty, that is - in Subway not but three weeks ago.
2/18/2009 3:11:02 AM Greg *red+u Bill First time ever.
2/18/2009 3:11:09 AM Greg *red+u Bill I couldn't look him in the eye.
2/18/2009 3:11:48 AM Greg *red+u Bill Anyways. This friend that blurted that out, she's a loud, chubby, annoying bitch that none of the guys like, and now never talk to since Holly and Melissa are gone.
2/18/2009 3:12:09 AM Greg *red+u Bill She also stalked me for a bit there around Halloween, and I know for a fact she had a crush on me.
2/18/2009 3:12:40 AM Greg *red+u Bill So the fact that Melissa told HER about what happened between me and her, especially the part about it being my first time, also pisses me off.
2/18/2009 3:13:22 AM Greg *red+u Bill Thankfully she hasn't said anything to any of the guys yet. They probably wouldn't be surprised, actually.
2/18/2009 3:13:41 AM Greg *red+u Bill But I still don't want them to know, considering their opinion of Melissa.
2/18/2009 3:13:55 AM Greg *red+u Bill Oh wait.
2/18/2009 3:14:09 AM Greg *red+u Bill I did tell my one friend Jerry about it, though.
2/18/2009 3:14:13 AM Greg *red+u Bill Which is amazingly weird.
2/18/2009 3:15:09 AM Greg *red+u Bill Because back before I was hanging out with Melissa much at all, and back during football when the whole posse was still all together and in Melissa's room watching movies, Jerry and her made out.
2/18/2009 3:15:15 AM Greg *red+u Bill She stopped him.
2/18/2009 3:15:20 AM Greg *red+u Bill I know this because I was also there.
2/18/2009 3:15:31 AM Greg *red+u Bill Well, actually, we were all there tongue.gif
2/18/2009 3:15:42 AM Greg *red+u Bill It's a funny story that we come back to every now and then.
2/18/2009 3:16:01 AM Greg *red+u Bill We were all fucked up after one of the first football games and watching some movie in Melissa's room
2/18/2009 3:16:49 AM Greg *red+u Bill We didn't know what Melissa was like when drunk - did I mention she makes out with ANYBODY when drunk? Yeah. - and we hear them on the top bunk and stand up in time to see Melissa back off and stop him.
2/18/2009 3:16:58 AM Greg *red+u Bill Anyways.
2/18/2009 3:17:03 AM Greg *red+u Bill Wait.
2/18/2009 3:17:03 AM Greg *red+u Bill Shit.
2/18/2009 3:17:09 AM Greg *red+u Bill Back to Melissa and Jerry, actually.
2/18/2009 3:17:28 AM Greg *red+u Bill Both Melissa and Holly liked Jerry, actually.
2/18/2009 3:17:54 AM Greg *red+u Bill And obviously Jerry liked Melissa.
2/18/2009 3:18:31 AM Greg *red+u Bill So after 'it' happened, way after, when we had the Finals party with that shit-ton of alcohol.
2/18/2009 3:18:43 AM Greg *red+u Bill Me and Jerry went on a walk for no particular reason and I decided to tell him.
2/18/2009 3:18:56 AM Greg *red+u Bill Now he hates her, pretty much.
2/18/2009 3:19:08 AM Greg *red+u Bill But he doesn't know details like you all do. He just knows it happened.
2/18/2009 3:28:11 AM Greg *red+u Bill But I know he still liked her for a while, until I think they were showing interest in me, and then he got bitter and didn't want anything to do with them.
2/18/2009 3:28:20 AM Greg *red+u Bill Thing is, they talked about him still after that.
2/18/2009 3:28:38 AM Greg *red+u Bill "What's Jerry's problem? I really like him, why doesn't he like us any more?"
2/18/2009 3:28:43 AM Greg *red+u Bill - both Holly and Melissa
2/18/2009 3:28:57 AM Greg *red+u Bill I think now they don't really like him because of the way he's acted, but yeah, that was there for a while.
Greg *red+u says (3:36 AM):
There's stuff I left out of the text I just remembered.
Bill says (3:36 AM):
oh shit\
Greg *red+u says (3:36 AM):
You know, the day after the Michael/Me/Melissa incident.
Greg *red+u says (3:36 AM):
It was about 5 texts back and forth, pretty big texts.
Greg *red+u says (3:37 AM):
Major points coming from her were 'you know how I am with boys', 'you were cockblocking', and the part I didn't mention before was 'damnit Greg, we are and never were anything'
Greg *red+u says (3:37 AM):
*are nothing
Greg *red+u says (3:38 AM):
I did send her something like 'you were basically fucking behind me'
Greg *red+u says (3:38 AM):
The strange thing
Greg *red+u says (3:38 AM):
Was that when she said 'we are nothing and never we anything'.
Greg *red+u says (3:38 AM):
It hurt. But...
Greg *red+u says (3:38 AM):
It also was a relief.
Greg *red+u says (3:39 AM):
It actually kind of made me feel better.
Greg *red+u says (3:39 AM):
I'm not sure why.
Greg *red+u says (3:40 AM):
Oh
Greg *red+u says (3:41 AM):
And, this is minor, but it shows a bit how Melissa can be two-faced as hell
Greg *red+u says (3:41 AM):
She got in big trouble with alcohol a while back, maybe a year before college.
Greg *red+u says (3:41 AM):
Taking drinks into movies, to work, to school.
Greg *red+u says (3:42 AM):
Had to go to therapy or something.
Greg *red+u says (3:42 AM):
Has horrible credit now because she was buying so much alcohol.
Greg *red+u says (3:42 AM):
Anyways, she went to therapy and got 'better'.
Greg *red+u says (3:42 AM):
When we first met her, she said she didn't drink any more.
Greg *red+u says (3:42 AM):
She drank some, obviously.
Greg *red+u says (3:43 AM):
Got back to drinking like a normal person. Perhaps a bit more.
Greg *red+u says (3:43 AM):
But that's one of the things we would do, was drink and talk, just me and her. Not too much, and she never drank so much she got all whore-ish.
Greg *red+u says (3:44 AM):
A few weeks after 'it' happened, when I was trying to hang out with her to build back a friendship
Greg *red+u says (3:44 AM):
Actually, this was finals week.
Greg *red+u says (3:44 AM):
After I told Jerry and before she made out with me and I had to push her off.
Greg *red+u says (3:44 AM):
I went up there with some beer - for me - and she fucking got MAD at me.
Greg *red+u says (3:44 AM):
"I don't want that shit up here. I haven't drank in a month and I'm trying to quit, damnit!"
Greg *red+u says (3:45 AM):
Like, fucking MAD.
Greg *red+u says (3:45 AM):
Of course, not but a few days later, she's drunk and when it winds down to just me and her up, she's on me and I push her off and so on. You know that part.
Greg *red+u says (3:45 AM):
Fucking confusing girl, she is.
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Resolution (somewhat). I cut out some minor shit. This is the first time we've talked since the Superbowl, however long ago that was...
2/19/2009 5:30:37 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus It's been fucked up since Friday the 13th but that's it.
2/19/2009 5:30:44 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Even then you'd make it better.
2/19/2009 5:30:53 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u not any time soon...
2/19/2009 5:32:35 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u yeah v day was me and jd's aniversary and started off with my mom waking me ay 7 am screaming at me, then i had to work until about 11 30 pm, then went out and came home and passed out. not a good day... i was sick on top of that. but the good news was i made 100 bucks in tips this weekend when i usually dont make any
2/19/2009 5:32:48 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u this weekend was all fucked up for me
2/19/2009 5:33:00 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Sounds fun.
2/19/2009 5:33:02 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Alright.
2/19/2009 5:33:05 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Tell me now.
2/19/2009 5:33:17 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Do you still have feelings for JD, or what?
2/19/2009 5:33:25 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I know this could be hard.
2/19/2009 5:33:34 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u no, but he wants me so bad and i love it
2/19/2009 5:34:46 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u i got him good, new years we all got shit faced and i ended up making out with ryan (his best friend that i slept with that one time) and jimmie this black dude. and jd walked into the room and just stood there
2/19/2009 5:35:03 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Ryan?
2/19/2009 5:35:12 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u yeah. it was really bad
2/19/2009 5:35:32 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u but thats been my only slut moment since i have been home so im proud of that
2/19/2009 5:35:46 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus ...
2/19/2009 5:36:19 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus What do you consider me?
2/19/2009 5:36:30 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u a lunatic
2/19/2009 5:37:17 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus You know what I mean.
2/19/2009 5:37:39 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u your a good friend
2/19/2009 5:38:04 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus :)
2/19/2009 5:38:41 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus h'anyways
2/19/2009 5:39:34 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I miss you. I miss Holly. It's been total suck here so far.
2/19/2009 5:39:52 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u yeah, it sucks here too
2/19/2009 5:40:29 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus So everything got butt-fucked by that ice-storm, eh?
2/19/2009 5:40:40 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I know my house didn't get power until like, last week.
2/19/2009 5:40:51 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u yeah bad... i know people that still dont have power
2/19/2009 5:41:23 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus So Holly didn't just send me a letter and candies
2/19/2009 5:41:30 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus She sent me a book.
2/19/2009 5:42:06 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus A romance novel about 'Alan and Greg'. She though the 'Greg' character fit me perfectly. She was fucking right.
2/19/2009 5:42:24 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus She SENT me this book of hers to read.
2/19/2009 5:42:25 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u thats awesome
2/19/2009 5:42:32 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus It's freaking me out.
2/19/2009 5:42:38 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u riiight you told me that...
2/19/2009 5:42:54 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Because I sent her a Valentine's on FB and she hasn't really talked to me since Sunday.
