i dont understand

[sharkie]

Hi, I looked at the topic on the top of the page, and it listed things to notice for kids who have depression and i have 12 of those symptoms, I always feel like such a loser, look up the lyrics to the song "Nothing to lose" by billy talent, and that basically describes how I feel, Im thinking of killing myself, I mean who would miss me...

plz help me, i dont know what to do, im not even 16 yet, im sooo confused

[Lost_and_fallen]

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad,
Are there particular things that are making you unhappy? For instance, are there problems at school or at home? Because if there are, you could try and target these problems and hopefully solve them which should make you feel a little better.
Can you talk to your parents about this?
Laura

[TheWizard]

Hi, I looked at the topic on the top of the page, and it listed things to notice for kids who have depression and i have 12 of those symptoms, I always feel like such a loser, look up the lyrics to the song "Nothing to lose" by billy talent, and that basically describes how I feel, Im thinking of killing myself, I mean who would miss me...

plz help me, i dont know what to do, im not even 16 yet, im sooo confused

I would miss you. I understand how you feel cause I got so depressed I tried killing my self. Thats when I met my shrink doctor. He took my broken brian and put me back together. Now he's the second most important person in my life.

The is an easy cure for depression. You are one pill away from total recovery.

Hope this helps some.

[sharkie]

umm ya there are a few things, sometimes ill be home alone and ill feel like im a loser weith no friends, sometimes, like school brings me down, the other day i was on a balcony, and i wasnt sure if I should throw myself off, the thoguht was really pushing me, and then i managed to just run from it as fast as I could, and this is really scary, im afraid im going to do something im going to regret real soon, they only problems at home, are because my grades are goign down, cause i cant seem to concentrate, and my parents get mad at me, but nothing worst then that :cry:

[TheWizard]

Just take one day at a time. Look around at school and you will see others just like you wanting to make friends with somebody like you. So go make a few friernds and it will help you.

[sharkie]

ahhh, this girl who i asked out just fucken told me i have no chance and i gave her a rose and it was rejected liek she cruished it iwth her fist, im fucking down, im thinking of downing a few tylenol

[TheWizard]

What a bitch. Forget her and find a real lady.

[sharkie]

thanks for the help guys, i dont get it, it gets worst every day, and stupid little things bring me down, take today for example, i realised this girl who was my best friend last year, well this year we still talk but shes slowly replacing me, and i dont get it, im not the one to usually care but lately its bringing me down, and every day is worst and worst, schools going reallly bad, my parents are always fighting, ahhhhhhhhhh i just wish i could die, just right now, last year i had the grades an hte hopes of becoming a doctor, this year im lucky if ill even pass high school, i need help, what can i do, i cant talk to my parents theyll just think that its a phase, which it could be, but i dont know, im happy to have a place to vent

[Ravenous]

[quote="TheWizard"] He took my broken brian and put me back together.quote]

Sorry not really appropriate but i broken brian :P Poor Brian lol

Sorry for joking about a serious subject....

[sharkie]

its fine i dont care, i wont be here much longer anyways

[sharkie]

world :(

[sharkie]

I tried to kill myself but it failed and I was put under suicide watch and then for a few weeks I wasalways monitored by people, I always skip out on therapy and I just hate myself, the whole reason im like this is because I feel that no one likes me, Im always the loser who stays home when people have parties or go out, I mean even my best friend does shit behind my back, im never invited to anythign and I feel like if I just left, no one would miss me, and I have a feelign that its true, I was once sick for a week and a half, no one called no one even asked me when I Got back, but a friend of mine was sick for only a week, and everyone was calling him and asking him how he was, it made me feel liek shit, and I dont want to be here anymore

[TheWizard]

Don't let others control your happiness. Tell them to fuck off and go live you life like you want to, dress like you want, etc.


Decide what and who you want to be and then start living that life. If people don't like it then its their problem not yours.

