Vicarious
February 25th, 2009, 04:37 PM
ROMANCE PARASITE
Tears staining my cheeks,
I try to keep it together.
You said you wouldn't hurt me,
You said we'd last forever.
Forgiving you is tough,
Now that I know the truth.
I wish I could go back,
And erase all of this proof.
My heart was given to you,
With all the love I had.
Now that I want it back,
It's really hard to stand.
You say it was a mistake,
And in this I believe you.
But my trust has been forsaken,
This pain I feel is true.
I wish this never happened,
I wish you hadn't lied.
You said you always loved me,
Then why'd you make me cry?
With every picture taken,
Seeing you with him.
My heart that has been given,
Has sadness to the brim.
I try to let it go,
But every time I do,
My mind makes up the picture,
Of him embracing you.
This pain will never heal,
This pain was made to scar.
The piece of heart that I gave you,
Is distant, oh so far.
And now the piece is nothing,
A victim of your guilt.
These scars will never heal,
This trauma will not wilt.
A decision I must make,
It won't ever be easy,
And I'm afraid of messing up,
It's making me uneasy.
Do I leave the one I love,
The one I touched so soft.
The one that made me so happy,
The one I never lost.
Or do I stay another day,
And risk the pain I feel.
To happen once again to me,
This agony is real.
The choice is up to me now,
It's harder than I thought.
The consequences that I face,
The lessons I've been taught.
Baby girl I love you,
You're my romance parasite.
I'm addicted to the game,
Even with hurt day and night.
I hate it but it's true,
I love you oh so much.
I wish it didn't hurt me,
I hope I'm not your crutch.
What I'll decide,
I really do not know.
But you hurt me too much,
I'm trying not to let it show.
You said you'd never hurt me,
You KNOW how afraid I am.
My trust I gave to you,
And now I can barely stand.
I hope you learn to treat me,
With promises you keep.
Don't ever hurt me again,
Or my piece of heart will weep.
And I will take it back,
A few months too late.
It will never be the same again,
And neither will my fate.
Love
Waking up was never fun,
But now I wake up for someone.
Pick out clothes and comb my hair,
Knowing I will see you there.
Step outside and board the bus,
Waiting for the one I lust.
Walk inside the doors and halls,
Lean against your locker wall.
Happier than you will know,
Holding you and walking slow.
Leaving you when classes start,
Hating it when we're apart.
Fingers locked and intertwined,
Can't seem to get you off my mind.
The school day ends and we must go,
I bid you leave and kiss you slow.
Practice seems to last too long,
My need for you stays oh so strong.
I get home and go online,
Wishing you were by my side.
Talking to you is always great,
All the time it seems like fate.
Leave you again and in my bed,
Thoughts of you enter my head.
I find it hard to sleep at night,
The fire in my heart burns bright.
When I realize why thoughts of you I find,
All the time, my mind starts to realize.
If someone's always in your head,
It isn't lust, it's love instead.
Untitled Song:
VERSE 1
So many things that I could say,
If I could see your face just once today.
Just a smile to me in the halls,
Would send me bouncing off the walls.
CHORUS
If I could talk to you,
It would make my day.
To hang around with you,
All the things we'd say.
I know the road for me is tough,
But I'm ready to face it through,
'Cause I'd do anything for you.
VERSE 2
I've never felt this way before,
The times I see you leave me wanting more.
Don't really know what I would do,
To spend only a minute here with you.
CHORUS
If I could talk to you,
It would make my day.
To hang around with you,
All the things we'd say.
I know the road for me is tough,
But I'm ready to face it through,
'Cause I'd do anything for you.
BRIDGE
Talking 'bout our favorite things,
Got me feeling like a king,
Stayin' up till God knows when,
Hold your breath and count to ten.
If I could talk to you,
It would make my day.
To hang around with you,
All the things we'd say...
CHORUS
If I could talk to you,
It would make my day.
To hang around with you,
All the things we'd say.
I know the road for me is tough,
But I'm ready to face it through,
'Cause I'd do anything for you.