2/19/2009 5:43:29 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u i havent heard from her in a while she is probably busy
2/19/2009 5:43:48 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I also bought her Valentine's Day choocolates.
2/19/2009 5:43:59 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus But got cold feet and haven't sent them....
2/19/2009 5:44:10 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u maybe you should do that
2/19/2009 5:44:40 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I was thinking, since what she said about the flowers, that I should save them for the next time we saw each other in person.
2/19/2009 5:44:56 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u how drunk are you right now
2/19/2009 5:45:00 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Not bad.
2/19/2009 5:45:06 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Why?
2/19/2009 5:45:19 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I was thinking this for a few days now....
2/19/2009 5:45:25 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u cause i have no idea what your talking about
2/19/2009 5:45:58 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus When we did the Never Have I Ever game, she - and you agreed - that flowers should be hand-delivered.
2/19/2009 5:46:10 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I was talking to my cousin about driving me down there for V-day.
2/19/2009 5:46:17 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Mofo wouldn't, though.
2/19/2009 5:46:39 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u ok now it makes sense
2/19/2009 5:47:30 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Yeah
2/19/2009 5:48:44 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Wow only .02
2/19/2009 5:48:49 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I've had like 10 shots by now.
2/19/2009 5:49:53 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Fuck this breathalyzer I'mma try again.
2/19/2009 5:50:10 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus ... .01
2/19/2009 5:50:15 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus lol
2/19/2009 5:50:36 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u it must not work all that good
2/19/2009 5:50:38 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Yeah .01 wtf.
2/19/2009 5:50:44 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Another shot coming up.
2/19/2009 5:51:24 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus There's like 2 shots left :(
2/19/2009 5:51:50 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u so did you finish your poem
2/19/2009 5:51:53 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Aha
2/19/2009 5:51:54 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Uh
2/19/2009 5:51:57 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I haven't started.
2/19/2009 5:54:00 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u somehow you always kepp me up late
2/19/2009 5:54:16 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus It's not me!
2/19/2009 5:54:17 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Hell
2/19/2009 5:54:37 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I was waking up at like 7:00am for three weeks until this last weekend
2/19/2009 5:54:54 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I was a good mofo and doing schoolwork and didn't miss a single class!
2/19/2009 5:55:01 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u ok well i am usually very asleep right now
2/19/2009 5:55:08 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u was...?
2/19/2009 5:55:11 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Drinking myself to sleep, yeah, but a good boy.
2/19/2009 5:55:15 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Was.
2/19/2009 5:55:30 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I've been back to my usual self these past few days.
2/19/2009 5:55:52 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Haven't gone to a single class all week. Knowing mised two assigments and one in-class quiz.
2/19/2009 5:56:04 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u why
2/19/2009 5:56:11 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I just fucking needed to sleep.
2/19/2009 5:57:05 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus So our story is going to be a novel someday.
2/19/2009 5:57:17 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u what story
2/19/2009 5:57:20 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Ours.
2/19/2009 5:57:34 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus The realtionship between me and you.
2/19/2009 5:57:43 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus It's unbeliveably novel.
2/19/2009 5:58:11 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Someday.
2/19/2009 5:58:20 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Probably like ten years from now.
2/19/2009 5:58:24 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u how do you know that
2/19/2009 5:58:48 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Because I've told... some people...
2/19/2009 5:58:53 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Names changed.
2/19/2009 5:59:14 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus But all the feedback I've gotten is that it's an amazingly compelling story.
2/19/2009 5:59:45 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u who is going to write it... Holly
2/19/2009 5:59:50 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Me.
2/19/2009 5:59:57 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Holly doesn't know all the details.
2/19/2009 6:00:11 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u well as long as i get the first copy
2/19/2009 6:00:20 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Aha okay
2/19/2009 6:00:56 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I mean, seriously.
2/19/2009 6:00:59 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Look at this.
2/19/2009 6:01:03 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus It's ridiculous.
2/19/2009 6:01:22 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u whats so ridiculous
2/19/2009 6:01:28 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Everything.
2/19/2009 6:02:14 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Think about it.
2/19/2009 6:02:28 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I got cought up with you, after your history, and you being caught up with Michael
2/19/2009 6:02:47 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus And I've fallen for Holly, who now is two and a half hours away unable to do anything.
2/19/2009 6:03:02 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I've prime material.
2/19/2009 6:03:24 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus What will be my third strike? Attempted suicide?
2/19/2009 6:03:36 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u i think you need to look at the big picture and realize its all just something that happened... none of it was a big deal
2/19/2009 6:03:53 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus It's just something that happened.
2/19/2009 6:03:58 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Something so novel'
2/19/2009 6:04:09 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I've gotten the feedback already.
2/19/2009 6:04:29 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus It's life.
2/19/2009 6:04:37 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus That's why it's prime material.
2/19/2009 6:04:41 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u who have you told all this too
2/19/2009 6:04:54 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Some... people.
2/19/2009 6:05:03 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Names changed. I remind you.
2/19/2009 6:05:18 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Some people I trust the opinion of.
2/19/2009 6:06:13 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u right well...
2/19/2009 6:06:44 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Would you like to read?
2/19/2009 6:06:52 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I know I've gotten only one opinion.
2/19/2009 6:06:59 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus One perspective.
2/19/2009 6:07:00 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u you already wrote it
2/19/2009 6:07:06 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Yeah, it's saved.
2/19/2009 6:07:22 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u 'well of course i want to read it
2/19/2009 6:07:30 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Any input; unbiased, is good input.
2/19/2009 6:07:39 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Of course it'll be a bit biased.
2/19/2009 6:08:02 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus And remember, I was a bit inebrated when I finally got all of it out.
2/19/2009 6:08:28 AM Greg *red+u sends C:\Users\Owner\Documents\EVERYTHING(names edited).txt
2/19/2009 6:08:31 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Wiat.
2/19/2009 6:08:33 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus *Wiat.
2/19/2009 6:08:34 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u when did you do it
2/19/2009 6:08:36 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus GODDAMNIT.
2/19/2009 6:08:39 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus WAIT.
2/19/2009 6:08:49 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Do you want names edited or names real?
2/19/2009 6:09:08 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Not but a few days ago, I finally let it all out.
2/19/2009 6:09:19 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Shit was held up for so long.
2/19/2009 6:09:31 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u i dont care about the names
2/19/2009 6:09:41 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus You'll know either way, I'm sure.
2/19/2009 6:09:52 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Just accept.
2/19/2009 6:10:21 AM Transfer of "EVERYTHING(names edited).txt" is complete.
2/19/2009 6:10:28 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I'm 'Greg', you're 'Melissa', Holly's 'Holly.'.
2/19/2009 6:10:35 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I hope it' revealing.
2/19/2009 6:10:50 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u ok got it
2/19/2009 6:10:50 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Please don't comment until you have time to soak it all in.
2/19/2009 6:32:43 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u you there
Then a facebook message because I crashed:
ok... after reading that this is all i have to say
1. make sure you make very clear that me and Holly were best friends
2. your timeline is all fucked up, but its fortunate that i remember everything and could help you with it.
3. i always knew you were really about Holly (hence the point system... she said you didnt like her, and liked me because I was the one you slept with... i knew better... but whatev)
and just so you know you were the last person i have been with. even when/ if Michael came up after that, i wouldnt do anything with him. and you and i happened about 3 days before thanksgiving break mind you. for me this has been a long time, ive had plenty of opportunities to be with people, and i have wanted to too. but just not felt right about it. i knew i hurt you and didnt want to hurt someone else. and thanks for not telling all the guys
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Updates:
Melissa's a bitch. I realized her 'apology' was a cheap cop-out. She had said "I'm sorry if I hurt you. Cunt. She embodies just about everything I might hate in a person. I'd be happy if I never hear from her again. She sent Holly 'My Story.' And she called me pathetic. And pretty much called me stupid as well. Not in a light-hearted way, either.
I also found out Holly went on a date with some guy named 'Jordan' who she thought was 'supercute' and 'superfunny'. So I messaged her:
Greg W.
March 5 at 5:15pm
Who is Jordan?
Holly W.
March 6 at 9:19am
JORDAN! ahh, he is a guy i know in [-----] who ive been hanging out with lately.
and Greg, i read your "novel"... i think it will be very intersting and a best-seller whenever you get it finished and published.. lots of drama and plus its written by a boy.
of course, you have misunderstood some things abot some of the things you said.. i dont know if you were speaking the truth about your feelings for me but i had no idea you felt that way. i couldnt date someone 3 hours away from me and ive always thought you've liked Melissa. i sent you that package as a good friend because i wanted you to read that book and i thought you might would like some candy with it.
when you worte about suicide, i just want to say you shouldnt give up your life for somthing that stupid. your life is ALL you have, and you have got to make the best of it. you think about your dad maybe getting laid off and stuff not going too well at home, but think about yourself in college and making sure you go to class so you wont have to worry about when you get older, like your dad, if your going to get laid off, because you wont if you do GOOD IN COLLEGE. stop skipping classes, you'll regret it later.
EVERYBODY has boy/girl problems. its just part of these years of your life. what happened to you is nothing to be drinking about or thinking about killing yourself or staying awake for 3 days straight thinking about it. when i was cheated on, i didnt think about what i was going to do to myself, i thought about what i was going to do to HIM. HE cheated on me, HE made me feel like this, HE made me feel dirty, HE ashamed ME, he HUMILIATED ME. and HE was going to die. not me.
yeah, girls flirt, and i know me and Melissa did, but that is NATURUAL. i know we may not be shy like other girls and you may even think slutty, i dont know what you think, but i would HATE to have my head down everyday, not being able to look someone in the eyes, stuttering when i talked. when girls flirt, we feel good about ourselves.. confident and i dont feel ashamed anytime of the day i do it. this is the time in your life when you are going to figure out what you want to be and want you you dont want to be.
i hope you dont stop talking to me and not want to be my friend after this, if thats so then ill just roll my eyes and go on with my life because im not going to waste my time thinking about STUPID stuff like this.
holly.
