i want to cut

[eikookmi]

i want to cut
anything
i need some sort of cut
i hate myself for my self control
why should i care
why shouldn't i just slash at mmyself
why do i only cut to an extent because of people
why should i please them
boo hoo if they're sad and don't like it
screw them

[Mzor203]

Okay... you've got to keep your head up and resist the urge. Find something else to do with your time. Even one small cut can send things downhill. So just, keep trying not to, whatever it takes. :hug: It's really for the best.

Stay strong!

[Willy]

Could you elaborate a little more please? ie. why you want to cut and what's caused you to have that state of mind?

Personally though, If you want some sort of cut i'd suggest a haircut.
Take some weight off of your shoulders :)

[CaptainObvious]

It's not about pleasing others, and I think you know that. They just want what's best for you. I know it's tempting to try and convince yourself it's not actually for/about you and there's some selfish motive at play - because then you can disregard their advice - but I think you know that's not true.

Stay strong.

[BuryYourFlame]

please do not do it. If not for the people that love you, then for yourself.

After you cut...you feel even more alone. You become scared to socialize because you are afraid of someone seeing. You jump at every touch, because every touch brings them closer to knowing. The feeling of being alone just makes it worse, making you feel more like cutting, in turn making you feel more alone again. It is not a good position to be in.

its just important to remember that people do love you.

Just message me (VT or MSN) if u ever wanna talk. (the adress is on my page).

[Triceratops]

You shouldn't cut to an extent because you are hurting them, and they care about you. You shouldn't slash at yourself because you don't deserve it, you are precious and you don't need this unnecessary pain.

Don't hate yourself because of your self control. Times can get rough, and all we can do is try our hardest not to cave. Focus on the positive, like the people who love you. They're sad because they don't want to see you go through this pain and despair, it's not about pleasing them, they just hate to see you in such distress and want you to stop harming yourself. You have people in your life who love you and that you are very lucky for. Try and remember that :) You don't deserve the pain inflicted on yourself.

Good luck and PM me if you need anything :)

[ackmedsgirl666]

cutting makes u feel better
i agreee
but u regret it later
i ended up in the hospital when one of my friends found out and told my teacher
i was so ashamed
i recently started again and i once again regret it
my foster mom got me councelling and i feel alot better as i now have a great dr to talk to whenever i need help

[eikookmi]

So i have to continue trying not to cut and continue the facade that im alright. The truth is talking to someone doesn't help at all.

[DinoRAWR]

but then again, cutting might make the facade harder, having to hide cuts and scars isn't easy. if you start, it will be so hard to stop. in my opinion it's just not worth it.
just try to resist and hopefully, the urge will fade eventually.

[eikookmi]

Well i slowly get pushed to the edge until i get knocked off.

I literally lost it and had a mental breakdown the other night.
oh well.

To make things better, im scattering a dead person's ashes tomorrow.
weeeeeeee

[Andy]

i want to cut
anything
i need some sort of cut
i hate myself for my self control
why should i care
why shouldn't i just slash at mmyself
why do i only cut to an extent because of people
why should i please them
boo hoo if they're sad and don't like it
screw them

*posts after only reading this post*
Might I ask WHY you need some sort of cut? You see no-one else actually cares for any reason other than your own personal safety. Its not about "boo-hoo if they are sad and don't like it" because the only reason they don't like it is because it is certainly not beneficial to you and is harmful, its nothing to do with what they want. Ok you say, well I get cuts and then thats it...I like the pain. Well I can see the reasoning for this but the reason that people often try to stop "cutters" is because there are automatically underlying problems, usually with mental health, that go with it. As I am sure you fully appreciate...self-mutilation is not what a normal and happy person would do.


It is, you see, addictive. People like the rush that it gives them that goes with the pain. This is my suggestion to answer my own quiery about why you wanted to cut. THIS is simply something that you need not to do for a while and then you won't care. If you continue cutting yourself, all you are doing is making all your emotional pain worse. It might relieve it for a short while, but overall the affects are devastating.
No matter how hard it is you just need to bear the pain of going cut free for a while and you will soon be back on the rails again. With a little determination everyone has it in them to do it just like stopping smoking or something similar. Will-power is the key. It might seem like you don't have any at the moment, but I assure you you will surprise yourself if you try to focus your anger at the cutting rather than the fact you can't cut. If it was a normal thing to do, people wouldn't try to stop you and you wouldn't be making posts like this one. So sort it out.

Self control isn't a bad thing by the way. I have bunches of it and I am living a very successful life because of it.