Feedback appreciated! Thanks guys.
Tears staining my cheeks,
I try to keep it together.
You said you wouldn't hurt me,
You said we'd last forever.
Forgiving you is tough,
Now that I know the truth.
I wish I could go back,
And erase all of this proof.
My heart was given to you,
With all the love I had.
Now that I want it back,
It's really hard to stand.
You say it was a mistake,
And in this I believe you.
But my trust has been forsaken,
This pain I feel is true.
I wish this never happened,
I wish you hadn't lied.
You said you always loved me,
Then why'd you make me cry?
With every picture taken,
Seeing you with him.
My heart that has been given,
Has sadness to the brim.
I try to let it go,
But every time I do,
My mind makes up the picture,
Of him embracing you.
This pain will never heal,
This pain was made to scar.
The piece of heart that I gave you,
Is distant, oh so far.
And now the piece is nothing,
A victim of your guilt.
These scars will never heal,
This trauma will not wilt.
A decision I must make,
It won't ever be easy,
And I'm afraid of messing up,
It's making me uneasy.
Do I leave the one I love,
The one I touched so soft.
The one that made me so happy,
The one I never lost.
Or do I stay another day,
And risk the pain I feel.
To happen once again to me,
This agony is real.
The choice is up to me now,
It's harder than I thought.
The consequences that I face,
The lessons I've been taught.
Baby girl I love you,
You're my romance parasite.
I'm addicted to the game,
Even with hurt day and night.
I hate it but it's true,
I love you oh so much.
I wish it didn't hurt me,
I hope I'm not your crutch.
What I'll decide,
I really do not know.
But you hurt me too much,
I'm trying not to let it show.
You said you'd never hurt me,
You KNOW how afraid I am.
My trust I gave to you,
And now I can barely stand.
I hope you learn to treat me,
With promises you keep.
Don't ever hurt me again,
Or my piece of heart will weep.
And I will take it back,
A few months too late.
It will never be the same again,
And neither will my fate.
Love
Waking up was never fun,
But now I wake up for someone.
Pick out clothes and comb my hair,
Knowing I will see you there.
Step outside and board the bus,
Waiting for the one I lust.
Walk inside the doors and halls,
Lean against your locker wall.
Happier than you will know,
Holding you and walking slow.
Leaving you when classes start,
Hating it when we're apart.
Fingers locked and intertwined,
Can't seem to get you off my mind.
The school day ends and we must go,
I bid you leave and kiss you slow.
Practice seems to last too long,
My need for you stays oh so strong.
I get home and go online,
Wishing you were by my side.
Talking to you is always great,
All the time it seems like fate.
Leave you again and in my bed,
Thoughts of you enter my head.
I find it hard to sleep at night,
The fire in my heart burns bright.
When I realize why thoughts of you I find,
All the time, my mind starts to realize.
If someone's always in your head,
It isn't lust, it's love instead.
Untitled Song:
VERSE 1
So many things that I could say,
If I could see your face just once today.
Just a smile to me in the halls,
Would send me bouncing off the walls.
CHORUS
If I could talk to you,
It would make my day.
To hang around with you,
All the things we'd say.
I know the road for me is tough,
But I'm ready to face it through,
'Cause I'd do anything for you.
VERSE 2
I've never felt this way before,
The times I see you leave me wanting more.
Don't really know what I would do,
To spend only a minute here with you.
CHORUS
If I could talk to you,
It would make my day.
To hang around with you,
All the things we'd say.
I know the road for me is tough,
But I'm ready to face it through,
'Cause I'd do anything for you.
BRIDGE
Talking 'bout our favorite things,
Got me feeling like a king,
Stayin' up till God knows when,
Hold your breath and count to ten.
If I could talk to you,
It would make my day.
To hang around with you,
All the things we'd say...
CHORUS
If I could talk to you,
It would make my day.
To hang around with you,
All the things we'd say.
I know the road for me is tough,
But I'm ready to face it through,
'Cause I'd do anything for you.
Feedback appreciated! Thanks guys.