Greg W.
March 6 at 1:32pm
'Just friends', I can deal with. It hurts, but I can deal with it.
'I can't do a long-distance relationship', I can completely understand.
What I can't deal with saying 'just friends' and then not acting like a friend at all. Please don't do that to me.
What I can't understand is 'if I know I can have a guy, I don't want him any more' and using that as an excuse for shitty behavior. Melissa still hasn't said sorry for what happened. She said 'I'm sorry IF I hurt you', as if it baffles her I could possibly be hurt.
I don't think you're a slut. I don't look down upon flirting. What I need you to understand is that I don't like you because I thought you liked me - in fact I was sure for quite some time neither of you liked me at all. I like you because of who you are. I like your sense of humor. You have killer taste in music. You're strong. You're smart. You have a fuckin' heart of gold. I melt when you smile. I would drive myself all the way down there just to see that smile. I can't stop thinking about you.
Distance should not factor in on how you feel about someone. Like I said earlier, I can understand not wanting to have a long-distance relationship. I can't understand being away from a person changing any feelings you might have for them.
I feel like I have a million other things I want to say, but I can't seem put together the words to communicate them. I either have slight alcohol poisoning or the flu, because I can't even keep down water. I'm going to go lay back down now.
Have a good day.
Greg W.
March 6 at 1:34pm
OH. And everyone who's read that seems to misunderstand the crap about suicide. I was pretty damn drunk by that time, and it was way more 'life is so precious and short' rather than 'I hate my life I wanna kill myself'. So don't worry about me.
Holly W.
March 6 at 11:25pm
OF COURSE I STILL WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND. i am already working on your other package to send, once i get my letter from you of course. and i dont pretend to be someone's friend.. i think youre a great person, Greg. you make me smile everytime we talk. it never fails.
I thought you were the cutest of all the boys because i mean.. look at you. handsome face, your too funny for your own good, youre a genius, nice build.. everything about you attracts a girl. im sure there are TONS of girls at western wanting you right now. like that whitney girl, im sure she flirts with you every chance she gets.
I will tell you somthing though, but you cant tell Melissa or no one else, because i didnt tell anyone about it. NO ONE, OKAY? i did like you for a while.. and then you know what happened? i realized you liked Melissa because she would come in my room after a night with you and tell me all these things you all did and then finally to the big "it". i could tell Mary knew my feelings, but she never asked.
but who knows what will happen waaay later in life...
Greg W.
March 7 at 4:14pm
I need you understand - though I don't know if you can, because I'm not sure I do - that what I had with Melissa was anything but normal. I was... in a bad place... and she was there to listen. Someone I thought could understand the way I felt and someone to confide in. I never wanted things to get the way they did; she made the first move and I was crazily uncomfortable with it. I wasn't interested in her in that way at all. But then after that, my hormones started thinking for me and though in my heart I knew what was happening wasn't something I wanted, I did it anyway. I regretted it as soon as it happened.
Then she changed. She became judgmental, impatient, intolerant. I kept getting mixed signals from her, and I already had too many mixed feelings about her. We don't have very much in common in the first place. She did things I certainly didn't approve of. She said things that really scared me sometimes, and worry that there were people who actually think these things. Whatever emotional bond I had with her before "it" happened was shattered, and I was put in a worse place than I had been before. Of course, I tried to do what had worked the first time; I tried to spend time with her and tried to make things the way they were when she was comeone who understood me. But she didn't. You were there at the 'Never Have I Ever' game. She got personal, insulting, and downright mean. I could swear I saw pure disgust when she looked at me.
I know realize I was played like the fool I was. She had told me what I wanted to hear. Acted the way I wanted her to act. She pulled the veil over my eyes to get what she wanted and tossed it when she was done.
I never did 'like' her in that way, Holly. I was confused and she took advantage of me.
I've always liked you. I liked you the minute we got to spend any real time together. I would've always preferred the company of both of you to just Melissa, and cherished the very short times just you and I had. But you were reserved and I couldn't open up with my problems to you like I could Melissa. I wanted to look strong for you. I didn't want you to see any weakness. I didn't care if Melissa saw weakness. Melissa was a friend I thought would understand, not an interest.
I'm sorry it played out this way. I wish now more than ever I could go back and change it, but I can't. All I can do is do my best to help you understand.
I might have more to say, but right now my laptop is almost dead, I'm spent, and I have to go catch my ride home.
I miss you, Holly.
Greg W.
March 7 at 9:58pm
Alright. I've said my piece on the past. I don't think I want to ever talk about it again. I suppose it's best we move on, be 'just friends' and see what happens down the road.
I'll get back to writing your letter.
I then talked to her on Facebook Chat and she 'agreed', and we got to talking like we had been for ages. So I got the impression things we going to work out.
The very next day I talked to her on Chat again. It was a good talk, much longer than usual. But then I find out that she doesn't WANT to come back to college at all. Her reasons make sense, but I still feel a bit betrayed - perhaps selfishly - and angry about this.
Anyways, I wrote her letter and sent her the Valentine's chocolates I had bought but not sent earlier as a birthday present.
Am I making a mistake by still pursuing this? General advice? Malaise? Suggestions? Insults? . . . Cake?
P.S - Please ignore the suicide crap; that's not what I'm asking about and I don't want that to distract from what I do want help on.
I apologize ahead of time.
HOWEVER, I've been told it's a very compelling story, so hopefully you'll make it through without getting too lost.
Here we go:
EDIT: Oh yeah, be warned there is some vulgar language ahead.
Greg says (12:47 AM):
So these two girls, Holly and Melissa, were (metaphorically) all over my nuts last semester
Greg says (12:47 AM):
They even came up with a game for which was attracting me more, a point system incorporated.
Greg says (12:48 AM):
Ended up, because she was more open, and I'm a very, VERY keep-to-myself kinda guy
Greg says (12:48 AM):
I was spending nights with Melissa.
Greg says (12:48 AM):
And I don't mean in the sexual way in the least
Greg says (12:49 AM):
I'm not trying to deceive you in any way; we seriously did not even make any contact in bed until like the 3rd night
Bill says (12:49 AM):
Okay
Greg says (12:49 AM):
Watched movies, talked, drank, spilled my mother fucking guts out and made the best effort to pay attention to her story and remember.
Greg says (12:49 AM):
I mean GUTS
Greg says (12:49 AM):
Stuff you don't tell anybody
Greg says (12:49 AM):
We know way more about each other than should be legal now
Greg says (12:50 AM):
After about the third night, I mentioned - a little inebriated - that my favorite thing in the world was CUDDLING.
Greg says (12:50 AM):
And I wasn't being smart/flirty/devious
Greg says (12:50 AM):
I was/am serious.
Greg says (12:50 AM):
Cuddling is AMAZING.
Greg says (12:50 AM):
Anyways.
Greg says (12:51 AM):
She immediately cuddled up next to me, and we spent the next 3-4 days like this
Greg says (12:51 AM):
Literally.
Greg says (12:51 AM):
I did not go to class for two weeks. She did not go to class.
Greg says (12:51 AM):
I did not sleep. She slept some.
Greg says (12:51 AM):
The only time we were apart was sleeping and eating.
Greg says (12:51 AM):
Even then it was a mix of things.
Greg says (12:52 AM):
After a week or so, things got sexual.
Greg says (12:52 AM):
Of course.
Greg says (12:52 AM):
I became the pursuer (sp?)
Greg says (12:53 AM):
I 'played' with her some
Greg says (12:53 AM):
Though she already wanted me.
Greg says (12:53 AM):
Shit she even told me.
Greg says (12:53 AM):
I wouldn't let her.
Greg says (12:54 AM):
A few days after I 'played' with her, she 'played ' with me, and I literally said "fuck it" and went for gold, if you know what I mean.
Bill says (12:54 AM):
You found her lucky charms
Greg says (12:54 AM):
It was amazing. It was awkward. It was amazingly awkward.
Greg says (12:54 AM):
It was horrible.
Greg says (12:54 AM):
I was sober as a judge, so was she.
Greg says (12:55 AM):
I was a virgin.
Greg says (12:55 AM):
She was a 3-time bet.
Greg says (12:55 AM):
*vet
Greg says (12:55 AM):
She didn't talk to me for a goddamn week and a half.
Greg says (12:56 AM):
Can you imagine going from spending almost two weeks with someone - every waking moment with that person, spilling everything you possibly can - to going to not seeing this person for a WEEK AND A HALF?
Greg says (12:56 AM):
Especially after losing your virginity.
Bill says (12:56 AM):
Damn
Greg says (12:57 AM):
Goddamn week and a half of not speaking to her or SEEING her.
Greg says (12:57 AM):
Thanksgiving break telling my cousins about it didnt' help
Greg says (12:57 AM):
*didn't
Greg says (12:57 AM):
Got back.
Greg says (12:57 AM):
Tried to spend some time with her.
Greg says (12:57 AM):
Let me introduce Michael.
Greg says (12:58 AM):
He was her muscular, fucked-up, kinda jock, kinda funny-guy, but not too smart, FUCK BUDDY.
Greg says (12:58 AM):
She told me the day we saw each other for the first time in so long, that she was 'pretty much done with him'
Greg says (12:59 AM):
"he's acting like an asshole, fucked up all the time, and I don't want to have anything to do with him."
