i feel like giving in

[dying lullaby]

it feels like its been too long w.o picking up the blade...i wanna cut so bad. i dont need it, i know that, but i want it so bad. this want is consuming me and soon nothing will matter other than the fact that all my scars are healed and i need more. someone please talk to me

[-Silence]

Hey, I know the feeling and it's okay.

:hug:

Maybe you could try a henna tattoo kit. You put it on, leave it on overnight and the next day you can pick it off the same way you would a scab. It also leaves a redish mark behind. I've never tried it, but a friend told me about it and maybe that'll help?

But to be honest, I still haven't figured how to get past that point. But I can listen if you ever need anything. Anything at all.

I'm sorry.
:hug:

[dying lullaby]

thanks heather*tries to smile...not quite working*

[-Silence]

What's the best thing thats ever happened to you?
The happiest moment of your life?

Tell me about it...please.

[dying lullaby]

as fucked up at is sounds it was when i found out my mom was divorcing my dad...either that or the months later when we finally got him escorted from my house for the last time.

i feel so morbid with that being the happiest moment in my life...

on the brighter side, another great moment in my life was every time i sang the national anthem for my school's football games. yeah those times were great!

[-Silence]

Doesn't sound fucked up, sounds like it would have relieved alot. Thats a good thing.


wow, singing. I bet you were amazing!
Do you still sing?
What was it like the first time you sang? Did people come up to you at school saying "omg, your voice is beautiful?"

[dying lullaby]

haha yeah they did, i feel like i'm bragging by even mentioning it.

the first time i sang for real was in first grade...i must have been no more than six but i took to the stage for a talent show and sang 'tomorrow' from the musical Annie...it felt awesome...but also scary as hell...i love that feeling

[-Silence]

And you've been singing since?

Thats awesome! That's a sign there--you're going to be a famous musician

And then when all the people crowd around you I could be like "Yeah, I knew Bri before she was famous, so ha!" :P

"Tomorrow" thats a pretty hard song to sing isn't it? The notes are all up and down arent they?

[dying lullaby]

i can barely even remember the tune so idk how hard it is or not.

haha if i'm ever famous you WILL be mentioned for helping me through 'a very hard time in my life' :wink: you and a few select members of VT. you guys help me out so much :hug:
i love you!

[-Silence]

pfft....there's no if! When..When I become famous... :P

Do you think that you'd rather sing solo or in a band?

[dying lullaby]

solo...no in a band....umm i'm not sure, i think the band outweighs the solo so i'm going to go with that

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dont give up dont give in..keep fighting..dont cut urself..it would just make everything u know worse

[-Silence]

And what type of music do you think that you'd do?

[dying lullaby]

i would deffinatly do rock music...but nothign like you've ever heard before...i would make it different

[Waiting]

why would you make it so different? why not go with what works?
plenty of people liek rock music currently?
sorry i want in on this convo
help u stay safe innit xx

[dying lullaby]

i dont like ever being in the same group as someone else...i like to stand out and i never want to settle with being 'normal'

thanks for distracting me and getting my mind on more positive things heather.

and thanks for everything you are patch

:hug:

i love you both!

Bri

[-Silence]

No problem, at all. :D

Are you feeling better tonight?

[dying lullaby]

much, i am so glad i got past that

[-Silence]

So am I, I'm proud of you.

:hug:

[dying lullaby]

thank you heather, for everything