Just started about a month ago and I already can't stop

[beautifullytragic]

I can't stop! I thought I could control it, but I can't! I've started to self harm and cut with odd things like fountain pen nibs, fingernail files, erasers, hot wax, scissors, etc., anything I can get my hands on... It's horrible! I want to stop so badly! Please help me, anyone! Why did I do this to myself!? I'm surprised no one has noticed...but then again, it is in very discreet places...or places that I can cover... I didn't and don't have it bad in life...or at least not as bad as some...but I'm not suicidal, and I shan't ever be! But I do need help...badly... But I supposed I do it to cover up the hurts of my other problems and painful emotions... and why is it that all my problems coincide with certain personality traits I have!?

[///James///]

im sry its gone like that :(

but this is what someone told me:
dont let things that hurt you, make you get hurt anymore. when sometimes happens; it happens for a reason (logical or not) but the pain it may cos is all that it intends to cos. by cutting or self-harming in other forms, your just making the problem worse

you just need to be focused on doing it less and less, and trying to stop. xx

[dying lullaby]

you're still young in the cutting realm, so there is tons of hope for you. just tell yourself that you are not going to do it any more. cutting is a choice, not out of your controle, atleast at this point in your life it is still a choice. you CAN stop. you just have to have will power, not even the strongest of will power, just enough to say to yourself that doing this is stupid and that you need love, not physical self hatred.

i'm not saying this will be easy, but it wont be the strugle you think it could be if you resolve to stop now. right now. no last sentimental cuts or burns. no keeping the razors hidden in your room any more. throw out everything you use to harm yourself with right now. and dont ever look back - never doubt yourself Maria!

good luck! :hug:

[beautifullytragic]

thanks so much guys!

[dying lullaby]

are you going to try to stop?

[beautifullytragic]

yes, I am sincerely going to try

[beautifullytragic]

thank y'all so much for your support and advice! :D