Greg says (12:59 AM):
I spent the next hour or so with her, before I went to go eat
Greg says (12:59 AM):
Came back, we popped in a movie I hadn't seen and she loved
Greg says (12:59 AM):
She was really apprehensive about everything
Greg says (1:00 AM):
I figured she was still just feeling weird about what we did
Greg says (1:00 AM):
Considering it really was too early
Greg says (1:00 AM):
About 3/4ths through the movie, Michael calls her and wants to come up
Greg says (1:00 AM):
She lets him.
Greg says (1:00 AM):
She tells me, "Michael's coming up. OKAY???"
Greg says (1:01 AM):
I just shrugged and tried to focus on the movie.
Greg says (1:01 AM):
He got up there, he was fucked up as hell.
Greg says (1:01 AM):
And this is ME saying this; he was FUCKED. UP.
Greg says (1:01 AM):
Started kissing on her and everything.
Greg says (1:01 AM):
WITH ME THERE
Greg says (1:01 AM):
I can hear smooching behind me for the rest of the movie
Greg says (1:01 AM):
I'm steaming.
Greg says (1:02 AM):
The movie's over - because it kicked ass and I had to see the ending - and I get my shoes on as fast as possible and get the fuck out of there.
Bill says (1:02 AM):
Wait
Bill says (1:02 AM):
She started kissing on him, too?
Greg says (1:02 AM):
Yes.
Bill says (1:02 AM):
wtf
Greg says (1:03 AM):
I freak out and proceed to break my hand on the elevator wall.
Greg says (1:03 AM):
That's enough for now.
Greg says (1:03 AM):
I need a break.
Bill says (1:03 AM):
While you take a break, I'll post all this
Greg says (1:04 AM):
Hilaroius.
Greg says (1:04 AM):
*Hilarious
Greg says (1:05 AM):
No comments?
Greg says (1:06 AM):
Fuck if I'm going to tell you any more
Bill says (1:08 AM):
Oh, I was doing something else
Bill says (1:08 AM):
There's not much to comment on since everything's straightforward
Greg says (1:09 AM):
Sorry
Bill says (1:09 AM):
For what?
Greg says (1:09 AM):
For "Greg says (1:05 AM):
No comments?
Greg says (1:06 AM):
Fuck if I'm going to tell you any more"
Bill says (1:09 AM):
oh, s'ok
Greg says (1:10 AM):
Anyways
Greg says (1:10 AM):
So the next day
Greg says (1:10 AM):
She texts me or I text her, I don't remember
Greg says (1:10 AM):
In the ensuing text-convo
Greg says (1:10 AM):
She blames me for 'cockblocking'
Greg says (1:10 AM):
Insinuates I 'know how she is with boys'
Greg says (1:11 AM):
And basically cuts me down about the night before
Greg says (1:11 AM):
Not sure about the rest of the semester
Greg says (1:11 AM):
Things were kinda in a middle ground
Greg says (1:12 AM):
I was in hella bad shape, with my seizures and sleep disorders
Greg says (1:13 AM):
Didn't help about a week before Halloween when I was in particularly bad shape and needed to stay with her, and my seizures and ticks were freaking her out and she went and stayed with Michael
Greg says (1:13 AM):
Not sure how long later
Greg says (1:13 AM):
Oh
Greg says (1:14 AM):
It was Finals Week, and I was up on her floor for some goddamn reason
Greg says (1:14 AM):
Ended up just me and her in the community room, she had been drinking - you have to understand that this girl is ridiculous when she drinks; we've had to pull her off many random guys when drunk. Never sex, but making out.
Greg says (1:14 AM):
Anyways
Greg says (1:15 AM):
We were in the communiy room watching the Tenaicious D movie
Greg says (1:15 AM):
And she was getting frisky.
Greg says (1:15 AM):
And God knows I half wanted her
Greg says (1:15 AM):
After the movie she started kissing me and I said 'not here, let's go to your room'
Greg says (1:15 AM):
Gathered up all the stuff
Greg says (1:15 AM):
Went to her room
Greg says (1:16 AM):
Started making out
Greg says (1:16 AM):
And I just... couldn't.
Greg says (1:16 AM):
I was too hurt.
Greg says (1:16 AM):
I shook her off me and said I can't and left.
Greg says (1:16 AM):
I went up to the top floor to walk around and she txt'ed me to come back because she would behave if I did.
Greg says (1:16 AM):
We popped in Zoolander and talked some.
Greg says (1:17 AM):
I got back up in bed with her and cuddled somewhat like before... what I wanted to do.
Greg says (1:17 AM):
We fell asleep, apart from each other, after some awkward conversation about what had happenened
Greg says (1:18 AM):
*happened.
Greg says (1:18 AM):
Okay
Greg says (1:18 AM):
Break.
Greg says (1:18 AM):
Questions? Comments?
Bill says (1:18 AM):
Fuckkk, suspense
Bill says (1:22 AM):
Don't leave me hangin' bro
Greg says (1:23 AM):
M'kay
Greg says (1:23 AM):
Actually, that's about what's gone down with Melissa
Greg says (1:23 AM):
Since then
Greg says (1:23 AM):
I've tried to text her and talk to her on facebook, wanting to be AT LEAST friends
Greg says (1:24 AM):
Over Christmas break
Bill says (1:24 AM):
Is this the girl you sent chocolates to?
Greg says (1:24 AM):
No.
Greg says (1:24 AM):
WAAAAAAAAAAIT.
Greg says (1:24 AM):
OVER CHRISTMAS BREAK
Bill says (1:24 AM):
OKAY
Greg says (1:24 AM):
Me and Holly started talking a lot more on the internet.
Greg says (1:25 AM):
Remember, this is Melissa that all this previous shit happened. And Holly and Melissa had a POINT SYSTEM based on my INTEREST going.
Greg says (1:25 AM):
There's certainly more I'm leaving out, but yeah.
Greg says (1:25 AM):
OVER CHRISTMAS BREAK
Greg says (1:25 AM):
Me and Holly start talking. A LOT.
Greg says (1:26 AM):
I'm sure you remember crazy tons o' comments on my status' and such.
Bill says (1:26 AM):
yeah
Greg says (1:26 AM):
Ridiculous, flirty things.
Greg says (1:26 AM):
It was getting crazy.
Bill says (1:26 AM):
"I THINK THERE'S A WORD FOR THAT Greg"
Bill says (1:27 AM):
Anyway, continue
Greg says (1:27 AM):
Haha
Greg says (1:27 AM):
That was actually waaaaaaaaay before ANY of this happened.
Greg says (1:27 AM):
Seriously.
Greg says (1:27 AM):
I was up there watching movies with both of them
Greg says (1:27 AM):
I've always felt more attracted to Holly.
Greg says (1:28 AM):
But she goes to bed so early and she's so... I don't want to say secretive... but more reserved.
Greg says (1:28 AM):
And it's hard for me to be the one to open up.
Greg says (1:28 AM):
Anyways
Greg says (1:28 AM):
Christmas break.
Greg says (1:28 AM):
Me and Holly, online, flirting at a ridiculous level.
Greg says (1:29 AM):
She's amazingly funny.
Greg says (1:29 AM):
Melissa pops in now and then, I try to ignore her.
Greg says (1:29 AM):
I get pissed off one night near the end of winter break and go see The Unborn with her
Greg says (1:30 AM):
Turns out, it's a 'going away... NOT' party for her
Greg says (1:30 AM):
Since she failed all her classes (partly because of me) and isn't actually going back to WKU
Greg says (1:30 AM):
*)\
Greg says (1:30 AM):
FUCK
Greg says (1:30 AM):
*)
Greg says (1:30 AM):
And it's a bunch of her friends. Including her first, and ex, JD.
Greg says (1:31 AM):
I meet the one goofy fuck she's been talking about this ENTIRE time.
Greg says (1:31 AM):
Like, you have no idea.
Greg says (1:31 AM):
I know that one time he wanted so badly to put an ice cube in her vajayjay, and she let him, and it hurt badly.
Greg says (1:31 AM):
I know far too much about Melissa.
Bill says (1:32 AM):
what the fuck
Greg says (1:32 AM):
I know that all their sex was goofy and light-hearted, and ours was very passionate.
Greg says (1:32 AM):
And she hasn't had anything like that.
Greg says (1:32 AM):
ANYWAYS
Greg says (1:33 AM):
So I meet the dude, and he's this short-dude-with-a-deep-voice dude.
Greg says (1:33 AM):
Kinda cool.
Greg says (1:33 AM):
I actually connect with him decently, and I can tell he's far more jealous about what he's heard about me than what I've heard about him
Greg says (1:33 AM):
Maybe it's just that I had been up for 36 hours at the time, maybe not... who knows?
Greg says (1:34 AM):
Anyways
Greg says (1:35 AM):
Movie sucks, I connect more with her bestie Jessa than her (Melissa) and I go get fucked up in my parent's office that one time I posted on [REMOVED] about breaking my awakeness-record
Greg says (1:35 AM):
I get notice from Holly after that at some time, that her parents aren't letting her come back, because she failed one class.
Greg says (1:35 AM):
One mother fucking class.
Greg says (1:36 AM):
I want to beat her parents into a pulp.
Greg says (1:36 AM):
I feel this seriously emotional about Holly.
Greg says (1:36 AM):
I guarantee we would be in a serious relationship, the bane of all other realtionships, had her parents let her come back.
Greg says (1:37 AM):
I'm falling for this girl away from her, right?
Greg says (1:37 AM):
Anyways.
Greg says (1:37 AM):
So I get back THIS semester, finding my room decorated with Chuckie Cheese - which is where Melissa works - ball pit balls
Greg says (1:38 AM):
I hang out with Melissa and Holly for the night, while they're packing up their stuff to leave for the semester. (THEY'RE ''''BOTH'''' GONE, HAVE YOU REALIZED THAT?!?!)