[sharkie]

Wow this day officially sucks, the minor thing that brough me down, was that my best friend is going out with the girl ive liked for a year now, and the worst part of today, is my uncle passed away of a heart attack, everything just hit me i was sitting on a couch all day, I dont know, its just so weird, one day their right there, and the next there gone, AHH LIFE SUCKS

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

dont kill yourself. life may suck for you, but if you die it will suck for a lot more other people

[sharkie]

I dont know whats wrong with me, yesterday, I felt like I was on top of the world, nothign oculd bring me down and I made myself really happy when I thought of the future and everything, but right now, I feel like shit, I feel abandonned, IVe been contemplating jumping out my window, I know ive said this all the time, but I think Ive reached it, im worthless, I know you wanna say you like me, but Im a kind of person who needs physically someone to make me feel worth something, and right now, all my friends make me feel worthless, Ive noticed, if im not around no one notices, whats the point of everything if no one cares whether your around or not??? someone tell me please

[sharkie]

its been two weeks since ive posted something, everythings been going well, then today I realised and this is after king to people, that no one in my family cares abotu me, and I also noticed at school, that NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME, I hope I dont get anyone angry by posting here, I know its repetitive, but I dont know what to do, ive alos written the fact that I woudl like the kill myself, and have contemplated it, well those thoguths are coming back :(

[-Silence]

Why don't you think that your parents don't care about you? If they didn't, do you think you would still be living with them? Would they feed you, provide you with a bed, and throw clothing on your back..if they didn't care?

School--The truth is, people usually don't care. If you are out of the "norm" people try not to get involved. But let me ask you, do you actually need them? Are they determining whether or not you die? You don't need them to care for you. You can care for yourself. Don't rely on others when you are just as powerful.

Suicide is never the answer, especially when it's because you don't think others care. There are good caring people out there, you just have to find them and ignore the ones that try to bring you down.

the other day i was on a balcony, and i wasnt sure if I should throw myself off, the thoguht was really pushing me
Just to let you know, I've been there many times, I've stood on that balcony and just thought about why I was actually here. I kept thinking about what kept me from just letting go and ending it all. What matters a lot to you? It can be a goal, even a person. But find something, and hold on to it will all your might. Don't let it go, think to yourself about how this thing would turn out if you weren't there anymore. Let that thing keep you from killing yourself, say to yourself, "I need to live, if not for myself, then for __________" You are special, and you are needed on this world, even though I know you don't feel it.

Sorry for my lecture, I didn't mean it to be like that.

[sharkie]

Theres a line in a DEath Cab For Cutie song that goes :
You'll discover that casual friends kept notes in their pockets to remember your name

Thats how I feel, and often times its true, and it just makes me soo depressed, and thats what causes me to have those episodes where I feel like the world sucks and I want to kill myself

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

why would you listen to depressing songs that are full of lies? no one and i mean no one would ever carry around notes in their pockets to remind them your name

[sharkie]

I know but I get the impression, I think its a metaphor for even though you think your good friends with someone, they might not know you all that well, or notice you, and thats how I feel but thanks for the encoragement

[sharkie]

Wow this is the worst friday the 13th, firstly, let me explain, I have three friends, I consider or now considered my best friends, I used to tell them everything, but then ever since last week, one of them has been avoiding me, she ignores me in the halls, nebver talks to me when were with our friends, then last weekend, thursday night, I call her and tell her to come over and well hang out, and she says "no, my dad wont let me", turns out she went to a movie, with a group of ppl shes not even friends with, friday night: "we had decided to get together and at the last minute, her dad wont let her, so I figure okay, wtv I understand, but heres the worst, saturday we were suppsoed to meet up to go shopping, and guess what, her dad wont let her, I dont think this is normal, so its bringing me really down, because she was a very dear friend, now as for my other two, well one of them still talks to me, butshe has a bf so were not as close, adn the last one, well he was making a joke one day, about stealing this ovie from a girl, as a joke, and told me not to tell anyone (Even thoguh it was a joke) and I accidentally let it slip out, to a friend who ocuoldnt care less and has forgotten, and now my friend [ractically ignores me...I HATE MY LIFE, I was in class today, and seriously considered jumping out the ppen window right next to me, none of my friends like me, they ditch me for other groups, and I jsut feel soo alone...sorry I just needed to let it out

thanks for listening

[TheWizard]

Thats really sad. You need to find some other friends to hang out with. There are lots of people here who will be your friend and I'll be here too.

[sharkie]

I hate being shy, why the hell do I have to be it, my best friend (the one who avoids me) doesnt even talk to me, and then ive been depressed al lday, cut myself too, and then tonight, I was supposed to meet up with ppl, but im so shy, and depressed that I couldnt

p.s. if I annoy anyone with my posts please tell me

[TheWizard]

Just do your best. I bet others don't even know your shy.

[mattman]

I hope no one is annoyed by your posts. You should at least try to find a couple friends. One of my dad's Co-workers sons killed himself, even though I never met him I felt sad. I had hoped one day I would meet him, then my dad comes home and says he killed himself. His mom and dad were devastated. Just try your best and don't give up. You can talk to me anytime on AIM @ jimjim567.

You do have friends, all of us here.