Why now?

[Sapphire]

Why is it now that I really want to start smoking cigarettes and/or taking drugs?

After all that has happened in my life, why is this raising its head now?

ARGH!




Do not feel pressured to reply...it's more rhetorical than anything and I am the the who has the best insight...apparently

[Ninja Noob]

lol it's normal dude

as long as you have your head on your shoulders and have self control you can experiment with mild things. Never try any designer drugs or pills. Fucks you up bad. Also don't smoke cigarettes, nicotine is more addicting than heroine.

[Sapphire]

I hear what you are saying.
But, it's not normal that I want to take them purely for the purpose of being self-destructive.

[Hyper]

I hear what you are saying.
But, it's not normal that I want to take them purely for the purpose of being self-destructive.

Well actually thats purely usual, if not normal :P

[Sapphire]

Well actually thats purely usual, if not normal :P
Lol. I obviously wasn't reading what I was typing!

I meant that it's another way I want to self-destruct. I can't think of it as "normal" because it would make taking drugs seem more okay. If I see them as okay then I am more likely to use them to self-destruct.

That should make more sense now...Hopefully!

[Φρανκομβριτ]

Well, if you turn to them to help you cope with life, you're going to find yourself up shit creek. That's what I did, and I went into a vicious cycle. Most people try it, but please, don't use it to help you deal with problems. You cold quite possibly become a drug addict.

[Hyper]

Lol. I obviously wasn't reading what I was typing!

I meant that it's another way I want to self-destruct. I can't think of it as "normal" because it would make taking drugs seem more okay. If I see them as okay then I am more likely to use them to self-destruct.

That should make more sense now...Hopefully!

Well its still usual, since people make that mistake often..

But I think you know better, never start doing crap or you'll end up doing it for the rest of your life

[Sapphire]

I know that I really shouldn't.
I know that most of the people in my life at the moment would shun me or bitch-slap me for even thinking about taking drugs.

I just can't stop feeling like self-destructing.
I can't stop thinking about it.

[Hyper]

I know that I really shouldn't.
I know that most of the people in my life at the moment would shun me or bitch-slap me for even thinking about taking drugs.

I just can't stop feeling like self-destructing.
I can't stop thinking about it.

Go destroy a punching bag, I find that to be a great help xD

[Sapphire]

I can't have a punchbag because I'm in a student house atm :(

[Hyper]

I can't have a punchbag because I'm in a student house atm :(

Sick people! Though I haven't had a punching bag for a LOOOOOONG time.. It is most important not to resort to punching walls.

Well basically you need to find some way to cope.. Take a small 10 mile jog or something :P, maybe you'll be too tired to self-destruct.. Or maybe you have a better way of coping, one that takes less time and has a small risk of heartattack

[Sapphire]

I know, how dare they restrict me on any modifications in my room so I can have a heavy punchbag in here! :P And I love how your small jog is 10 miles long! Lol.

One of my housemates wants to lose weight so we are going swimming regularly starting tonight. I could swim with her at her pace for the first hour or so and then really push myself for the last bit...that might work. I would most probably be happier in myself if I lost a stone anyway...

[Hyper]

I know, how dare they restrict me on any modifications in my room so I can have a heavy punchbag in here! :P And I love how your small jog is 10 miles long! Lol.

One of my housemates wants to lose weight so we are going swimming regularly starting tonight. I could swim with her at her pace for the first hour or so and then really push myself for the last bit...that might work. I would most probably be happier in myself if I lost a stone anyway...

Lol! Nice femine way of looking at it :P

[Sapphire]

Lol, I know. Not sure if it will work but heyho, guess it's worth a try.