Greg says (1:39 AM):
And we play, God forbid, Never Have I Ever.
Greg says (1:39 AM):
Melissa gets personal.
Greg says (1:39 AM):
"Never have I ever lost my virginity to someone I didn't LOVE"
Greg says (1:39 AM):
I kept my fingers up.
Greg says (1:40 AM):
Otherwise, though she's been drinking, Holly stays generally apart from me, though I moved up on the bed with her.
Greg says (1:40 AM):
She knows what happened with Melissa and I, for sure.
Greg says (1:40 AM):
If not the details, just the most condemning parts.
Greg says (1:41 AM):
More of Melissa's evil shenanigans pursue, I hate her more, feel more ashamed.
Greg says (1:41 AM):
They both leave.
Greg says (1:41 AM):
Without a word.
Greg says (1:41 AM):
I was supposed to help them move things out.
Greg says (1:42 AM):
I texted Melissa - Holly doesn't get texts, otherwise I would, endlessely - about calling me to help her move shit out.
Greg says (1:42 AM):
Fire alarms go off early morning, and midday.
Greg says (1:42 AM):
I get four hours of sleep in 72 hours.
Greg says (1:42 AM):
They never call me.
Greg says (1:43 AM):
I even see Melissa in the lobby after the first fire alarm, walking right past me, ignoring me completely, and leaving to get breakfast.
Greg says (1:44 AM):
Since then, it's been a mixture of hate and longing for the physical closeness of Melissa, and the emotional closeness of Holly, that's been tormenting, and what's inspired the few topic on [REMOVED] about my health.
Greg says (1:44 AM):
That's it.
Greg says (1:44 AM):
That's all I can tell now.
Greg says (1:44 AM):
I'm glad as hell it's out.
Greg says (1:44 AM):
I need input.
Bill says (1:44 AM):
Hmmmm
Greg says (1:45 AM):
I have Holly calling me today, and chocolates for her bought, and Melissa calling me on Super Bowl Sunday and talking to me on MSN a few days ago about financial bullshit
Greg says (1:45 AM):
Endless nights spent wakeful on these two.,
Bill says (1:45 AM):
What do they look like?
Greg says (1:45 AM):
Aha.
Greg says (1:45 AM):
Ahahahhahahahahahahahahhahahahaha.
Greg says (1:45 AM):
You asshole.
Bill says (1:45 AM):
Greg says (1:46 AM):
Women are illogicl creatures.
Greg says (1:46 AM):
Men, naturally logical.
Greg says (1:46 AM):
It's not fair.
Greg says (1:46 AM):
*illogical
Greg says (1:46 AM):
I've had about 8 shots by now
Greg says (1:46 AM):
Otherwise I wouldn't let all this go.
Greg says (1:46 AM):
Better save this.
Greg says (1:47 AM):
I NEED input, too.
Greg says (1:47 AM):
Fuck. I might post it.
Bill says (1:47 AM):
Maybe you should drive out to her place every weekend?
Greg says (1:47 AM):
Am I just a fucking emotionally retarded fuck?
Greg says (1:48 AM):
Or have I really been through something fucked up?
Bill says (1:48 AM):
Well, her having sex with you there after you've already done it with her if pretty fucked up
Greg says (1:48 AM):
Something that justifies these feelings... these discrepincies...
Greg says (1:48 AM):
WAIT
Greg says (1:48 AM):
What?
Bill says (1:48 AM):
=/
Bill says (1:49 AM):
I don't even know what I said, LET ME REPHRASE
Bill says (1:49 AM):
Her having sex with that Michael guy in front of you was pretty fucked up
Greg says (1:49 AM):
She didn't.
Greg says (1:49 AM):
Well
Greg says (1:50 AM):
As far as she told me
Bill says (1:50 AM):
Well, you know
Greg says (1:50 AM):
She felt shit enough about how I left that she shoved him off her
Greg says (1:50 AM):
BUT SHE DIDN'T TRY THAT HARD WHILE I WAS THERE
Greg says (1:50 AM):
Gotta piss
Bill says (1:50 AM):
k
Greg says (1:52 AM):
Apparently
Greg says (1:52 AM):
I've forgotten some.
Greg says (1:52 AM):
It was unprotected.
Bill says (1:52 AM):
hm?
Greg says (1:52 AM):
Me and Melissa.
Greg says (1:52 AM):
And after, she was bringing up her missing her period for a few days every chance she got
Greg says (1:53 AM):
In the elevator, just me and her, and in her bedroom, with lots of our friends I guarantee we - at least I - didn't want to know
Greg says (1:54 AM):
Later, finally, "I got my period! Finally! RIGHT Greg!?!?" In front of a bunch of friends who already think she's a whore because of how she acts when drunk
Greg says (1:54 AM):
Did I mention she's a gemini?
Bill says (1:55 AM):
Does that matter?
Greg says (1:55 AM):
A two-faced CUNT
Bill says (1:55 AM):
lol
Greg says (1:55 AM):
As soon as she got what she wanted, she turned personalities and didn't want anything to do with me
Greg says (1:55 AM):
Two-faced BITCH.
Greg says (1:55 AM):
Fuck it.
Greg says (1:55 AM):
Fuck her.
Greg says (1:56 AM):
I was manipluated to the worst degree and suffer from it hardcore. Don't lol.
Bill says (1:56 AM):
I'm laughing at the Gemini and Two-faced connection
Greg says (1:56 AM):
I became emotionally attached. AS A GUY. And she left me hanging.
Greg says (1:57 AM):
So now.
Greg says (1:57 AM):
That's the end of the 'story'.
Greg says (1:57 AM):
Now is present time.
Greg says (1:57 AM):
She hasn't talked to me since she saw me for that
Greg says (1:57 AM):
*'never have I ever' game where she got bitchy and personal
Greg says (1:58 AM):
Except for calling me on the fucking Super Bowl, asking if I'd return something for Michael.
Greg says (1:58 AM):
Since then, nothing.
Greg says (1:58 AM):
Other than that, it's been all Holly.
Greg says (1:58 AM):
Except for the stray comment on Facebook I purposely ignor.
Greg says (1:58 AM):
*ignore.
Greg says (1:58 AM):
Cunt.
Greg says (1:59 AM):
Now I'm trying to keep things up with Holly because I REALLY LIKE her (aka, might be 'The One')
Greg says (2:00 AM):
And things are shaky partly because her parents won't let her come back, and she knows what's happened (physically) between me and Melissa.
Greg says (2:00 AM):
That.
Greg says (2:00 AM):
Is.
Greg says (2:00 AM):
IT.
Greg says (2:00 AM):
Good enough.
Greg says (2:00 AM):
?
Bill says (2:00 AM):
Yes
Greg says (2:00 AM):
Have fun?
Greg says (2:00 AM):
Entertaining?
Greg says (2:00 AM):
It will be a novel some day.
Bill says (2:00 AM):
It was like a big wtf with all that Melissa shit
Greg says (2:00 AM):
Different characters.
Greg says (2:01 AM):
Finished story. Since all this isn't exactly 'resolved' right now.
Bill says (2:01 AM):
Based on a true story. Only the names of the charactes, places, and events have changed.
Greg says (2:01 AM):
But this is why I'm so GODDAMN FUCKED UP right now.
Greg says (2:01 AM):
Cut me some Goddamn SLACK>
Greg says (2:01 AM):
Goddamnit Miguel.
Bill says (2:01 AM):
I think you should do what the Eagles did.
Bill says (2:01 AM):
Take it easy
Greg says (2:02 AM):
I've seriously considered suicide.
Bill says (2:02 AM):
Whooooooooooa
Greg says (2:02 AM):
Seriously.
Bill says (2:02 AM):
Because of a girl?
Greg says (2:02 AM):
NO.
Greg says (2:02 AM):
Not just because of that.
Greg says (2:02 AM):
Because of everything compounded on this.
Greg says (2:02 AM):
I
Greg says (2:02 AM):
*I've thought of the ways it would all end.
Greg says (2:03 AM):
How insanely easy and impulsive it would be to slit my throat. But also how I KNOW I could not do it.,
Greg says (2:03 AM):
No matter how much I drink.
Greg says (2:03 AM):
It's certainly not because of this.
Greg says (2:04 AM):
Things aren't going so hot at home.
Greg says (2:04 AM):
My dad might be getting laid off, the ice storm butt-fucked that part of the state, I fucked up last semester and there's basically no chace of scholarship
Greg says (2:04 AM):
You have no idea how easy it would be to end all of it.
Greg says (2:05 AM):
I've been there with the knife, considering everything. And closed it.
Greg says (2:05 AM):
I have it now.
Greg says (2:05 AM):
Life it so precious.
Greg says (2:05 AM):
You have no idea.
Bill says (2:07 AM):
How would your parents deal with you being dead and shit?
Greg says (2:08 AM):
That's part of what kept me from doing 'it'.
Greg says (2:08 AM):
Thinking of how my family/closest friends woudl react.
Greg says (2:08 AM):
I've been SO close, though.
2/18/2009 2:58:30 AM Greg *red+u Bill About Melissa
2/18/2009 2:58:42 AM Greg *red+u Bill I worry sometimes, because maybe I've made the wrong judgement here and there?
2/18/2009 2:59:07 AM Greg *red+u Bill Maybe she didn't talk to me for that week or so after because she was confused about what she wanted.
2/18/2009 2:59:10 AM Greg *red+u Bill Don't talk right now.
2/18/2009 2:59:27 AM Greg *red+u Bill To be honest, I never did look back at Melissa and Michael.
