Another burden, on my almost self harming life...

[wavey]

Hey, as readers of my previous posts will know i've been through a bit and i have a bit of a iossue with dealing with things, well here it goes.

last week i had a fighton the residential unit with a girl because she was winding me up and she threw the first hand.
now i had the tuesday off to see the doc and recover a bit, now on the wed when i went in, the people who took the piss were my friends or so i fucking thought. these cunts are worthless bags of shit in some cases. nobody else laughed. they just went ahh are you ok?
now i had the thursday NIGHT off from the dorm to keep away and let it all die dpwn, i'm only on a monday and a thursday, now its sunday and i'm worrying about going back tomorrow (monday) i know ill be ok but A) i'm coming down on my tablets to 20mg instead of the 30mg , which is wprrying me incase a cant handle it and secondly, last week a few of the lads said they were gona set about me because i hit a girl, well if you were hit by a lass you would respond yeah?! so anyway last week when i heard i almost broke down, well i did and i was taken into aclass room and tlaked to, they brought the lads in , both of which are on the same unit and one of which who is IN my room.

so they were bollacked, they said we didnt really want to and we didnt say it, it was somebody spreading shit, so i was ok with tht, now tomorrow i am wondering if i will get bullied or attacked. ;|
i mean, i dunno what to do, i'm stressed almost in tears TONIGHT. come on, please sumbody helpz.

:|
#Chris

P.S i'm really considering self harm, if its a release, i need it.

[ShatteredWings]

Don't really know how i can help you.

but, your last line needs to be mentioned on.

Do. Not. Self. Harm. It doesn't really help. not in the end anyway. All it'll do is make you feel worse a little later.

if you'r ebeing bullied, you should tell someone.. especially if you don't think its safe to go to school

[chelsay13]

I self harm. Now I'm in cognitive therapy and it SUCKS.
My friends, family, teachers, and peers no longer trust me.
and my life just plain sucks.
ALL because I cut myself in October.
DON'T SELF HARM BECAUSE YOU WILL END UP LIKE ME.

Also, I was depressed for months. Its NOT FUN I know. But stick it out or gt some help because self harm doesn't help AT ALL.

[byee]

Chris, what's the medication that you're going to 20 mg?

I think it's important to remember that eventhough this was very upsetting for you and a major event, it's probably not so much so for everyone else, so I'll bet that it sorta passed for them, I'm pretty sure it'll be OK. Just stay away from the girl who provoked you, and make sure that you're with your friends who understand and support you.

In the unlikely event, Chris, that she ( or anyone else) gets back in your face, tell whoever the adult in charge is ASAP and let them take care of it.

[wavey]

I'm on Medikinet (i dunno if it's XL)