i don't know if i care anymore

[ShatteredWings]

its' too much

too much to handle.
i should just go. from everything! It's only making everony's live worse.
everyones.

more people would benifit from my death than my life.....


wHY boteher anymroe?

i messe up everything i've dne. everyone knows that.

I'd fail this too.
[star] fail all


ive tried to see it form a nother point of view.. but i cant... 'slieke anyhthin i touch is ruined....


this isn't a threat. its a vent
what's gonna happen next,i don't know..

[Underground_Network]

Sounds like how I think Gwyn...

I don't know that I've ever truly cared. When I graduate I think I'm going to live on the edge... Either that or I'll join the army/marines. I'd make a great solider; I have nothing to lose, which means I'm willing to do anything for any reason.

But yeah, I hope things work out for you Gwyn... I'm still trying to figure things out for myself... All I know is that death isn't the answer... It just brings up more questions and makes everyone elses' lives worse...

[ShatteredWings]

its stuipd stuipd.

STUPID

every. single. fucking. thing. is. setting. me. off.

no one really in ral life is gonna be too worieed. they'll forget about evrything...
every..thing...

it'll keep them from being hurt more.




:cry2:
make the memoires stop

[Underground_Network]

Gwyn, you have no idea how they'll feel if you end it. Trust me, I've felt the same way you do, as if I was just making everyone else miserable and as if they didn't want me here... But after speaking with my mom and giving myself time to put my life back together (I'm about 1/8 of the way there, if even), I realize that I'm not making everyone else miserable (or at least as miserable as I thought I was).

You have to realize we're going to fuck up, especially at this age, and we just have to deal with it... We have to confront our problems, we can't just try and take the easy way out. I know its hard Gwyn, but you're an awesome person. Don't do anything stupid. :/

[Mzor203]

Gwyn, I'm sorry you're feeling like this.

I know you've heard it before, but things WILL get better. You just have to tough it out, but in the end, it will be worth it. You're only a teen - it's really hard to control a lot of the stuff in your life that's going on right now. So a lot of the time you will feel like things are out of your reach, and unfixable, but as you grow older, it will get better. You will be able to do more things to help people.

Now, I know your home life isn't exactly the best. But I'm not getting how you think you're making things worse. To me it sounds like you are actually being a gigantic help to your mother by taking care of siblings, and stuff, so why would you be making peoples' lives worse? You're too caring to do something like that.

I know there isn't a ton of stuff I can say, but you are a valuable life in this world. You are a very kind and caring soul, and many would most certainly be worse off without you.

:hug:

[ShatteredWings]

what help?
she's told me straight up i make everythign worse..


It's out of control..


wh..why can't i go beyond the fact that i promiced i wouldn't (at least nogt tonight))

[Mzor203]

Well, then she isn't very considerate, is she. I bet she would be a lot worse off without you.

The thing is, under stress people will snap. They will find someone to blame, even if there's no reason for them to be blamed. Just wait it out. 4 years and you're out of there, and never have to worry about it again if that's what you choose.

If you need to talk, or vent, I'm here. :hug:

[ShatteredWings]

.......people will snap......

its just.. its too much
too much..

sorry this was posted.
just makes more people worry.

[Mzor203]

There's nothing to be sorry about. When you need to vent, you need to vent, nothing wrong with that. It is MUCH better than holding those emotions in just to have them released more violently.

[Techno Monster]

TWPR :arrow: Mental Crisis

[ShatteredWings]

make it stop.

make remembering every thing stop.

if i'm gonna die, i want to go now.

[ShatteredWings]

im still here?

[jack straw]

Dont be so hard on yourself...

I've been there, and i'm there now...

I really dont care any more either, and i'm waiting till i can get the f*ck outta here...
life's falling apart around me, but i still have my dreams for the future. as soon as i see hope, it gets taken away by just the stupidist of things, and I sit here planning my escape...

dont worry it'll get better in the end. we all have a purpose in this world, wether or not it's what we plan on. so keep your head high, and look towards the future.

[ShatteredWings]

this is kinda old
meh, idc. it hasn't gone away much
however stupid you might've thought that sounded.. it.. thanks

everyone.

[flying V]

if you still feel like dying then im gunna post this if you dont then i'm sorry.
i know loads of people that have wanted to kill themselves, me included but i just tell them think about all your friends that you r gunna leave behind, think about what will happen if you die? instead of finding all the negative things in life you have to find all of those good ones and cling to them with everything you have, i tried to kill myself yesterday then i just thought, this is the cowards way out and now everytime my mom tries to have a go at me i just yell back, i dont care what punishment i get

[Beautiful Obsession]

nobody wud benafit ur death.. trust me.. u feel worthless, but ur not!
speak 2 sum1.. get better.. trust me ur not better off dead bbe..xxx