2/18/2009 2:59:59 AM Greg *red+u Bill She did try to stop him. He was drunk as hell. Of course, it was "stop, not right now, I've got company, c'mon... please?"
2/18/2009 3:00:08 AM Greg *red+u Bill He wasn't getting violent or anything, just wouldn't stop smooching.
2/18/2009 3:00:14 AM Greg *red+u Bill Eventually she stopped trying.
2/18/2009 3:00:37 AM Greg *red+u Bill I don't know if she ever was kissing him back, and I'm still not sure what happened after I left.
2/18/2009 3:00:44 AM Greg *red+u Bill All I know is that I was pissed.
2/18/2009 3:01:04 AM Greg *red+u Bill But later, a few days, maybe the next day
2/18/2009 3:01:14 AM Greg *red+u Bill She told me that her and Michael were done completely.
2/18/2009 3:01:25 AM Greg *red+u Bill That they got in a fight over what happened then.
2/18/2009 3:01:47 AM Greg *red+u Bill Oh, and when she said that she kicked him out after I left, it was because she felt guilty about me.
2/18/2009 3:02:52 AM Greg *red+u Bill See, I can understand why she'd be confused and want time alone. I mean, I won't go over her entire relationship history - though I really could :/ - I'll just say she hasn't exactly had a real relationship since her first fell through kind-of dramatically.
2/18/2009 3:03:12 AM Greg *red+u Bill Not done.
2/18/2009 3:03:50 AM Greg *red+u Bill This Michael character was her 'friend with benefits' after all. And I think they did have a kind-of emotional bond.
2/18/2009 3:04:10 AM Greg *red+u Bill I remember her telling me a few times that she thought the reason she liked him so much is because he is so much like her first boyfriend.
2/18/2009 3:04:59 AM Greg *red+u Bill And that they had an agreement since they met that both would be there for each other if they were ever lonely, because they'd both just gotten out of bad relationships.
2/18/2009 3:05:41 AM Greg *red+u Bill There was once I remember her saying that I was a catch.
2/18/2009 3:05:54 AM Greg *red+u Bill I was next door, with two of my better friends up here, and she was in the doorway.
2/18/2009 3:06:09 AM Greg *red+u Bill She said something like 'Joe, you're not a catch. Greg, now, he's a catch.'
2/18/2009 3:06:27 AM Greg *red+u Bill She was always flirting. But then again it seemed like a running joke at the time.
2/18/2009 3:06:33 AM Greg *red+u Bill This was way before anything happened.
2/18/2009 3:07:23 AM Greg *red+u Bill Every chance they got - both Holly and Melissa - the running joke with our little posse - think roughly one similar to That '70s Show - was that I was the only one they liked any more.
2/18/2009 3:07:46 AM Greg *red+u Bill It's still a secret from everyone else.
2/18/2009 3:08:00 AM Greg *red+u Bill I've even been asked by them and had to lie to their faces.
2/18/2009 3:08:05 AM Greg *red+u Bill At Melissa's request.
2/18/2009 3:08:15 AM Greg *red+u Bill Though I don't really want them to know, either.
2/18/2009 3:08:16 AM Greg *red+u Bill However.
2/18/2009 3:08:25 AM Greg *red+u Bill After this, after I've already had to lie
2/18/2009 3:09:17 AM Greg *red+u Bill One of her friends up on her floor blurts out in Michael's company something like "...[regarding me] he's probably just acting weird because Melissa was his first"
2/18/2009 3:09:45 AM Greg *red+u Bill Melissa was so embarrassed, she tells me, she had to run to her room and lock herself in. She'd never been so embarrassed in her life.
2/18/2009 3:10:23 AM Greg *red+u Bill A while later she let Michael in and told him all about it. He didn't really care. He was actually pretty nonchalant and even today tries to say '
2/18/2009 3:10:33 AM Greg *red+u Bill *tries to say 'hey' every time he sees me.
2/18/2009 3:10:59 AM Greg *red+u Bill I forced myself to talk to him for the first time ever - after seeing him around plenty, that is - in Subway not but three weeks ago.
2/18/2009 3:11:02 AM Greg *red+u Bill First time ever.
2/18/2009 3:11:09 AM Greg *red+u Bill I couldn't look him in the eye.
2/18/2009 3:11:48 AM Greg *red+u Bill Anyways. This friend that blurted that out, she's a loud, chubby, annoying bitch that none of the guys like, and now never talk to since Holly and Melissa are gone.
2/18/2009 3:12:09 AM Greg *red+u Bill She also stalked me for a bit there around Halloween, and I know for a fact she had a crush on me.
2/18/2009 3:12:40 AM Greg *red+u Bill So the fact that Melissa told HER about what happened between me and her, especially the part about it being my first time, also pisses me off.
2/18/2009 3:13:22 AM Greg *red+u Bill Thankfully she hasn't said anything to any of the guys yet. They probably wouldn't be surprised, actually.
2/18/2009 3:13:41 AM Greg *red+u Bill But I still don't want them to know, considering their opinion of Melissa.
2/18/2009 3:13:55 AM Greg *red+u Bill Oh wait.
2/18/2009 3:14:09 AM Greg *red+u Bill I did tell my one friend Jerry about it, though.
2/18/2009 3:14:13 AM Greg *red+u Bill Which is amazingly weird.
2/18/2009 3:15:09 AM Greg *red+u Bill Because back before I was hanging out with Melissa much at all, and back during football when the whole posse was still all together and in Melissa's room watching movies, Jerry and her made out.
2/18/2009 3:15:15 AM Greg *red+u Bill She stopped him.
2/18/2009 3:15:20 AM Greg *red+u Bill I know this because I was also there.
2/18/2009 3:15:31 AM Greg *red+u Bill Well, actually, we were all there tongue.gif
2/18/2009 3:15:42 AM Greg *red+u Bill It's a funny story that we come back to every now and then.
2/18/2009 3:16:01 AM Greg *red+u Bill We were all fucked up after one of the first football games and watching some movie in Melissa's room
2/18/2009 3:16:49 AM Greg *red+u Bill We didn't know what Melissa was like when drunk - did I mention she makes out with ANYBODY when drunk? Yeah. - and we hear them on the top bunk and stand up in time to see Melissa back off and stop him.
2/18/2009 3:16:58 AM Greg *red+u Bill Anyways.
2/18/2009 3:17:03 AM Greg *red+u Bill Wait.
2/18/2009 3:17:03 AM Greg *red+u Bill Shit.
2/18/2009 3:17:09 AM Greg *red+u Bill Back to Melissa and Jerry, actually.
2/18/2009 3:17:28 AM Greg *red+u Bill Both Melissa and Holly liked Jerry, actually.
2/18/2009 3:17:54 AM Greg *red+u Bill And obviously Jerry liked Melissa.
2/18/2009 3:18:31 AM Greg *red+u Bill So after 'it' happened, way after, when we had the Finals party with that shit-ton of alcohol.
2/18/2009 3:18:43 AM Greg *red+u Bill Me and Jerry went on a walk for no particular reason and I decided to tell him.
2/18/2009 3:18:56 AM Greg *red+u Bill Now he hates her, pretty much.
2/18/2009 3:19:08 AM Greg *red+u Bill But he doesn't know details like you all do. He just knows it happened.
2/18/2009 3:28:11 AM Greg *red+u Bill But I know he still liked her for a while, until I think they were showing interest in me, and then he got bitter and didn't want anything to do with them.
2/18/2009 3:28:20 AM Greg *red+u Bill Thing is, they talked about him still after that.
2/18/2009 3:28:38 AM Greg *red+u Bill "What's Jerry's problem? I really like him, why doesn't he like us any more?"
2/18/2009 3:28:43 AM Greg *red+u Bill - both Holly and Melissa
2/18/2009 3:28:57 AM Greg *red+u Bill I think now they don't really like him because of the way he's acted, but yeah, that was there for a while.
Greg *red+u says (3:36 AM):
There's stuff I left out of the text I just remembered.
Bill says (3:36 AM):
oh shit\
Greg *red+u says (3:36 AM):
You know, the day after the Michael/Me/Melissa incident.
Greg *red+u says (3:36 AM):
It was about 5 texts back and forth, pretty big texts.
Greg *red+u says (3:37 AM):
Major points coming from her were 'you know how I am with boys', 'you were cockblocking', and the part I didn't mention before was 'damnit Greg, we are and never were anything'
Greg *red+u says (3:37 AM):
*are nothing
Greg *red+u says (3:38 AM):
I did send her something like 'you were basically fucking behind me'
Greg *red+u says (3:38 AM):
The strange thing
Greg *red+u says (3:38 AM):
Was that when she said 'we are nothing and never we anything'.
Greg *red+u says (3:38 AM):
It hurt. But...
Greg *red+u says (3:38 AM):
It also was a relief.
Greg *red+u says (3:39 AM):
It actually kind of made me feel better.
Greg *red+u says (3:39 AM):
I'm not sure why.
Greg *red+u says (3:40 AM):
Oh
Greg *red+u says (3:41 AM):
And, this is minor, but it shows a bit how Melissa can be two-faced as hell
Greg *red+u says (3:41 AM):
She got in big trouble with alcohol a while back, maybe a year before college.
Greg *red+u says (3:41 AM):
Taking drinks into movies, to work, to school.
Greg *red+u says (3:42 AM):
Had to go to therapy or something.
Greg *red+u says (3:42 AM):
Has horrible credit now because she was buying so much alcohol.
Greg *red+u says (3:42 AM):
Anyways, she went to therapy and got 'better'.
Greg *red+u says (3:42 AM):
When we first met her, she said she didn't drink any more.
