Destiny&Desire
February 24th, 2009, 03:20 AM
Ok, I'll be honest.
Most people in my class bullied me last year so I reported them, and now I have no friends in my class. And before you make any assumptions that it's my fault, they're the ones who took my things and hid them, and make constant remarks behind my back (as my only friend in the class tells me).
So... yeah. I sit at the front of the classroom not talking, and it makes me feel like absolute ****. It's been like this since about November 2008, and nothing gets better because people tell my [only] friend not to talk to me. So that's great.
I do have friends out ot school, but they're all from different cities (I met them through an organization). I text them constantly to try and distract myself from being ignored, but I don't want them to know how much of a "loser" I am in school.
It's just really rubbish. The girls only talk to me when they need help with coursework/homework, and it seems like talking to me is like a person committing 'social suicide'.
I've already moved schools once, and I regret it now because my previous school was so much nicer, and even though I was bullied, people still spoke to me. I hate my current school.
Trying to walk around and pretend they don't bother me isn't an option anymore - after the first few months the effect wears off, and now I just feel isolated, when I resort to living in the computer rooms every break.
I just want to be accepted for once. Lol.
xo
Most people in my class bullied me last year so I reported them, and now I have no friends in my class. And before you make any assumptions that it's my fault, they're the ones who took my things and hid them, and make constant remarks behind my back (as my only friend in the class tells me).
So... yeah. I sit at the front of the classroom not talking, and it makes me feel like absolute ****. It's been like this since about November 2008, and nothing gets better because people tell my [only] friend not to talk to me. So that's great.
I do have friends out ot school, but they're all from different cities (I met them through an organization). I text them constantly to try and distract myself from being ignored, but I don't want them to know how much of a "loser" I am in school.
It's just really rubbish. The girls only talk to me when they need help with coursework/homework, and it seems like talking to me is like a person committing 'social suicide'.
I've already moved schools once, and I regret it now because my previous school was so much nicer, and even though I was bullied, people still spoke to me. I hate my current school.
Trying to walk around and pretend they don't bother me isn't an option anymore - after the first few months the effect wears off, and now I just feel isolated, when I resort to living in the computer rooms every break.
I just want to be accepted for once. Lol.
xo