I can't trust ANYONE anymore...

[chelsay13]

NO ONE.
I can't trust my friends, my therapist, my school councilor, my teachers, OR my family. There's no one I can talk to who won't end up reporting me some how or something.

Plus, next time I'm reported, I'm in BIG trouble and I'm kicked off Student Council.

I don't know what to do....

[byee]

Well, all these people report you b/c they're concerned about your safety, they're trying to save you from yourself and those urges/actions to self harm. I'm not sure it's a matter of trust as much as it is just plain protective.

If you want them to stop doing this (which is understandable), then you should stop cutting. If you've got a therapist and counselor there are some good people who are qualified to help you find other ways to address your feelings so you don't need to hurt yourself, or have other people in your business so much. Use them to express what's going on and to find those other ways of handling stress that aren't self destructive.

[Sapphire]

:hug3:
Sorry for my short reply, but I'm having trouble articulating what I want to say.

I just want to let you know that you aren't alone. I was in a similar situation and it really does feel awful when you feel like you can't trust anyone. But, please try to understand that they are just trying to look out for you.

Try doing one nice thing for yourself each day. If you like baths then have a nice, long soak in a bubbly bath. If you enjoy reading then pop into a local bookshop and find yourself a new book. As long as it is something that you enjoy doing and that is safe for you to do then it is time well spent. It can feel weird at first, but give it a go.