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[thoma99]

Hi, im thomas. im new
i have nothing much to say, because i am tired right now.
uh... i have an x-acto knife. =\ havent used one since i was 15years old.
that's dumb i guess. Im tired as hell, so ill leave more productive comments tomorrow maybe. Idk. I promised i wouldnt cut
i promised that 13 hospital visits ago too.
gah. zzzzzzzz <3

[Sapphire]

How are you doing?

No more hospital visits to add to the list I hope :)

[thoma99]

I am doing very well today. :D
thnx for asking.
Well i got something on my mind, i supose i could start a seperate topic but, hey why not.
Well things didnt go my way all week. I'm in a halfway house with ignorant people and im in recovery, and i'm in a new relationship with a girl and that is probably why im slipping.(the girl thing)
I'd like to say thats not why. but I havent had a desire to cut for almost 6 months and then this all happened.
I'll let you know, im pretty much institutionalized as far as MHUs and Rehabs go.
but i was starting to do better. I dont feel like cutting or burning currently (1:03 am) which is great, but when the feeling comes i really have to think of my sister and people that it would hurt so much.
OK i cant stand long posts myself so let me get to the point.
I lost my virginity today, well technically yesterday (march 1) And Most people i know say they did that way younger than me(im 19) but this whole love/sex thing is stressful. I was just getting used to love and loving people.
(i used to be very nasty and hateful) but anyway. I cant balance this out in my head. im so stressed right now, so im glad i could type this out.
Peace
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