I don't really know what to do about this...

[Vampire52]

I don't really know what I should do. I think very graphic murderous thoughts about people. Usually this girl, that I don't even really know, but she'd friends with this guy I happen to like. I seriously want to kill her. I can think of about 5 different ways to accomplsh it in the 30 seconds it takes her to walk into and out of my sight. I just think about it all day long, she doesn't even have to be in my sight half the time. I've even drawn pictures of her decapitated head. I want to see her bleed. I also have this obsession with blood, I love the sight of it. I've actually begun to cut myself, just to see the blood and imagine I'm cutting this girl I want to kill and that she's the one bleeding. It makes me feel better. I know that it's bad to do that, but I figure it's better to cut myself than seriously harming her.

Any advice on this?

[Atonement]

Get help. Now.

Lets break it down to three topics:

A. Cutting

If you are cutting, no matter how severe, especially if it is in anger, you need help. Immediately. You need to talk to a counselor, a psychiatrist, or others. A good guide on how to go about that is found here: Sticky click me! (http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=38277)

B. Murderous thoughts

Though different, I am going to equate this to suicide, if thats okay. In handling suicide it has a tier of danger levels these are like this in least to most concerning risks

-- Think about suicide
--- Consider suicide
---- Want to comit suicide
----- Seriously considering
------ Have a method in mind
------- Has a time and place
-------- Follows through

So, look at that as murder, you are thinking of ways, thats well far down the tree to DOING. Sure, fleeting thoughts are normal, but mtethods and such are not safe and if you get help with self harm, you should bring up your thoughts of this too.

C. Combination of those two

If you are cutting to release frustration that you can't KILL someone, that is terrible, you very well know that. And when you get help, which I 100% encourage, talk about that too.

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Be strong, be safe, and be smart.

:daisy:

[AllThatIsLeft]

i agree with Addison.
it is not healthy for you, and very dangerous.

DO NOT ignore it, thinking it'll go away. better safe than sorry. you don't want to do something life that.

and cutting yourself Not to do it, it's not the way.
please get help.

[Beautiful Obsession]

you really need to talk to somebody about this. its not your fault it just happens sometimes. but it doesnt go away unless u get it sorted.
imagen how u would feel if you did somethin to this girl without realising it!
please just go and see someone for your own sake.
also your putting yourself at harm by cutting yourself.

plz just get checked out!!

Good luck xxxxxx