I really hate therapy

[chelsay13]

I hate it soo much it almost makes me want to cut. I hate my therapist, I hate talking, I hate how my mom gets to be there, I hate how I can never answer questions, I hate how my parents spend $300 a session for something that isn't helping me.

It also doesn't help much that my school counsilor said if i cut again i'm off student council.

Whats helping me is how my friends were crying last time i cut, and how dissappointed people were in me. I stopped myself. Its been almost 1 month since I cut.

The sucky thing is, I pushed my parents to let me go to therapy because i wanted to stop. They didn't want me to, plus it costs a lot. So, I can't stop going because then they'll think i was faking it.

What am I supposed to do?

[Hyper]

Regardless of what you think, you have to tell your parents that this type of theraphy isn't working for you.

Theres lots of different theraphists and methods they use. If you don't like your theraphist its not going to work out and you need to find someone you are more comfortable with..

And if necessary you need to be 1 on 1 with the theraphist.

So you need to tell that to your parents..

If you don't you wont get better and eventually the result which you fear will arrive anyway, since you wont make absolutely any progress with a theraphist you don't fit well with heh and with your mother being in the room

[byee]

Well, a lot of people 'hate' therapy, not so much b/c of the process of it, but b/c of all the feelings and behaviors and memories you have to deal with. Try to determine what it is that's putting you off. If it's the actual material that you're discussing that's doing it, it's more a reflection of what you've been thru, rather than 'therapy', and anywhere you go you'll likely feel dissatisfied, b/c it's about you, not the therapist.

If it's things that the therapist is doing, like the decision to involve your folks, then you might talk with him/her about it. Therapy is not only about 'problems' it's about the relationship with the therpaist, the idea there being that most people have 'issues' as the result of bad relationships, so by having a good one with a professional, you can learn and work thru some of those issues that affect other relationships, where you might not be able to understand or correct them as easily. Sorta like learning valuable skills and practicing them at the same time. So, learning how to express concern or resentment or anxiety or anger with him about these issues or decisions gives you the opportunity to learn how to do it 'out there', and it might lead to some changes in the therapy that make you more comfortable, too.