Greg *red+u says (3:42 AM):
She drank some, obviously.
Greg *red+u says (3:43 AM):
Got back to drinking like a normal person. Perhaps a bit more.
Greg *red+u says (3:43 AM):
But that's one of the things we would do, was drink and talk, just me and her. Not too much, and she never drank so much she got all whore-ish.
Greg *red+u says (3:44 AM):
A few weeks after 'it' happened, when I was trying to hang out with her to build back a friendship
Greg *red+u says (3:44 AM):
Actually, this was finals week.
Greg *red+u says (3:44 AM):
After I told Jerry and before she made out with me and I had to push her off.
Greg *red+u says (3:44 AM):
I went up there with some beer - for me - and she fucking got MAD at me.
Greg *red+u says (3:44 AM):
"I don't want that shit up here. I haven't drank in a month and I'm trying to quit, damnit!"
Greg *red+u says (3:45 AM):
Like, fucking MAD.
Greg *red+u says (3:45 AM):
Of course, not but a few days later, she's drunk and when it winds down to just me and her up, she's on me and I push her off and so on. You know that part.
Greg *red+u says (3:45 AM):
Fucking confusing girl, she is.
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Resolution (somewhat). I cut out some minor shit. This is the first time we've talked since the Superbowl, however long ago that was...
2/19/2009 5:30:37 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus It's been fucked up since Friday the 13th but that's it.
2/19/2009 5:30:44 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Even then you'd make it better.
2/19/2009 5:30:53 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u not any time soon...
2/19/2009 5:32:35 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u yeah v day was me and jd's aniversary and started off with my mom waking me ay 7 am screaming at me, then i had to work until about 11 30 pm, then went out and came home and passed out. not a good day... i was sick on top of that. but the good news was i made 100 bucks in tips this weekend when i usually dont make any
2/19/2009 5:32:48 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u this weekend was all fucked up for me
2/19/2009 5:33:00 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Sounds fun.
2/19/2009 5:33:02 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Alright.
2/19/2009 5:33:05 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Tell me now.
2/19/2009 5:33:17 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Do you still have feelings for JD, or what?
2/19/2009 5:33:25 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I know this could be hard.
2/19/2009 5:33:34 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u no, but he wants me so bad and i love it
2/19/2009 5:34:46 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u i got him good, new years we all got shit faced and i ended up making out with ryan (his best friend that i slept with that one time) and jimmie this black dude. and jd walked into the room and just stood there
2/19/2009 5:35:03 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Ryan?
2/19/2009 5:35:12 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u yeah. it was really bad
2/19/2009 5:35:32 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u but thats been my only slut moment since i have been home so im proud of that
2/19/2009 5:35:46 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus ...
2/19/2009 5:36:19 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus What do you consider me?
2/19/2009 5:36:30 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u a lunatic
2/19/2009 5:37:17 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus You know what I mean.
2/19/2009 5:37:39 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u your a good friend
2/19/2009 5:38:04 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus :)
2/19/2009 5:38:41 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus h'anyways
2/19/2009 5:39:34 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I miss you. I miss Holly. It's been total suck here so far.
2/19/2009 5:39:52 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u yeah, it sucks here too
2/19/2009 5:40:29 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus So everything got butt-fucked by that ice-storm, eh?
2/19/2009 5:40:40 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I know my house didn't get power until like, last week.
2/19/2009 5:40:51 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u yeah bad... i know people that still dont have power
2/19/2009 5:41:23 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus So Holly didn't just send me a letter and candies
2/19/2009 5:41:30 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus She sent me a book.
2/19/2009 5:42:06 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus A romance novel about 'Alan and Greg'. She though the 'Greg' character fit me perfectly. She was fucking right.
2/19/2009 5:42:24 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus She SENT me this book of hers to read.
2/19/2009 5:42:25 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u thats awesome
2/19/2009 5:42:32 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus It's freaking me out.
2/19/2009 5:42:38 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u riiight you told me that...
2/19/2009 5:42:54 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Because I sent her a Valentine's on FB and she hasn't really talked to me since Sunday.
2/19/2009 5:43:29 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u i havent heard from her in a while she is probably busy
2/19/2009 5:43:48 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I also bought her Valentine's Day choocolates.
2/19/2009 5:43:59 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus But got cold feet and haven't sent them....
2/19/2009 5:44:10 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u maybe you should do that
2/19/2009 5:44:40 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I was thinking, since what she said about the flowers, that I should save them for the next time we saw each other in person.
2/19/2009 5:44:56 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u how drunk are you right now
2/19/2009 5:45:00 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Not bad.
2/19/2009 5:45:06 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Why?
2/19/2009 5:45:19 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I was thinking this for a few days now....
2/19/2009 5:45:25 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u cause i have no idea what your talking about
2/19/2009 5:45:58 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus When we did the Never Have I Ever game, she - and you agreed - that flowers should be hand-delivered.
2/19/2009 5:46:10 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I was talking to my cousin about driving me down there for V-day.
2/19/2009 5:46:17 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Mofo wouldn't, though.
2/19/2009 5:46:39 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u ok now it makes sense
2/19/2009 5:47:30 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Yeah
2/19/2009 5:48:44 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Wow only .02
2/19/2009 5:48:49 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I've had like 10 shots by now.
2/19/2009 5:49:53 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Fuck this breathalyzer I'mma try again.
2/19/2009 5:50:10 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus ... .01
2/19/2009 5:50:15 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus lol
2/19/2009 5:50:36 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u it must not work all that good
2/19/2009 5:50:38 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Yeah .01 wtf.
2/19/2009 5:50:44 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Another shot coming up.
2/19/2009 5:51:24 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus There's like 2 shots left :(
2/19/2009 5:51:50 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u so did you finish your poem
2/19/2009 5:51:53 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Aha
2/19/2009 5:51:54 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Uh
2/19/2009 5:51:57 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I haven't started.
2/19/2009 5:54:00 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u somehow you always kepp me up late
2/19/2009 5:54:16 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus It's not me!
2/19/2009 5:54:17 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Hell
2/19/2009 5:54:37 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I was waking up at like 7:00am for three weeks until this last weekend
2/19/2009 5:54:54 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I was a good mofo and doing schoolwork and didn't miss a single class!
2/19/2009 5:55:01 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u ok well i am usually very asleep right now
2/19/2009 5:55:08 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u was...?
2/19/2009 5:55:11 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Drinking myself to sleep, yeah, but a good boy.
2/19/2009 5:55:15 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Was.
2/19/2009 5:55:30 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I've been back to my usual self these past few days.
2/19/2009 5:55:52 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Haven't gone to a single class all week. Knowing mised two assigments and one in-class quiz.
2/19/2009 5:56:04 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u why
2/19/2009 5:56:11 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I just fucking needed to sleep.
2/19/2009 5:57:05 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus So our story is going to be a novel someday.
2/19/2009 5:57:17 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u what story
2/19/2009 5:57:20 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Ours.
2/19/2009 5:57:34 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus The realtionship between me and you.
2/19/2009 5:57:43 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus It's unbeliveably novel.
2/19/2009 5:58:11 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Someday.
2/19/2009 5:58:20 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Probably like ten years from now.
2/19/2009 5:58:24 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u how do you know that
2/19/2009 5:58:48 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Because I've told... some people...
2/19/2009 5:58:53 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Names changed.
2/19/2009 5:59:14 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus But all the feedback I've gotten is that it's an amazingly compelling story.
2/19/2009 5:59:45 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u who is going to write it... Holly
2/19/2009 5:59:50 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Me.
2/19/2009 5:59:57 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Holly doesn't know all the details.
2/19/2009 6:00:11 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u well as long as i get the first copy
2/19/2009 6:00:20 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Aha okay
2/19/2009 6:00:56 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I mean, seriously.
2/19/2009 6:00:59 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Look at this.
2/19/2009 6:01:03 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus It's ridiculous.
2/19/2009 6:01:22 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u whats so ridiculous
2/19/2009 6:01:28 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Everything.
2/19/2009 6:02:14 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Think about it.
2/19/2009 6:02:28 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I got cought up with you, after your history, and you being caught up with Michael
2/19/2009 6:02:47 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus And I've fallen for Holly, who now is two and a half hours away unable to do anything.
2/19/2009 6:03:02 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I've prime material.
2/19/2009 6:03:24 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus What will be my third strike? Attempted suicide?
2/19/2009 6:03:36 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u i think you need to look at the big picture and realize its all just something that happened... none of it was a big deal
2/19/2009 6:03:53 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus It's just something that happened.
2/19/2009 6:03:58 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Something so novel'
2/19/2009 6:04:09 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I've gotten the feedback already.
2/19/2009 6:04:29 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus It's life.
2/19/2009 6:04:37 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus That's why it's prime material.
2/19/2009 6:04:41 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u who have you told all this too
2/19/2009 6:04:54 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Some... people.
2/19/2009 6:05:03 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Names changed. I remind you.
2/19/2009 6:05:18 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Some people I trust the opinion of.
2/19/2009 6:06:13 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u right well...
2/19/2009 6:06:44 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Would you like to read?
2/19/2009 6:06:52 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I know I've gotten only one opinion.
2/19/2009 6:06:59 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus One perspective.
2/19/2009 6:07:00 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u you already wrote it
2/19/2009 6:07:06 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Yeah, it's saved.
2/19/2009 6:07:22 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u 'well of course i want to read it
2/19/2009 6:07:30 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Any input; unbiased, is good input.
2/19/2009 6:07:39 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Of course it'll be a bit biased.
2/19/2009 6:08:02 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus And remember, I was a bit inebrated when I finally got all of it out.
