I can't do this alone.

[Destiny&Desire]

All I want is a bit of reassurance, a bit of comfort, telling me that this isn't the end of the world.

I want someone to tell me that living is important, and I shouldn't have to go through life alone. But I have trust issues, and no-one in my school wants to know me, so there's no-one to tell me that everything's gonna be okay, so in my world it isn't.

I'm fed up of lying to myself, lying to the world, saying everything's fine, because I can see the cracks opening in my life, and I don't want everything around me to collapse. I just want someone to tell me that things will get better, or at least they can talk me through things.

I'm fed up of hiding everything, and feeling alone. But there's no-one to tell me that everything's gonna be alright, because it's not.

[MysticalBurrito]

I know where your coming from here i know what your going through with the trust issue deal what happen to take away your trust of people i hope you dont mind me asking
:hug: your not alone in this

Pm me sometimes if you ever want to to or just need to rant im a good listener

[Destiny&Desire]

It's ok, it's probably good to speak openly about my "problems" lol

I moved schools two years ago, so I'd started a new life in this new all-girls school. Unfortunately my class are very... divided, and once you begin in a clique in year7/first year, you stay like that. Because I came in later, I wasn't in any of these groups and tried to fit into one. Unfortunately I didn't, and I've never properly bonded with any of the girls, and they bully me (because I'm "different" (I guess) to their expectations of a "normal person"), and there were major problems when I reported them to the head of our year, etc. so now I don't talk to any of my class at all. It's put me off talking to loads of people completely, because if anything else goes wrong then it's 22 people against one, and whose side's more believable? I'm in the minority.

They'll do anything to get me in trouble - they deliberately reported me to a teacher for taking my coursework home (we were meant to keep it in school, and the teacher had already discussed it with me so it wasn't as much of a problem). If anyone else had done it, they wouldn't have said a word.

Sorry, I'm ranting. But meh - it's just the fact that anything I say will probably be reversed and used against me.
xo

[Sapphire]

How are your teachers with you?
Do you think that maybe you could bond with one of them?

I was bullied a lot during school and although I had friends they didn't do or say anything to stop it going on. I found that by confiding in a teacher about things helped me a bit. Of course it didn't solve my issues, but it helped a bit.

[Destiny&Desire]

yeah, telling a teacher does help, until each bully is called out individually and shouted at by the head of year.

they dont "bully" me as such now, but they give me horrible looks and tell others not to talk to me. the teacher's can't do anything more than what they've already done, because it's not like these girls are doing anything serious, and it's never gonna be a situation where we're "friends" again, because we never were.

sorry to darken the mood XD

I'd like to talk to a teacher, but I don't know how to, I usually block people out of my life rather than let them in =\