2/19/2009 6:08:28 AM Greg *red+u sends C:\Users\Owner\Documents\EVERYTHING(names edited).txt
2/19/2009 6:08:31 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Wiat.
2/19/2009 6:08:33 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus *Wiat.
2/19/2009 6:08:34 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u when did you do it
2/19/2009 6:08:36 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus GODDAMNIT.
2/19/2009 6:08:39 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus WAIT.
2/19/2009 6:08:49 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Do you want names edited or names real?
2/19/2009 6:09:08 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Not but a few days ago, I finally let it all out.
2/19/2009 6:09:19 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Shit was held up for so long.
2/19/2009 6:09:31 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u i dont care about the names
2/19/2009 6:09:41 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus You'll know either way, I'm sure.
2/19/2009 6:09:52 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Just accept.
2/19/2009 6:10:21 AM Transfer of "EVERYTHING(names edited).txt" is complete.
2/19/2009 6:10:28 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I'm 'Greg', you're 'Melissa', Holly's 'Holly.'.
2/19/2009 6:10:35 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus I hope it' revealing.
2/19/2009 6:10:50 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u ok got it
2/19/2009 6:10:50 AM Greg *red+u Melissa *hsus Please don't comment until you have time to soak it all in.
2/19/2009 6:32:43 AM Melissa *hsus Greg *red+u you there
Then a facebook message because I crashed:
ok... after reading that this is all i have to say
1. make sure you make very clear that me and Holly were best friends
2. your timeline is all fucked up, but its fortunate that i remember everything and could help you with it.
3. i always knew you were really about Holly (hence the point system... she said you didnt like her, and liked me because I was the one you slept with... i knew better... but whatev)
and just so you know you were the last person i have been with. even when/ if Michael came up after that, i wouldnt do anything with him. and you and i happened about 3 days before thanksgiving break mind you. for me this has been a long time, ive had plenty of opportunities to be with people, and i have wanted to too. but just not felt right about it. i knew i hurt you and didnt want to hurt someone else. and thanks for not telling all the guys
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Updates:
Melissa's a bitch. I realized her 'apology' was a cheap cop-out. She had said "I'm sorry if I hurt you. Cunt. She embodies just about everything I might hate in a person. I'd be happy if I never hear from her again. She sent Holly 'My Story.' And she called me pathetic. And pretty much called me stupid as well. Not in a light-hearted way, either.
I also found out Holly went on a date with some guy named 'Jordan' who she thought was 'supercute' and 'superfunny'. So I messaged her:
Greg W.
March 5 at 5:15pm
Who is Jordan?
Holly W.
March 6 at 9:19am
JORDAN! ahh, he is a guy i know in [-----] who ive been hanging out with lately.
and Greg, i read your "novel"... i think it will be very intersting and a best-seller whenever you get it finished and published.. lots of drama and plus its written by a boy.
of course, you have misunderstood some things abot some of the things you said.. i dont know if you were speaking the truth about your feelings for me but i had no idea you felt that way. i couldnt date someone 3 hours away from me and ive always thought you've liked Melissa. i sent you that package as a good friend because i wanted you to read that book and i thought you might would like some candy with it.
when you worte about suicide, i just want to say you shouldnt give up your life for somthing that stupid. your life is ALL you have, and you have got to make the best of it. you think about your dad maybe getting laid off and stuff not going too well at home, but think about yourself in college and making sure you go to class so you wont have to worry about when you get older, like your dad, if your going to get laid off, because you wont if you do GOOD IN COLLEGE. stop skipping classes, you'll regret it later.
EVERYBODY has boy/girl problems. its just part of these years of your life. what happened to you is nothing to be drinking about or thinking about killing yourself or staying awake for 3 days straight thinking about it. when i was cheated on, i didnt think about what i was going to do to myself, i thought about what i was going to do to HIM. HE cheated on me, HE made me feel like this, HE made me feel dirty, HE ashamed ME, he HUMILIATED ME. and HE was going to die. not me.
yeah, girls flirt, and i know me and Melissa did, but that is NATURUAL. i know we may not be shy like other girls and you may even think slutty, i dont know what you think, but i would HATE to have my head down everyday, not being able to look someone in the eyes, stuttering when i talked. when girls flirt, we feel good about ourselves.. confident and i dont feel ashamed anytime of the day i do it. this is the time in your life when you are going to figure out what you want to be and want you you dont want to be.
i hope you dont stop talking to me and not want to be my friend after this, if thats so then ill just roll my eyes and go on with my life because im not going to waste my time thinking about STUPID stuff like this.
holly.
Greg W.
March 6 at 1:32pm
'Just friends', I can deal with. It hurts, but I can deal with it.
'I can't do a long-distance relationship', I can completely understand.
What I can't deal with saying 'just friends' and then not acting like a friend at all. Please don't do that to me.
What I can't understand is 'if I know I can have a guy, I don't want him any more' and using that as an excuse for shitty behavior. Melissa still hasn't said sorry for what happened. She said 'I'm sorry IF I hurt you', as if it baffles her I could possibly be hurt.
I don't think you're a slut. I don't look down upon flirting. What I need you to understand is that I don't like you because I thought you liked me - in fact I was sure for quite some time neither of you liked me at all. I like you because of who you are. I like your sense of humor. You have killer taste in music. You're strong. You're smart. You have a fuckin' heart of gold. I melt when you smile. I would drive myself all the way down there just to see that smile. I can't stop thinking about you.
Distance should not factor in on how you feel about someone. Like I said earlier, I can understand not wanting to have a long-distance relationship. I can't understand being away from a person changing any feelings you might have for them.
I feel like I have a million other things I want to say, but I can't seem put together the words to communicate them. I either have slight alcohol poisoning or the flu, because I can't even keep down water. I'm going to go lay back down now.
Have a good day.
Greg W.
March 6 at 1:34pm
OH. And everyone who's read that seems to misunderstand the crap about suicide. I was pretty damn drunk by that time, and it was way more 'life is so precious and short' rather than 'I hate my life I wanna kill myself'. So don't worry about me.
Holly W.
March 6 at 11:25pm
OF COURSE I STILL WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND. i am already working on your other package to send, once i get my letter from you of course. and i dont pretend to be someone's friend.. i think youre a great person, Greg. you make me smile everytime we talk. it never fails.
I thought you were the cutest of all the boys because i mean.. look at you. handsome face, your too funny for your own good, youre a genius, nice build.. everything about you attracts a girl. im sure there are TONS of girls at western wanting you right now. like that whitney girl, im sure she flirts with you every chance she gets.
I will tell you somthing though, but you cant tell Melissa or no one else, because i didnt tell anyone about it. NO ONE, OKAY? i did like you for a while.. and then you know what happened? i realized you liked Melissa because she would come in my room after a night with you and tell me all these things you all did and then finally to the big "it". i could tell Mary knew my feelings, but she never asked.
but who knows what will happen waaay later in life...
Greg W.
March 7 at 4:14pm
I need you understand - though I don't know if you can, because I'm not sure I do - that what I had with Melissa was anything but normal. I was... in a bad place... and she was there to listen. Someone I thought could understand the way I felt and someone to confide in. I never wanted things to get the way they did; she made the first move and I was crazily uncomfortable with it. I wasn't interested in her in that way at all. But then after that, my hormones started thinking for me and though in my heart I knew what was happening wasn't something I wanted, I did it anyway. I regretted it as soon as it happened.
Then she changed. She became judgmental, impatient, intolerant. I kept getting mixed signals from her, and I already had too many mixed feelings about her. We don't have very much in common in the first place. She did things I certainly didn't approve of. She said things that really scared me sometimes, and worry that there were people who actually think these things. Whatever emotional bond I had with her before "it" happened was shattered, and I was put in a worse place than I had been before. Of course, I tried to do what had worked the first time; I tried to spend time with her and tried to make things the way they were when she was comeone who understood me. But she didn't. You were there at the 'Never Have I Ever' game. She got personal, insulting, and downright mean. I could swear I saw pure disgust when she looked at me.
I know realize I was played like the fool I was. She had told me what I wanted to hear. Acted the way I wanted her to act. She pulled the veil over my eyes to get what she wanted and tossed it when she was done.
I never did 'like' her in that way, Holly. I was confused and she took advantage of me.
I've always liked you. I liked you the minute we got to spend any real time together. I would've always preferred the company of both of you to just Melissa, and cherished the very short times just you and I had. But you were reserved and I couldn't open up with my problems to you like I could Melissa. I wanted to look strong for you. I didn't want you to see any weakness. I didn't care if Melissa saw weakness. Melissa was a friend I thought would understand, not an interest.
I'm sorry it played out this way. I wish now more than ever I could go back and change it, but I can't. All I can do is do my best to help you understand.
I might have more to say, but right now my laptop is almost dead, I'm spent, and I have to go catch my ride home.
I miss you, Holly.
Greg W.
March 7 at 9:58pm
Alright. I've said my piece on the past. I don't think I want to ever talk about it again. I suppose it's best we move on, be 'just friends' and see what happens down the road.
I'll get back to writing your letter.
I then talked to her on Facebook Chat and she 'agreed', and we got to talking like we had been for ages. So I got the impression things we going to work out.
The very next day I talked to her on Chat again. It was a good talk, much longer than usual. But then I find out that she doesn't WANT to come back to college at all. Her reasons make sense, but I still feel a bit betrayed - perhaps selfishly - and angry about this.
Anyways, I wrote her letter and sent her the Valentine's chocolates I had bought but not sent earlier as a birthday present.
Am I making a mistake by still pursuing this? General advice? Malaise? Suggestions? Insults? . . . Cake?
P.S - Please ignore the suicide crap; that's not what I'm asking about and I don't want that to distract from what I do want help on.